13. "THE RUIN OF ME"
My actions lately, I can't even make an excuse for the things I've said, done and thought of, it's all on me and all the darkness in my eyes is because I blew out the light with my anger, the blood in my hands is because of the battles I've been fighting lately, my actions lately.
I never thought that my choice to love would be the ruin of me, giving up is what I keep doing and wasting time is what I keep doing. I Pray God forgives me for all the sins I've been committing, I've been dancing in the flame with the devil, maybe my soul is tainted now but I'm working on myself, I refuse to let this pain be the ruin of me.
My actions lately, I can't even make an excuse for the things I've been saying, doing and thinking of, it's all on me, my anger blew out the light, so I'm in the dark now and my hands are bleeding because of all the fighting I've been doing, my actions lately.
14. "POETRY"
Tell me the way I'm supposed to feel,
Starting with "Once Upon A Time",
Ending with a truth that's real.
I've been doing good,
Out of the misery and life's congestion,
Then I catch myself yet again crashing.
Sometimes I wonder what would've happened..
If I hadn't laid my eyes on her,
If I hadn't revealed my love to her,
If I had killed my interest in her.
Sometimes I wonder..
What if I hadn't paid her much attention?
What if I hadn't allowed myself to love her?
I gasp, knowing that all the "If's" won't do any good,
Won't help or cure the sickness in me but
This is where I am.
What if there is no end to this love?
What if the universe has no other person for me?
All the sickness caused by love,
The love that I can't have anymore,
How can I cure this illness?