Jay's Pov
I don't know how and why I did that, Do I like Keifer? but I wasn't able to get any answer,
But whatever I have with Keifer right now I don't want to lose it, what if we get into a relationship and he decides that he is better off alone, that I am just too much to handle then I would loose him totally just like I lost David, I could handle loosing David but not Keif, No. I said shaking my head and tears falling from my face, I went into a little panic phase just thinking about it.
I have say this to him before he misunderstands me, what he must think of me, that I kissed him , He must think I am using him to get over David because we were just ranting about this wedding 2 weeks ago and now I kissed him,
Maybe he thinks I am using him to get over David, but I didn't feel anything seeing them together, but why did I kiss him, maybe because we were too close, dancing, and atmosphere,
Maybe that is what it is. I didn't want to study more into nit because it seemed scary.
I convinced myself that it was just a spur of a moment and nothing else.
I have to put a stop to this before it all blows up and I am all alone again, I don't want to lose him.
I didn't sleep that night I wasn't able to sleep that night and I stayed at the venue itself because I don't have the courage to face him yet and in the early morning I texted him because I didn't want him to think I didn't come,
As soon as he came inside I was ashamed to even look at him, what if he gets a feeling or a look that I used him, I couldn't bear it ever, not from him,
So when he asked what was wrong, I told him everything without a breathe, I finally felt relaxed when he said the same, that is when I let out a breathe,
After that he went out to check on the work, I finally felt relieved after we talked and I am not losing him, and continued to focus on my work finally,
Then after some time I checked my phone, I received a text from Keifer saying that he is not feeling well and going home, I don't know why but I had a bad feeling about this,
I called him to check up and asked if he needed anything but he simply denied but I felt something was wrong, and I wanted to go to him immediately, but I couldn't because there was still few works pending and this was the surprise event that he planned for, So we had to do thing carefully without her knowing too but it was hectic, but I couldn't help but think about him, I didn't like the thought of him being alone while being sick,
After sometime I couldn't handle it, So I told my assistant to look after the work, even she looked surprised when I said because I have never trusted anyone with my work but this time I had to,
I took my car and went to our apartment but it was late, As I entered the apartment it was dark with no lights on, I switched it on to see Keifer lying in the couch and sleeping, I immediately dimmed the lights,
I went towards him and saw his face, it looked pale and he looked like he was weak, I wanted to wake him up and ask him if he has eaten anything but I didn't want to disturb him, So I just let him sleep and brought him a pillow and blanket.
But I couldn't move away what if he needed something, So I settled down beside the couch and that is when I noticed something was in his hands, I looked closely to see it was his mother's picture, My heart broke for him, he misses her.
I slowly caressed his hair and tried to take the photo from his hand but his hold was tight and he started muttering and shaking in his sleep, "Mom, don't leave me please please"
I got scared a little and I slowly patted him, comforting him while saying,
Jay: "Keif, it's okay I am here, I am here" I said while gently patting him and in the sleep he held my hand and I let him sleep like that because I know he need that.
and slowly while looking at him, I drifted to sleep and I woke up in the early morning itself because I had to go to the venue and look at the work because at least one of us had to be there and yesterday too, I came early, I look at him, he was still deep asleep, So I didn't want to disturb him yet because it was still too early.
His hold was little loose now, So I removed my hand from him gently and stretched my body because I slept down in a uncomfortable position,
I moved to freshen up, got ready and came back and decided to make him a porridge, I was finally done with it, I transferred it to hot pack container, to make sure it stays warm for him.
I took them and placed it on the table and left a note for him,
" I made this for you Have it and make sure to take your medicine and take rest if you want to, I'll take care of everything there, also call me when you wake up and if it gets worse call me, whatever it is call me, take care bye"
I said and placed it on the table and looked at him once again and bent down and placed a kiss on forehead before leaving.
Keifer's Pov:
I think I passed out on the couch after crying, I didn't remember much but when I finally woke up I had headache but I was covered in the blanket and there was a pillow,
I know she must have done that and I looked around to see if she was still there that's when I spotted the note along with the food, I don't know whether to laugh or cry looking at it.
I know she must gotten up early already because of the event but still she made food for me, I felt loved and cared for yet she didn't love me,
I let out a sad chuckle, I couldn't handle this anymore, I couldn't stay right in front of her and pretend that I am not in love with her, I know that will not end well for the both of us in any way,
I looked at my mom's photo and thought of something that made the tears fall immediately from my eyes but it's for the better for the both of us, I wiped my tears and,
I called my assistant and started to speak,
Keifer: "Hello, we are opening a new branch in New York, start every work that is required and book me a flight and everything else for tonight, I will go and get the legal approval from the investors and look after the paper work"
Author's note
When someone made you feel like you are too much or too less or just not enough, that feeling sometimes it sticks with you and make you feel like everyone views you the same way, So you start building wall around you to protect yourself and sometimes it is difficult to crack the wall even by yourself
and that is exactly what happened to Jay and how she felt during her relationship with David and the wall she built is pretty strong and those fears are still inside her even though she acts tough , So... let's see how it is going to crack.
That's exactly why she reacted the way she reacted.
So Keifer moving to New York?🫣
And Jay has no idea?🤷♀️
What's going to happen next?🫣
Btw I think only 2 chapters left but I don't know exactly because I might add or delete something🫣🤍
Comment your thoughts because it motivates me to write faster and I will upload soon💗✨
Hope you guys liked the chapter🤍✨