CALYX
"She wants to meet me again at the same place, huh?"
"Yes." Ronnie answers. "Would you be going yourself?"
I exhale. He is meeting her at the same nightclub tonight and I can't tell exactly how that is making me feel in my head. I would like to go see her.
But I can't. I can't show myself to her again. What happened between us was a mistake fuelled by an obsessive sense of possession that I still have not been able to fathom to this day. It should not have happened. Global population census says that there are eight billion people in the world right now. I wasn't supposed to see Gweneth again much more fuck her. Dare I say that I like it so much that I thought about asking Ronnie to slip something in her drink that will knock her out so I can fuck her again? But there is no fun when they are unresponsive. Rape and drugging is not part of my crimes baggage and will never be.
