The embarrassing moment I mentioned before… it happened on a completely normal day.
At least, it started like one.
That day, our English teacher told us that instead of sitting in the classroom, we would go to the Knowledge Pledge room. Everyone got excited instantly because any lecture outside the classroom automatically feels more interesting.
So for the last two lectures, our whole class went there.
As soon as I entered the Knowledge Pledge room, something unexpected happened—not outside, but inside my mind.
A memory.
That same place.
That same feeling.💫❤️
It reminded me of the day when I saw him for the first time wearing that black shirt.
I don't know why that memory came back so suddenly, but for a moment, I just stood there quietly, looking around, as if I was trying to relive that moment again.
"Come fast," my best friend said, pulling me slightly.
I nodded and went to sit, trying to focus on the lecture.
The class went on normally. The teacher explained the chapter in an animated way, students were responding, some were enjoying, some were just pretending to listen.
And me?
I was physically there… but mentally somewhere else
Half of my attention was on the lecture.
And the other half… was lost in memories.
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Our Knowledge Pledge room was on the first floor, and from there, you could clearly see the parking area below.
At that time, I didn't pay much attention to it.
But later… that view became important.
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Finally, the lecture ended.
By then, the school had almost emptied. Most of the students had already left since our class was delayed.
We all came out of the room and started wearing our shoes in the lobby area on the first floor.
Everything was normal.
Students talking.
Laughing.
Packing bags.
Getting ready to go home.
And then…
Just out of habit…
I looked down.
Towards the parking area.
And there he was.
Standing with his friends.
Talking casually.
Completely unaware that someone was watching him from above.
For a second, my heart skipped.
Out of all the timings…
Out of all the days…
Why today again?
Without thinking, I quickly turned to my best friend.
"He's there," I said in a low but urgent voice.
She immediately understood.
"Where?"
"Parking," I said, already bending down to wear my shoes faster.
Suddenly, everything became rushed.
My hands moved quickly, my focus completely shifted.
I just had one thought—
*He might leave.*
"I have to go," I said, almost panicking.
"Wait, wait," my best friend laughed. "At least wear your shoes properly!"
But I wasn't listening.
I wore my shoes as fast as I could and then stood up immediately.
"Come fast," I told her. "He'll go!"
And without even thinking twice…
I started running.
Yes.
Running.
In the school corridor.
For a boy.
At that moment, I didn't care.
All I knew was—
I didn't want to miss seeing him.
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Behind me, my best friend suddenly said,
"Yaar… our classmates are watching!"
And that's when it hit me.
I stopped for a second.
Turned slightly.
And saw them.
Some of my classmates were actually looking at me.
Some confused.
Some smiling.
Some probably understanding everything.
And suddenly…
Reality hit.
"What am I doing?" I thought.
For a second, I felt my face heat up.
Embarrassment.
Pure embarrassment.😩
Because I was not that kind of person.
In class, I was always calm.
Quiet.
Composed.
Not someone who runs like this.
Not someone who makes things obvious.
And yet…
There I was.
Doing exactly that.
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But then…
Something inside me said—
"So what?"
I looked at my best friend and said,
"Chhod na… mujhe un sab se kya."
And before I could overthink again…
I continued.
I went down.
Straight towards the parking area.
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And then…
I saw him again.
This time, closer.
Not too close.
But enough.
He was still there, talking with his friends.
I slowed down my steps, trying to act normal again.
Trying to hide the fact that I had just run like crazy to get there.
I walked past slowly.
Not looking directly.
But still looking.
And then…
For just a second…
It felt like he looked in my direction.
I don't know if he actually saw me properly.
Or if it was just another "maybe moment."
But for me…
That one second was enough.
Because at least…
I saw him.
And maybe…
He saw me too.👀🌺
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After that, I quietly left.
Went home.
And as soon as I sat down…
Everything came back.
That whole scene.
From the moment I saw him from above…
To the moment I ran…
To the moment my classmates stared…
To the moment I saw him again.
And then I suddenly realized—
"That was so embarrassing."
I covered my face with my hands and laughed softly.
"Seriously… what was that?"
For one boy…
I ran like that?
Ignored everything?
Didn't care about people watching?
Didn't care about how I looked?
I couldn't believe myself.
Because in class…
I was completely different.
Calm.
Quiet.
Controlled.
And today?
I was the opposite.
But strangely…
I didn't regret it.
Not even a little.
Because that one moment…
That one glance…
Made everything worth it.
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That day, I understood something new about myself.
Maybe…
I wasn't as calm as I thought.
Maybe…
I just hadn't felt something strong enough before.
Because when feelings are real…
You don't think.
You just act.
Even if it's embarrassing.
Even if it's unexpected.
Even if it's completely out of your character.
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And honestly…
That's what made it special.
Because that moment…
That small, embarrassing, uncontrollable moment…
Was completely real.
And maybe…
That's why I'll never forget it. 💫
The next day when I went to school, I was trying to act completely normal, as if nothing had happened the previous day, but somewhere inside I was still feeling that same embarrassment again and again, and just when I thought maybe no one noticed, one of my boy classmates came to me and asked casually, "Why were you running so fast yesterday? What happened?" and the moment he said that, I literally froze for a second, I didn't know what to say, I immediately put my hand on my face, trying to hide my expression and then somehow I managed to say, "Yaar you know na I was in noon shift before 8th, so my noon shift friends were going upstairs and I wanted to meet them, that's why I was running, nothing else," I don't even know how I said that so normally but inside I knew I was clearly lying, still I tried my best to sound confident and then without giving him any chance to ask more questions, I quickly changed the topic and started asking him about his studies and other random things, just to distract him, and luckily he didn't continue that topic further, after some time my best friend came there and she looked at me in that "I know everything" way and immediately held my hand and took me towards the terrace, and as soon as we reached there she asked me, "What was he asking you?" and I just said, "Don't ask, I somehow managed to lie," and we both laughed a little, and just like that, again I was on the terrace, the place I had once decided to avoid, but now it had again become part of my routine, and then suddenly, just like always, as if it was meant to happen, he came there too, and the moment I saw him, everything else faded again, I didn't say anything, didn't react much, but my eyes automatically followed him, I kept looking at him again and again, trying not to make it obvious but still unable to stop myself, and just like that, without even realizing, the whole recess passed, and I was still there… watching him quietly, just like before.But this time something felt different, not outside but inside me, because now I wasn't trying to run away from my feelings anymore, I was just living them silently, and while standing there I suddenly realized that now only two months were left, just two months and a few days, after that everything would change, our school, our routine, and maybe even this one-sided story of mine, and the strange thing was that in these past few months, so many small things had happened, so many moments, so many memories that no one else knew about, but for me they meant everything❤️, and I don't know why but it felt like these last two months were not going to be normal at all… because something was about to happen, something I never planned, something I never expected. 💫👀