(I couldn't respond to his Hi. I thought now I'll finally stop loving him. I won't cry anymore. But a drop of tear falls from my eyes. I wipe it. My heart , my brain was boiling for him but still I didn't want to see him, talk to him, or share what I'm feeling , how I felt cause he is no longer worth to know about me.)
'Hi'
'What are you doing here leave '-Paige
'No let him speak. you'll go watch the game i be there in five '
'How you doing? You're okay right?'-Demir
'Couldn't be more better.'
'I'm sorry. I should have told you that I'm leaving. But you know my family problems....because of that I couldn't think of anything. I should have had replied your messages or should have at least call you. I'm sorry baby. I love you.'-He thinks I'll again forget everything like before.
I feel sorry for him about his parents but he could reply to other people about which school he's joining. what he is doing but nothing for me. That's a total lie and I didn't want to explain those stuff to him. I no longer feel the same with him anymore. Last year when she kissed him during the trip had given me a scar in my heart and now that shame girl telling me stuffs about him gives him no space in my heart. He said he never liked he. She did that on purpose but now it doesn't look and feel the same.
'Look I don't want to fight with you anymore. I feel sad for you about your parents but those silly reasons won't make me forgive you. You ignored me this whole month and now your so casually asking for forgiveness. I ...'
'What can I do to get your forgiveness?'
'Actually NO! I don't want to forgive you. I'm done with you and your excuses. let's breakup. That would be better and easier.'(As I began to leave he catches my hand. this was the first time I felt hatred instead of love when he touches me. I pull my hand back.)
'Don't ever touch me again. EVERR.'
I no longer wanted to cry for him, wait for him or love him anymore. When I look back again I see Sam watching us. I leave for the basketball court without a word passing by Sam. The game begins we all laughing cheering for our school.
'I'll wait for you no matter what' He speaks louder so that I can hear. I stop but don't turn back and again continue walking.
'SAMYEUL! SAMYEUL!' - all girls started cheering for him
'DEMIR! DEMIR!- other school girls also started
I can't believe my self I'm cheering for Samuel. My enemy. This is the first time I'm cheering for someone else and not Demir.)
'SAMYEULL'(He suddenly looks at me and I smiled at him like an complete idiot but that piss of shit looked at me and ignored. The game is getting serious. We need 3 points and only 5 seconds left. Ball is in Sam's hand and he scores. WE WINN. We all are jumping shouting. It was fun. After prize distribution all the girls gather around Sam and Demir like they are the prize. I look at Demir and I think this is the goodbye. I'll never see him meet him and love him anymore. I walk back to the classroom.
'IRISS'-Sam
(I look back and it's Sam. Everyone's watching me.)
' keep this medal on my desk'-Sam hands me his medal
I go near him and tell him 'Don't you have hands. keep it yourself.'
'I need help?'-Sam whisper near my ear.
' what?'
'I really need to get out from this circle. If you do this I'll teach you math for two days.'-SAm
'Aww, you can't get out of here. You need help. Say please then I'll help you in better way and you need to teach me math for a month.'
'4 days'-Sam
'20 days'
'okay 7 days no negotiation.'-Sam
'Okay fine...' on a lazy voice 'But say please now'
'What please to you.' He sigh. 'Okay please Iris.'-Sam
'That's how you say please but still okay fine I'll help you.'
'Are you still not done, because you promised me to carry something heavy.' I raise my voice
Everyone was like what?
Sam-'What heavy things?'
I point at him. 'You. You're heavy. Emotionally. Now walk.'
(He starts walking with me. We reach to a point where nobody hears us even if they see us.)
'Can they here us?'- Sam
'I guess no.'(we both look at each other and laugh while walking.)
'You said what? I'm heavy. That also emotionally. common you were called for help not to embarrass me.'-Sam
'You're alive be grateful and it wasn't that bad idea huh. It was good.'
'Thank you so much miss Iris for the stupid plan that you did for me.'-Sam (We are still laughing our ass out. I look back and see Demir watching us leave. My laugh suddenly faded but I wasn't sad. I turn around and leave with Sam.)