flashback back in High School
Alarm sound
6:00 am
Lui wakes up.
Another school, huh… reviews lessons.
This time I really must say something in history class. Even though I hate the teacher, I should improve my grades. Maths is not my strong point, no matter how much I try, I didn't get any better in grades, so I should do something in history.
7:00 am
Tries to eat.
Bgauhh! I can't even eat these days. Sometimes I really wonder if I am even okay, but I don't have time to worry about that. I just have to finish high school, go to college, and earn money.
Every school day, Lui didn't eat. Rather, he couldn't eat even by forcing himself. Somehow he didn't have an appetite, or maybe anxiety got the best of him.
Leaves house.
Leaving the house early is something I really have to change, but I really hate being late when going to class and being the one who is late, though they all come late.
People walking in the street.
All these people are so annoying. I gotta choose one route so I don't end up bumping into them, or better yet, have a route where I don't have people on my road.
Almost arrives at school.
I really hate this road, because this is the only road that takes me to school. Heartbeat raises… all things can happen here: a teacher coming up and me having to say good morning to him, a couple of students doing their thing and me being the third wheel interrupting, or even worse, a classmate seeing me and wanting to hang out with me until we get to class.
Finishes the road.
Weird… today on the road there was no one. Is it because it is Monday? Starts thinking.
Well, the guard seems to be here… uhhh… here we go. Tries to speak.
Good morning today!
Guard: Good morning to you too!
Lui feels annoyed.
It's not like I hate the guard; he is a good person, I think, that has to deal with so many idiot students in this high school. But I just really hate talking to people or saying good morning. Whoever created them must have been really happy.
Enters high school.
Uhh… tries to open door.
Again I came early. That's why there was nobody on the road. Now I should wait for all of them to gather so I could enter the classroom. Could it even get worse than this?
Guard looks at Lui.
Guard: What's wrong? Do you want to enter inside?
Lui: U-um… well yes, but it's locked.
Guard: I can help with that.
Unlocks the door.
Lui (thinking): I should say thank you; he went out of his way to come here and even unlock the door for me.
As Lui tries to speak, the guard says:
Guard: It's okay. You can enter.
Lui enters, embarrassed.
I should have thanked him, but now the moment is gone… though I appreciate him.
Sees classroom empty.
This really is amazing! Having the whole classroom to myself… yet I know I will hate it so much when someone comes here. Well, what to do… spend the time in the toilet, or risk being here and having to talk to the first person that appears here? Goes to his seat and opens the book.
As if I would waste time in the toilet… though I have done it once to spend time since I didn't want to go out.
Door opens and it is the teacher of the first lesson hour.
Mina: Good morning! But aren't you a bit too early?
Lui (thinking): Out of all the people entering here… the teacher, really… now I should even talk to her.
Good morning, teacher! Well… um… I guess I did the road too fast, hahaha.
Mina: Well, it's not like it's wrong. Don't take it the wrong way; you can come whenever you want.
Lui (thinking): Why did you bother saying that out loud then? You could have said just the good morning part!
30 minutes pass.
No single word has been said ever since the teacher came into the classroom.
Lui (thinking): This is getting really annoying. I don't mind all this quietness, but I feel like I am weird for not keeping up a conversation with her. I mean, she even may want a conversation. I really don't wanna bother, but this quietness is becoming weird and I don't want to be weird.
Mina (thinking): Lui… hmm… he really is a good kid and student, but I feel that he lacks something, like talking. Though during lesson hours he always talks trying his best, why isn't he like other students? Watches him from legs to head. Is talking hard for him? Should I even help him out?
Lui (thinking): Why the heck is she looking down at me?! How dare this woman! As if I care what she thinks about me… I only need her grades. But if I think well about it, her opinion may also raise my grades too. Tch! I guess I should say something.
Both decide to talk until their eyes meet.
Mina (thinking): What the heck was that cold expression of him? I felt terrified from even watching him. How is he so different when he is in lesson hours? Does he really hate talking so much?
Lui (thinking): Great… now I did it. She will think I am some kind of depressed dude that doesn't like life at all. Well, she is not that wrong… I may be depressed somehow.
Watches the ceiling.
I can't get lost in thought in front of her, not now… my whole other subjects' lessons are at stake right now. The thought never occurred to me, but she is a teacher too. She can influence how the other teachers see me, as well as how they can put my grades. This would be good if I could have a good relationship with her, but for now, I am really on bad terms. It's been almost 30 minutes and I haven't even made up a conversation with her. Sighs. I won't do it. If I try to force it, she would see through me. I should have never come here so early… or rather stayed in the toilet.
Mina (thinking): This is getting too tense of an atmosphere. I should talk to him about something I know he will respond to, but he made that look to me. I am his teacher… sighs… maybe he needs somebody to talk to but can't admit it? C-could he be a tsundere?! Becomes nervous.
Takes off the teacher chair and goes straight to Lui.
Lui (thinking): Why is she c-coming at me?!
Door opens.
Good morning!!!
Mina (thinking): Oh, why did he of all people have to show up now?!
Lui (thinking): This student really was the best person that could come now !