"Are you happy, my legs feel like jelly."
"I am not the one who kept saying more."
Taffy winced, he couldn't even recall whatever went on that night.
"Don't you have a conscience? You should have known I'd want to walk the next day."
"Maybe I didn't want you leaving me this time."
"What?"
"I made you some breakfast."
He helped fix a pillow before lowering him to the floor.
"At least you aren't sending me away the very minute you wake up."
"And miss on you giving me after care?"
"Shouldn't you be going to the person you like for these things?"
Taffy quickly turned to look at him.
"What did you say?"
"You said you liked someone last night."
"Did I say who it was?"
"Wanna divulge now? I want to know who it is."
Taffy sighed audibly before turning to the plain porridge bowl placed before him.
"None of your business."
"You are still using me, the least you could do is at least give me a name."
"The person doesn't like me back don't worry, we aren't anything. He doesn't even know about it."
"That doesn't mean I shouldn't know. And you shouldn't go around having sex with someone else, how do you expect them to feel?"
"Aren't you having sex with me even after knowing I like someone? Who's the biggest sinner between us?"
"I thought he was abstaining."
Taffy slowly turned to the corner sofa set where someone was sat watching them discuss something he'd never thought they'd touch up on.
"What the hell is he doing here?"
"I came to draw, don't mind me."
"Y..you! You animal!"
Raising a knife and pointing it at Barnard, he froze seeing someone else standing by eating cup noodles.
"Uh-oh! Umm hey brother in law, don't mind me, I am air."
"Brother in law my foot, just... you two leave already."
"The abstaining, even if I leave I'll still ask so just tell me."
Taffy hid his head in his palms. Of all the things the fucker had to do, he invited his friends over the night after he'd finally accepted to fuck him and now he's learning that he'd been abstaining before, what changed...no slash that.
"Did you even go to the doctors?"
"I did."
"You went for a check-up, something Quint has been telling you for years and you've been postponing? DAMN!"
"You two better leave..."
"Why were you abstaining ?"
Barnard sighed. It had been his fault. He shouldn't have let them in early morning but he was a fool and everything around it. Rashid at his corner would have stayed still and no one would even know he was around. Kristoff, in that room would have passed out asleep the moment he found some place to fix himself..
Or so he'd thought. Now he had three pairs of eyes watching him.
"I had been told to try abstinence by a psychologist ...and Riley. To see whether I could stop being dependent on sex to relieve stress."
"And I was your test subject...am I that unappealing to you?"
"What are you saying, of course you are appealing. Would I have been thrown out everyday if you weren't?"
"Maybe I'm just sexually appetizing or the only thing you could prod at."
Kristoff stopped mid chew and begun taking tiny steps towards the door. He was sure this was an argument they weren't supposed to be in on.
"If that were the case, would I have even let you near me?"
"I don't know, you tell me."
A scuffle then a door opening and closing before there was silence.
"Do you know why I chose to take that advice...it was because I wanted to know if it was just your body I wanted."
"And it's obvious, right?"
"I want your body yes, I've wanted you since that day I first saw you but somehow now I want more."
"What are you implying?"
"I got jealous when you talked about liking someone else and I acted on impulse. I felt you were just using me while thinking about that other person and I wanted to knock that notion out of you."
"By making me unable to walk."
"I didn't..."
"Cut the crap!"
"Yeah, I might have seen red and pounced on you teeth and all. I don't even recall nearly all of it."
Taffy's brows raised. He'd thought at least one of them recalled something but it seemed there sex sessions were all always full of loop holes that only the imagination could fill up. Maybe they should just try having sex while they were both sober then he'd realize the only name he'd call out would be Barnard's and not any other person's.
"What do we do about those two?"
"If they were to tell someone, it's already out there."
Though he hated to admit it, he was too impulsive in doing the deed the previous night, in inviting those two in and even in admitting he was jealous. He was still jealous, and was realizing he wouldn't be told a thing by the guy who'd resumed breakfast in front of him.
"You could choose to abstain all you want, but I want to sleep with you."
It was also his way of making sure Barnard wasn't sleeping with someone else out there. He liked Barnard and he wanted to snatch him from everyone. After thinking about it for a while, he'd thought to himself that it was great they had had an audience while talking about it.
Infront of his friends, Barnard had admitted to being jealous of someone he didn't know whether they existed or not. It was a step to laying himself out there and before he admitted to liking him, really liking him and not the bed partner thing, he wouldn't give up.
"What about that person in your heart?"
"I want them out of it, don't you want to help me with that?"
"You should be giving them a chance."
"Then what? Isn't it better to know what you're pushing yourself into?"
Barnard watched him pick a napkin and wiped the corners of his mouth before he turned to him.
"I am not ready to put myself out there and get rejected by someone. The day you think this arrangement is beneath you tell me straight to my face."
"Does that mean you want us to be bed partners?"
Taffy sighed...if that was what got this guy to look at him sure.
"Do you want us having rules or something?"
"You tell me, I've never had such."
"And you think I have? But I think first things first, you sleep with only me."
"Oooh...does that apply to even you?"
He hadn't thought Barnard would put that out first, great. Now he didn't have to beat around the bush for it.
"I will be exclusively yours till that time."
"Deal! Next thing?"
"Let's move in together next semester."
Taffy smiled. This was new, the guy in front of him was putting himself out there, so much so that he felt there was a catch.
"I thought you'd need your space."
"Isn't it the only way to avoid temptation."
"I think that's one way to make us get fed up early but okay."
He'd just have to make sure he got himself planted in Barnard's life before he decided he was fed up.