Tiva cried for many hours. Nivi joined her as she got no time to grieve over Fipo. Yet,Nivi couldn't cry more. Tiva also stopped grieving after a while.
"You need to rest. You're over thinking"
" I can't help it"
" If Neteyam is here you don't have to carry a long weight. Let him do his duty. He will find his Tsahik anyway"
" Don't talk about him. He will never ever like me"
" Good, you deserve so much better than that. Leaders will find own matches. We are just village girls."
" Nivi... Can we stop talking about mating process. I don't want to get married. I would rather talk to trees"
" Hey, you have me... Don't be like that"
" I mean I don't need a mate. Artsut was right about that..."
" girl..., Artsut... just tried to gaslight you."
" whatever, let's stop it. I just want him to live. It's much better than witnessing his death"
Neteyam silently listened to their conversation. He couldn't face Tiva at some point. He had zero feelings for her even then. But when he found out she was innocent all the time it made him pang of something. He remembered his slight touch of her hand by him. Tiva was just an ordinary girl back then. Though he didn't pay attention he knew she was one of the most optimistic.
Neteyam remembered the moments he was with her then. It was when he was a child. While he catched the fish from river correctly she could not do that for 10 times.
" Kill the fish" Artsut said
" I can't, fish is innocent"
" You are gonna starve without hunting then?" Eylan asked.
" Fish's eyes tell me not to kill him"
" We have to kill for survival" Eylan said motivating her.
Ever since that Tiva wasn't seen as someone would become a warrior. When Jake trained others Tiva could never win. She was always the disappointment.
" You have to attack..." Neteyam remembered how his father commanded to Tiva.. But Tiva's movements were always week. Like her bones weren't strong enough. She couldn't run fast as others. None cared about her. Especially when she asked
" Are Sky people that bad? "
" Yes, They are bad" Artsut said in bad temper.
" Then why did that Pilot lady helped to protect us...?"
None could answer for that question. Not even Jake. Tiva noticed that awkward silent. It was like defending RDA. After that, though she never noticed people began to suspect her. Na'vi barely mentioned about Trudy Chacon though they respected her because it was long time ago.
How did Tiva knew about her? It was the question he had. When he was a child even he did not know about Trudy Chacon until his father said about that. That was enough to suspect Tiva.
" You can't challenge the fate Tiva" Nivi said to her..
" I know I can't... There must be another way".
" We can't hope much"
Nivi said and left. Tiva attached dead Shimmyfly and the flying lizards to her loinclothes. Neteyam found this behaviour is mildly weird. He cleared his throat..
" Why would you do that..."
" They were my best friends.". Tiva replied defensively.
" You're behaving like a child"
" I can't change myself as people expect.".
That was a quiet statement for someone who had to transform himself to become a leader. Tiva sensed it right away..
" I am a weak Coward. I wish I could change but I can't".
Neteyam frowned at her. Tiva didn't care. She was looking at her song cord instead. She looked around to see whether someof her little friends are still alive just to brush off her feelings for him.
" Poor animals they must be hiding... I missed them so much."
" You missed animals out of everyone?"
" Even if I did miss others what can I do if they think me as their enemy?".
Neteyam couldn't reply for that. Tiva was surprised to see how her treatments were successful in a day as his wounds were completely healed.
" I wish I was strong like you. I could have fight with RDA"
" You can fight?"
" I can't...I don't know why I don't have enough strength.."
Neteyam could only look at her in those instances. He knew the painful truth as Artsut said to him when he was with Eylan and Yomiting.
" I found her in a stone. Her parents might have died... She haven't fed for 3 days... Wonder how she was still alive."
Neteyam didn't know why nothing clicked on him before. It was a horror story for everyone then. Many pitied on her way back then. Tiva ate a lot when she was a child now she is bit overweight than others because of that...Yet, strength wasn't in her.
" How can we rescue them?" Tiva asked disturbing Neteyam's memory.
" I don't know... They are too strong. You could have seek help from my father"
He knew it would piss her off. But he wasn't sure how to fight without warriors in his clan.
" You know what... As the kids said Yomiting ride Toruk Makto already....".
" What? Its impossible...."
Neteyam said as if he faced thunderstorms. It was one of the targets he wanted to achieve. Now Yomiting even did that was too much to process.
" I knew it was a stupid Idea to rely on the Holy mighty bird..."
" Don't you dare to talk about Toruk Makto like that"
" so, what can Toruk Makto do when people are dying? Eywa won't take sides so does Toruk... RDA might even capture him. If he's appeared... What's use of leading if we can't protect our own?"
Neteyam didn't know why he couldn't reply to that. Of course he knew Tiva underestimated Toruk Makto due to the anger she has.
"You are stupid, ignorant like a child"
" I didn't say I disrespect Toruk Makto... We are in a middle of war he can't save us. If we are like this. He would die saving us"
" You are disrespecting Toruk Makto do you even know how to ride an Ikran.. You can always piss everyone off."
Those words cut Tiva's mental wounds deeply. She wished she could ride a one. But all the time she tried she was barely saved from death. She noticed Neteyam's anger.
" Fine. I will find my banshee sister today. You can lead then".
Tiva didn't wait to hear his response. Neteyam's anger was already gone to horror. He could not believe Tiva would do that. He tried to follow but Tiva ran faster this time. It was an unknown path in the jungle he never entered. He did not know why he never entered there.
He could not go much further it was filled with thron bushes. And dangerous animals no one wants encounter. He had to go back because of that. Otherwise floating mountains will rotate till it will make him dizzy.
Neteyam returned back. Spider was there waiting for him. Zaxtu noticed it's him. Palun looked at Raktun. Paw'ri was skeptical as before.
" Where's Tiva?" Paw'ri asked.
" She went to floating mountains"
" What? Has she lost her mind?" Raktun asked instantly.
" Neteyam....You said that" Nivi said getting furious at him.
" Yes I did. She said Toruk Makto is just a bird we venarate.. I was mad...".
" She didn't mean it for real idiot" Palun said.
Nivi slapped on his face. Neteyam never got slapped like that before. Besides none dared. But these na'vi aren't even Ometikaya. He thought he will be recognised by others for his services but now he realised he did not prove himself to them yet. Besides all of them were exiled warriors except Tiva, Spider and little kids.
" She is dead now. Thanks to you. Do you even know how much she loved you?... You never did... She even did the things she never should....who would even try to get into their flight machines... Just to save
...She even let Yomiting have you... You did that...."
Vawmipa patted on Nivi's shoulder. Nivi cried on Vawmipa's shoulder after that. Neteyam couldn't believe what he heard... He knew she had feelings for him but he never thought it was deep enough try fighting...
" Stop fighting all of you" Zaxtu said. But ocean wasn't the forest.
" She may live..." Raktun said hoping awkwardly.
" She isn't strong like us." Nivi said.
" I am sorry"
" Sorry, I will never forgive you for that" Nivi yelled at Neteyam.
" I didn't think she would do that"
Neteyam couldn't face them. Kids were clueless as Spider was with them. Spider hoped Tiva won't die.
" Tiva won't die. You all are underestimating her" Vawmipa said after a long silence.
" She isn't strong enough. She got zero fighting skills. She get tired often..."
" But she has determination. Even without those fighting skills she rescued us. You all forget that this soon?"
" I said she will live" Raktun snapped back.
" What she saved all of you?" Neteyam asked.
Vawmipa told him everything. It gave him roller-coaster of emotions. It made him hate Yomiting further and filled him with guilt.
With sheer gut Tiva climbed floating mountains. She was more mad than being scared. Ikrans were roaming. With sheer gut she approached to them. One Ikran came to attack her.
Tiva hissed at the bird and after a long conflict with the bird she became friends with the banshee. It was a long fight. Yet, she didn't fall from the mountain this time. It wasn't just taking risk. It's survival.
Then they began to ride.
Tiva breathed fresh air in the sky. Her Ikran was enjoying her new na'vi sister. Tiva named her as Maya. Maya brought her near to RDA as if Ikran read Tiva's mind.
Tiva dressed in Trudy's clothes again. She kept them in that cave and no one noticed that. She realised may be she was wrong about having that mind set about Toruk Makto. But now she decides to do what she can.
Tiva went in carefully letting Maya rest in the cave. She saw Yomiting practice gun shooting. She looked around and found where na'vi people were trapped.
" Hey girl, what are doing here?" A young man asked.
" Well I haven't got the orders yet" Tiva managed to say a lie.
" hmm.... How about killing those blue dildos"
Tiva was surprised at the fact that how she managed to act too well.
" Yeah, but what if Colonel didn't agree"
" Colonel want them to die ASAP. But they're too strong."
" Fine, I will do it"
" good girl. Meet me at the midnight in your white body. I bet you're so hot in that"
That man said licking his lips. Tiva realised that's the same man trying to abuse Vawmipa. Tiva went there holding her gun. It's impossible to save everyone. She knew there are mire than enough trapped in.
Besides she knew that man is coming after her. She went outside not to get caught by camera.
" Hmmm... I guess you are so eager for that"
Tiva said too innocently using Yomiting's techniques.
" Maybe you can moan as a blue bitch. God damn it.."
Tiva held the gun and shot between his legs right away. He was dead instantly. Tiva didn't feel bad about killing him. She cleaned his blood in her hand and about to get in.
" impressive" Neteyam said with a smirk.
" You came here?"
" Not just me Skxwang. We thought you were dead"
Neteyam said and Tiva noticed others were with him. Nivi hugged her instantly.
" I am more than happy to see that monster's death"
Vawmipa said.