Earlier that day, Lira had gone into the city to confirm what had only been whispers within the palace walls.
She hadn't expected to find certainty.
But she found something worse.
Conviction.
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The marketplace was alive in the way it always was—voices rising and falling, merchants calling out, fabrics shifting in the breeze. But beneath it all, something else moved.
A current.
Low.
Persistent.
Unavoidable.
And then she heard it.
Two women stood near a spice stall, their voices lowered but not enough to escape notice.
One of them was older—her posture steady, her gaze sharp with the kind of awareness that came from watching generations rise… and fall.
"What I saw today will stir the rumors even more," the older woman said, leaning closer. "Mark my words."
Her companion frowned. "What do you mean?"
"I saw the Queen Mother herself," the woman continued. "Preparing baskets—food, silks, valuables. All to be sent to Princess Emelia."
The name alone was enough to draw attention.
"In exile?" the other woman asked, surprised.
The older one nodded slowly. "And not just that. I'd wager she's already preparing for a grand celebration."
"A celebration?"
"For when the child is born."
The younger woman's eyes widened. "Emelia? Are you certain?"
"Yes," the older woman said firmly. "She is expecting."
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That was all it took.
The words spread.
Soft at first.
Then faster.
Carried from one voice to another, reshaped slightly each time, but never losing their core.
And as Lira made her way back toward the palace, one whisper followed her more persistently than the rest.
"Heard she carries the next heir… if the Queen cannot."
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By the time Lira reached Athalia—
The damage was already done.
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Athalia stood still as she listened.
She didn't interrupt.
Didn't react.
But something cold settled deep within her, sharp and immediate.
Clear.
She needed to act.
Not later.
Not eventually.
Now.
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Erase the threat.
Or outpace it.
There were only two paths.
Remove Emelia—and the child.
Or secure the throne beyond question.
Produce an heir first.
One way or another—
The crown would not slip from her grasp.
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"Why now, Emelia…?" she whispered.
Because that was the truth beneath everything else.
It wasn't the nobles.
It wasn't the gossip.
It wasn't even the idea of another woman entering the palace.
It was timing.
It was this moment.
The way it felt less like coincidence…
And more like something long buried beginning to rise again.
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The past she had sealed away.
The choices she had made.
The things she had sacrificed to secure her place—
None of it felt distant anymore.
It felt close.
Too close.
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As twilight settled around her, the breeze shifted slightly, brushing against her skin with a chill she hadn't felt in years.
And somewhere deep within—
Something began to crack.
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"Even in exile…" she murmured, her hands tightening into fists, "you still reach for everything."
Her jaw set.
"I won't let you."
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"Your Majesty," Lira spoke carefully, breaking the silence. "There is something else."
Athalia didn't turn. "Say it."
"The people… they've begun speaking more openly," Lira said. "About bringing in another wife for the King."
That made Athalia pause.
Not visibly.
But deeply.
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"Lira," she said quietly, "how long has that been circulating?"
Lira hesitated. "Months. Quietly. No one dared say it aloud before."
"And now?"
"…Now they do."
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"And Adrian?" Athalia asked, her voice even.
"Has he heard?"
"Yes," Lira replied softly. "But he has not encouraged it. The King has always cherished you."
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Cherished.
The word lingered.
Warm.
Fragile.
Dangerous.
Because love, no matter how strong—
Could bend.
Under pressure.
Under expectation.
Under the quiet insistence of a kingdom that demanded continuity above all else.
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Footsteps approached behind her.
Measured.
Familiar.
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"Athalia."
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She didn't turn immediately.
"You left the banquet early," she said.
"So did you," Adrian replied, stepping beside her. "Lira said it troubled you."
"It was nothing," she said lightly. "Just talk."
"But it affected you," he said, more firmly now. "I could feel it."
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She turned then.
His face was open.
Concerned.
Trusting.
And that made it harder.
Because she could not tell him the truth.
Not about the herbs.
Not about the choices she had made.
Not about the quiet fear that had begun tightening around her chest.
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So she chose something safer.
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"Adrian," she said softly, "have you been asked to take another wife?"
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He blinked, caught off guard.
"Is that what this is about?" he asked gently. "Athalia… those are just whispers."
"So you've heard them."
"I have," he admitted. "And I've given the same answer every time."
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She waited.
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"The queen is my wife," he said. "There is no need for another."
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Athalia looked away slightly.
"And if the pressure grows?"
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"It won't change anything," Adrian said firmly. Then, softer, "Not unless you asked me to."
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Her breath caught.
"Do you think I do not want a child?"
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His expression softened, sadness threading through it.
"I know you do," he said quietly. "And I know how much it weighs on you, even when you don't say it."
He reached up, brushing his hand gently against her cheek.
"These things take time. You cannot let their voices fill you with fear."
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Fear.
If only it were that simple.
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"They spoke of Emelia," Athalia said.
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Adrian's brows lifted slightly. "Your sister?"
"She is with child."
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He studied her.
"Does that trouble you?"
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She didn't answer immediately.
Then—
"Why wouldn't it?"
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"You're sisters," he said gently. "Her happiness doesn't take anything from you."
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Athalia said nothing.
Because that wasn't how the world worked.
Not here.
Not for queens.
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"What is it, then?" Adrian pressed.
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"The comparisons," she said quietly. "They've started again."
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A pause.
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"Athalia," he said carefully, "no one compares to you."
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She gave a faint smile.
One that didn't reach her eyes.
"That's not what they think."
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He frowned. "If anyone has spoken against you—"
"They haven't," she interrupted. "Not openly."
Her voice lowered.
"They say it gently. Sweetly. In ways that make it seem like the wound belongs to you."
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Adrian stepped closer, taking her hand.
"You are their queen," he said firmly. "No one's pregnancy—your sister's or anyone else's—can take that from you."
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"Perhaps," she said softly.
But the unease inside her only deepened.
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Emelia's life was moving forward.
Growing.
Changing.
Even in exile.
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And Athalia—
Felt still.
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"Athalia," Adrian said, his voice gentler now, "tell me everything. Let me carry it with you."
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For a moment—
She almost did.
The truth rose to her lips.
Years of silence pressing forward, demanding release.
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Then—
She swallowed it.
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"There's nothing more," she said. "I'm just tired."
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He studied her for a long moment.
Searching.
But she gave him nothing.
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"You mustn't let this consume you," he said finally. "You are enough."
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She nodded.
"I know."
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"Then rest," he said. "Tomorrow, we ride beyond the walls. It always helps you clear your mind."
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That softened her.
Slightly.
"I would like that."
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He kissed the back of her hand.
And for a brief moment—
She let herself lean into it.
The warmth.
The sincerity.
The love she knew she did not deserve.
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Because she had been lying to him.
For years.
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When he left, she remained where she was.
Watching the kingdom below.
Lights flickering like scattered stars.
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Her hand moved slowly to her abdomen.
A place that had known only emptiness.
By her own choice.
By her own design.
Sealed with herbs.
With silence.
With sacrifice.
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But now—
The whispers pressed in.
Relentless.
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"Princess Emelia is with child."
"The people compare."
"The kingdom must endure."
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Her fingers tightened.
"I will not be replaced."
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"Lira," she called, her voice steady once more, "send for the royal physician."
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Lira froze. "Your Majesty… you haven't allowed—"
"Send him."
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There was no room for hesitation.
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Moments later, the physician arrived.
Calm.
Respectful.
Unaware of the storm he had stepped into.
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"You summoned me, Your Majesty?"
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Athalia stood before him.
Unmoving.
"I want to know why I have not conceived."
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He conducted his examination carefully.
Measured.
Thorough.
And when he finished—
He bowed.
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"Your Majesty… you are in excellent health. There is no physical impediment."
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Her breath tightened.
"Are you certain?"
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"Yes," he said. "Your body is fully capable."
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Fully capable.
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"You may go."
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When he left—
Silence closed in.
Tighter.
Sharper.
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She could conceive.
There was nothing wrong with her.
The kingdom demanded an heir.
Adrian desired one.
Her sister carried one.
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And for the first time since she had taken the throne—
Athalia felt it.
Something she thought she had destroyed long ago.
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Helplessness.