Sam's POV
I ran out of the house, feeling like the coward I was. I found myself running towards the supermarket where my car was. As soon as I found it I got in. The sun was shining brightly in the sky today so I had to be careful. I rode back home driving like a formula 1 driver. I picked up the hooded jacket I leave in the car just in case I get caught outside during daylight and it's sunny and slipped it on and took off in the forest. I found a vicious bear and since it was spring season it was more irritable than usual. I took out all my frustration and anger on the poor animal. I drained it dry and left it lying on the ground. I paced around, kicking the ground and punching everything in my way. When I had practically destroyed everything on the ground, I climbed up a tree, pulling out all the branches before they hit me. I ran through the trees, dodging branches. Finally, about an hour later the anger that fuelled my strength was disappearing. I was no longer upset for what Emily had said. Instead I was left broken and alone.
This slightly felt like when was going through the process of becoming a vampire. I wanted someone to hold me and tell me everything was going to be alright. Sure, Emily had done that but I needed someone else to do it.
I needed Alec.
I wanted Alec.
"We were supposed to be together for eternity." I said to myself. I loved him too much to be able to forget him. I missed him. He was my mate so he was supposed to be with me.
I missed him telling me he loved me, or grabbing me from behind and wrapping his arms around me. And when he jumped on the bed with me or when he sprinkled the rose petals on me when we made love. I missed how possessive would get over me and I even missed his cute innuendoes that used to make me feel so hot.
I had to go to him. I could not survive one more day of immortality without him.
I rushed out of the forest and ran until I found a public telephone. I had left my mobile at home and what I had to do couldn't wait any longer or I'd chicken out.
I dialled the number from the letter, the number I had read over and over and learnt by heart. The phone rang and a woman picked up the phone on the fourth ring. I gasped in shock. Had Alec met another woman? That's impossible; he's MINE. I wanted to rip this bitch's throat off. I realised she was a secretary and sighed when she answered the phone in her chirpy Italian voice. "Buon Giorno, Palazo dei Priori, comme vi posso aituare?" (Good morning, Clock Tower. How can I help you?)
"Sto cercando Alec. Posso parliarli, per favore?" (I'm looking for Alec. Can I talk to him, please?) I heard her gasp over the phone.
"Siete cherta che non avete il numero sbagliato?" (Are you sure that you don't have a wrong number?)she asked me. I fumed in frustration.
"Sono piuttosto sicura che questa è la torre dell'orologio chiamata Palazzo dei Priori a Volterra, dove Alec - non tanto alto, capelli castani, pelle molto bianca - risiede." (I'm pretty sure this is the only clock tower called Palazzio dei Priori in Volterra where Alec - not so tall, brown hair, really white skin - resides.) I said with thick irritation in my voice.
"Mi hanno informato che lui non è qui. Volete lasciare un messagio?"(They have informed me that he's not here. Do you want to leave a message? ) she asked me. I wasn't expecting this. I was thinking... Yeah, I don't know what I was thinking. Was I going to tell him that I'm coming back, only to be manipulated by Aro again? I could always hang up and pretend this never happened. But then I'd fall back into my usual depression. I needed him so much, yet I had to stay away from all those who surrounded him. This is what I call choosing between two evils.
"Um, er... dirgli che Io... lo amo, ma c'è troppo contro di noi. Mi dispiace tanto!" ( Tell him that I... I love him, but there's too much against us. I'm so sorry. ) I said. I regretted my words the minute they came out of my mouth. What if he was really dating someone else? Would he appreciate me telling him that? And what if he was still waiting? That would have been so selfish of me, getting his hopes up. I was not ready to face the Volturi. I was not ready to go back to the land where they would deceive me, trick me and hurt me over and over again.
And what if he came here for me? I wanted so much to be free with him, here all alone. But could I live with the fact that for him to be here with me people like Emily would die right in front of me and obviously I would not be able to save them since it was my nature to put my mate first? And could we be happy knowing that he had left his sister behind him. That would surely pain him. And well, even if Jane was a pain in the ass, I couldn't really blame her. She had been with her brother for over three centuries and suddenly she had to share. And after the whole rape thing, it was just plain clear that she just needed help.
I didn't wait for the woman to ask me who I was. Perhaps if I got lucky she would think this was a prank and forget everything but I highly doubted that. I slammed the phone in place.
Why was I such a loser! I was a chicken! The truth was that I was afraid to face him again. In almost ten years people change. I changed and he probably did too.
I felt strength leave my feet and I slid down the telephone box. Suddenly, someone outside tapped against the box and sent vibrations all over the place.
"Are you alright?" a guy, probably eighteen years old, asked me. He was wearing a pair of dark sunglasses so I couldn't see his face. But one sniff told me that he was different. I didn't elaborate on the scent. I had much bigger worries. I got up abruptly. I darted out of the telephone booth and was about to run off when he suddenly grabbed my hand.
"Hey, are you alright? You don't look so good." he said to me. I shrugged his grasp off.
"I'm fine, kid." I told him and ran away, trying hard not to use super speed. I was a thirty year old woman stuck in the body of a teenager who was suffering like a love sick puppy. I was anything but fine.
As soon as I reached the forest, I found a really tall tree and climbed up. Beneath me all I could see were the tree tops and surrounding me was the setting sun and it's beautiful violet-orange sky. Out there, somewhere was my Alec. But that was the one place I could not be.
Alec's POV
It was about nine o'clock when I returned back to the clock tower. I was still in a very bad mood after I talked to Aro. I was going straight to my room when suddenly I heard someone say my name. My head snapped up and I saw Dana, the new secretary staring at me.
"Che cosa voi?" (What do you want?) I asked her a little bit too harshly.
"Una donna ha telefonato oggi. Ha chiesto di parlare con voi e"(A woman phoned today. She asked to talk to you and-) she said but I cut her off instantly.
"Che cosa ha detto? Ha lasciato un messaggio?" (What did she say? Did she leave a message?)" I asked her, rejoicing on the inside. Sam called. She had finally called! After a whole decade we would reunite. I could not believe it!
"Signore, mi fai male"(Sir, you're hurting me)she told me. I frowned at her, but then I realised that I was gripping her shoulders tightly. That was bound to leave a few blackish-purple bruises. I took my hands off her.
"Mi dispiace ma per favore dimmi, cosa ha ditto?" (I apologise but please tell me, what did she say?) I looked at her, demanding an answer but she suddenly turned very uncomfortable.
"Ha detto ... Ehm ... che lei ... ti ha amato, ma che c'è troppo contro di voi. Ha anche detto che le dispiace." (She said... Um... that she... loved you, but that there was too much against you. She also said that she's sorry.) my face lit in bliss.
She loved me.
She still loved me.
So she hadn't found somebody else. She was still mine. Even though she had not told me where she was so that I could reach her, knowing that she still cared for me made me feel way better than I have ever felt during the past decade. I swore to myself that I would find her. That I would not become like Marcus.
"Dovete dirmi dove si trova, o almeno mi dica il numero per richiamarla!" (You need to tell me where she is, or at least tell me the number so I can call her back!)I said to her, pointing at telephone so that she would get on with it right away. She nodded and I was suddenly filled with a spark hope among the sea of despair battling within me. She picked up the phone and hit a few buttons, suddenly she shook her head.
""Mi dispiace, ma a quanto pare lei ha utilizzato un numero privato oun telefono pubblico. Io non la posso rintracciare". (I'm sorry, but apparently she used a private number or a public telephone. I can't track her down.) she told me. I felt my hands automatically turn into fists. Of course she would use a public phone if she didn't want me to find her. She was quite smart so she wouldn't make a silly mistake like that. But all I wanted to know was why. Why would she not tell me where she was when I had told her in the letter that I wanted to find her and stay with her? None of the pieces seemed to fit. If she still loved me then why did she refrain from asking me to join her? Did she think I would try to persuade her to come back to Volterra?
Gah, I felt so helpless! Nothing seemed to fit together. I couldn't do anything from here. I had no idea how I could find her. No solid lead. I stormed off to my room and threw myself on the bed. So close yet so far.
I needed something to do or else I would go insane. I grabbed her old Minnie Mouse top and inhaled the scent. Her scent on it was almost nonexistent but it was the only thing I had left of her.
I swore that no matter what or when, I WOULD find her. Nor the Volturi neither Jane would come between us ever again, because it was impossible for me to live without her by my side.