Dove
I held the underside of Benecio's jaw, he parted his lips slightly in anticipation and I debated on how I wanted to go about this. Did I want to be all gentle and clumsy or did I want to give him the same experience he always gave me? I guessed for me that was what being a 'bottom' was about. Letting go of control for just a few blissful minutes or hours and trusting that your partner wanted to give you the best possible experience.
I wanted him to feel the safety he gave me, the purity in knowing that I could lose my mind in his arms and he would be my anchor until I came back down to earth. I could say anything, I could be anything but would know that I had given him the best possible version of myself. I didn't know if other men saw being a 'top' the same way I did, but that had been my experience so far. It wasn't about what they could take from you but what they could give and I believed that was the beauty in sex.
