"Kaafi time ho gaya tha usse dekhe hue
Na koi contact, na koi baat
jaise wo meri life se completely gayab ho chuka tha.
Maine bhi dheere dheere uski aadat chhod di thi pr kbhi bhula nhi payi kosish bhut kari par kbhi uski yaado ko mita hi nhi payi
ya shayad khud ko ye samjha diya tha ki ab koi farq nahi padta.
Par phir ek din
wo achanak mere saamne aa gaya.
Itna unexpected tha sab kuch
ki ek second ke liye mujhe samajh hi nahi aaya react kaise karu.
Dil ne ek pal ke liye purani yaadein zaroor yaad dila di.
par is baar maine unhe feel karne ka chance nahi diya bhut sawal the maan me kyu sach nhi bataya usne mujhe me usse itna attach na hoti khas wo meri life me kbhi aaya hi nhi hota kash mene use ham kbhi mile hi na hota pr mene dekha
Wo bilkul waise hi tha
same face, same smile
jaise kuch bhi change nahi hua ho.
Par shayad change main ho chuki thi.
Usne mujhe dekha… aur halki si smile di.
Jaise wo baat karna chahta ho.
"Hey usne dheere se bola.
Ek waqt tha jab uska sirf hey hi mere din ko special bana deta tha…
par aaj… maine bas ek normal sa "hmm" reply kiya.
Wo clearly try kar rahi thi conversation start karne ki—
random questions, chhoti chhoti baatein
jaise wo dobara sab normal karna chahti ho.
Par main bas formal answers de rahi thi.
Na koi excitement, na koi interest
bas ek distance.
Aur shayad usse ye feel bhi ho raha tha.
Uski aankhon me confusion tha
"Ye itni change kaise ho gayi?
Par usse kya pata
ki change hone ki wajah bhi wo khud hi tha.
Mujhe sab yaad tha
Wo time jab mujhe lagta tha
ki shayad wo bhi mujhe pasand karta hai.
Uski care, uski attention sab real lagta tha.
Par phir ek din mujhe sach pata chala
uski already girlfriend hai par isme me bhi koi dikkat nhi thi agar wo muje bta deta.
Aur sabse badi baat
usne ye mujhse chhupaya tha.
Ye baat mujhe todne ke liye kaafi thi.
Agar wo pehle hi bata deta
to shayad main itna feel hi nahi karti.
Shayad main apni expectations control kar leti.
Par usne kabhi mention hi nahi kiya
jaise main jaan hi na paun.
Aur shayad isi wajah se
maine uski har chhoti baat ko kuch zyada hi samajh liya.
Aaj jab wo mere saamne khada tha
to mujhe sirf ek hi cheez feel ho rahi thi
distance.
Wo baat karna chahta tha
par ab mere paas kehne ke liye kuch tha hi nahi.
Kyuki jo feel main karti thi
wo us din khatam ho gaya tha
jis din mujhe uski sachai pata chali.
Aur ab
main usse dekhkar bas itna hi soch rahi thi
"Kaash tune sach pehle hi bata diya hota.
Par baat yahin khatam nahi hui
kyunki usne us din jo next bola usne sab kuch aur complicated kar diya.💔