Chapter 1 - the life with tiny pains

Hi.. it's me with my tiny pains which it invisible for everyone even that person who is suffering from this tiny pains because this pain is understimated by themselves only .born in a middle class family and have two brothers .in my life Maine hamesha mri life Mai Khushi je jyada problems dekha hai because of my parents they always fought with each other .i remember one seen where I am praying saibaba -please God help me to get good life with my family and please make my family as a happy family.i prayed i cried but days didn't change the days are same every day a new problem.sometimes i thought -dont worry (my name ) these days will fade one day and we will become more happy.but I lost my hope and my two brothers are very clever my big brother got free govt seat in cbse syllabus he left the home and he went after that I am living with my parents and that one yougher brother who is so funny.he alyas tries to laugh everyone specially my mommy.he makes her to smile .he is the one of main reason for my moms happiness actually you know guys during my mom pregnancy she took tablets because she already had 2childs which is me and my elder brother so she doesn't want third child that's why she took tablets but still my younger brother born in our minor happy family and he enhance that happiness.he is one of main reason for our smile .he is naughty . whenever I see him I remember monkey because he behaves like a monkey and naughty like monkey and many more things.in my family we have five members and I love every single person more than me .my family is my biggest smile for me .I know there are many fight between my parents but still they love us more than everyone . actually everyone says there father is hero for them but my father is more than that to me .he loves me lot which I can't afford because it's more expensive for me .some times i feel i am wasting his money.he loves me more but i feel guilty.because my two brothers are very clever and good in everything.thats why always think I am nothing.i am just biggest mistake of there life .my elder brother took 5th class coaching and he took admission in good cbse school and college and my younger brother also took coaching in fifth class and admitted in state English medium college but i didn't bro actually I also took coaching but i didn't get .I lost my hope . everyone praise them and I just laugh and hide my pain with lost hope .no one noticed me and my pain .that tym only my parents are stand with me .you know guys that's why I changed myself and after my fifth class we moved another city and during my sixth class admission teachers took interview type test that time i panicked and i solved maths addition subtraction in reverse order and they noticed and they handled me a English book and told me to read that English book but i didn't read properly so they told my parents she didn't know anything so they gave advised my parents to admit her in our school in fifth class again but we give her 6th class marks card that means I need to attend fifth class regularly not 6th but officially I am sixth class.that day i cried lot but my parents accept that condition.that day i completely broken my self and i decided to study well in fifth class only and I will get admission in seventh class next year .that day i decided and i studied with fifth class students and I got first prize in my year that day makes me very happy and teachs and that principal said proud of you (my name ).i didn't expect this big growth in your improvement and you know guys I am most favourite student of all teachers and after my fifth class I took direct admission in my seventh class and i seen all my new friends because my old friends are in sixth class that's why .i entered seventh class that is great day for me . because I scared that day because all are new to me actually you i didn't expect that type of friendship because students want to make friendship with me because I am topper of fifth class and girls are trying to attract me towards them some girls are offering me to sit with them but i didn't accept there offer because I got new friend already and i enjoyed my day with that girl .the day is very beautiful.but I am not satisfied because I am form kannada medium .I want to learn in English medium so it doesn't happen.