When I was in 11th class, I saw that boy for the first time. He was around 6 feet tall, fair, with short hair and a cute smile. He looked very nice. The best thing was that he was from the science stream.
After going home, I searched for his Instagram ID. I kept searching continuously and finally found it after 2 days. Then I followed him using a fake ID and sent him a message. We started talking, and I got to know that he was single. Then I used to see him in school also, and I used to feel shy after seeing him, but he didn't know who was talking to him. He wanted to meet me, but I refused.
After 7–8 days, on 20th September, it was his birthday. He invited me, and I refused again. But still, I bought a shirt and a watch in the name of a gift for him. I went to school and saw him and thought whether I should talk to him or not.
I didn't meet that boy again, and because of this, there was a fight. My friend told me, "Niru, don't be sad. Focus on your studies, your exams are also near and only a few days are left."
But how do I explain that I have fallen in love with Aarav? Then we stopped talking for 2–3 days. On the third day, Aarav messaged me and said sorry. I also felt sorry, and for a moment I felt like I didn't know what I was doing.
Then I got scared that he might stop talking to me. After that, we started talking again properly. While talking, from September to December, I didn't even realize how time passed. Exams came, and only a few days were left, but we didn't stop talking even while preparing for exams.
Then in January, he again insisted on meeting. I refused again, but this time I also wanted to meet him. But I don't know what to do… I am scared.