Today was the day when I felt I had lost everything but the question was whether I was upset or not. I was not able to answer my questions. Didn't knew back then when was the last time that had made me this much confused. Everything has ended before it started or does it have any starting even.
When I saw him talking with leah. Something burnt. Something burnt inside me which I didn't want to accept. What's happening with me. Why does it bother me? Why does it affect me?
He had become successful just what I had dreamt for him. He had become a worldwide sensation and he didn't even care about it. He has not changed even a bit. Even I didn't talked to him, I still know he was that same guy who hates my gut back then when we were teenagers. Even after becoming this much successful doesn't have one ounce of attitude.
Who will not fall for such a guy?
Something brushed against her. She when turned saw a lady with probably her child moving towards her car in which her husband was waiting for her.
Woah, such a nice family. So lucky.
Just then some words come across her ears, " You are the one who had damned our name, damned our status. You know jess what you did right, but why I am not surprised. From the birth you are like that, I always thought that you will change one day but guess what I was wrong. You are a shame on our name.
If you have a single ounce of shame in your heart, get out of here and never ever show your face to me. "
She took a deep breath. It looked like that her past still haunts her very badly. She wants to run and she tried but get lost in such a way that she get stuck on the path of her life. The result was that Neither she was able to move on and neither she was ready to face her past.
She didn't realised when a single tear came out from her eye, her hands startes shaking when she realised it and she quickly cleaned it. Without wasting any time she went from there and went towards her car who was parked in the parking area. She needs some space but then she laughs like to herself, when she didn't give space to herself.
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"So, what's your next plan? "
Chris stopped eating. He chewed what was in his mouth and then questioned the girl who was sitting opposite to him with his blue eyes looking straight to her and eyebrows raising upwards.
When she didn't understand he finally asked "in what context? "
"Well, you know you are getting fame for your singing but still you didn't kept any kind of live show or live concert something, so when you had planned of doing it? "
After listening to her question he finally gave his full attention to her which somehow intimidate that woman even she didn't knew how, she never felt this aura before from him. Had something changed? She wanted to question him but her words were just stuck in her mouth, don't have so much strength to come out.
"Ummmm, seriously if I had to say, I didn't think about it till now. See singing was never my passion. You know it's just kind of a hobby.
Whenever I feel something, I wrote and just sing. That's it. But this concert, singing in front of so many people, it's just so complex. I don't know. I never thought about it and more than that I don't like this popularity, this attention like its so foreign for me. "
This was not the first time someone had asked him this question.
"Well, but you had gained this now. This fame and this popularity. Now everyone knows what you do. It's so bad that we had to come to this most unpopular shop to hide you."
"Huh", he laughs. Really. He actually hided himself a lot like in his music video in which it was only his black shadow, guitar, his computer, Mike, nothing else. But somehow, maybe his neighbour leaked the information that it was him who sang on those videos. He don't know.
He had to hide from everyone now otherwise everyplace turns into chaos. Ya there are some places where he can move freely but those places are very less. If he somehow move freely, someone clicks his photo and post it in his/her instagram which is quite frustrating.
"Right, things got little overboard, I guess. "
"Little." She says with a playful smirk.
"Maybe a lot. "
Then she starts laughing and he just see her laughing. Don't know why her laughing make him think of someone else, someone whom he wants to laugh like that.
When lily saw him staring at her, she suddenly stopped laughing. He was looking serious like thinking about something deeply.
"What happened? "
He just shook his head and replied ackwardly " Just thinking about my old friends. Not met them from a long period of time. "
She nodes in understanding. " Hmmm, it is tough, I know. Ben would definitely love to see you again. You should come home someday. "
"Hmmm." He nods then suddenly he questioned " Well, haven't you... Not actually you, but anyone of our classmates ever kept a reunion. "
"Nahhhh, not at all. You know I love these things but not everyone. You remember mia, she is such nerd, she straight out rejected it and to my bad she had so many friends, soooooo at last the plan was dropped out. "
" Hmmm, quite bad I guesss. " He says while smirking.
He had quit eating anything. It was just lily who was eating pasta. He watches her continuously and then finally asked, " What about our seniors? "
" Huh", lilly get shocked, she didn't expected this question.
" Ummm, well I don't knew any of our senior, " She was embarrased and why not she would be everyone knew that she in her past had a relationship going on with her senior which didn't went well. It lasted for two months but the rumors circulated for whole year.
Chris also knew about it but he had forget about it for some time but now after watching her expressions, he remembered it. He didn't want to ask further after seeing her flushed face but as he don't have any other option.
He asks
" Well don't you know any senior of ours. " He presses the word senior.
The shade of red on her face gets more dark. She thinks that he wants to ask about her ex boyfriend but she didn't want to talk about it.
So she says.
" Um, I don't know anyone except some of the popular whom I guess everyone knows about,
Like Alex who was very mischievious remember, he was such a player. "
When she didn't see any expression on his face. She continues:
" And then Daniel who was the topper, I had heard he had opened his own business and it is working well.good right. "
Still no expression. Now she was getting annoyed. Okay if he wants to listen it, she will say it.
"Okay, then it is mathew.....who was the best player within our seniors. But now if I think about that,...he was not that much good. "
She says ackwardly.
She sees him thinking that he will joke about it and somehow will bring her past but to her shock, he didn't said anything, like he don't even care. This made something shift in her.
Well there is someone who don't care about her past.
" I don't remember anyone else. " She says slowly.
"Hmmm" Then the waiter comes asking both of them whether they need anything else but they both shook in denial. Lily tried to pay the bill but chris didn't let her.
"Promise me we will meet again. " Lily says playfully when thye both came out of the restaurant. She must say the time she spent with him, it was not dreamy but still comfortable and she don't have so many friends to talk with so What bad to make chris one of her close friends. And even on top of that he was rich, he was nice.
"Ummmm." Chris looked at her which again freezed her. "Umm, I don't think so. I think I am not staying here for a long period of time. I guess this would be the last time. "
It was so weird like atleast for lily it was weird. He straight out rejected her. She felt so ackward that it felt like that the air was also criticizing her. She didn't even realized when Chris crossed her and went on his way. she was frozen in her place.
She don't understand this guy. Actually she never did. Sometimes it looked like that it is so easy to talk with him but sometimes it feels quite dangerous, quite intimidating that she wants to fly away.