ANNIE
The guy whom I swore to never accept.
But I am so crazy now that I do not care or want anything else than to feel him. I don't want to be alone now. It is very late to even think of going out to go look for someone to satisfy me at a nightclub.
But even if I could, I don't think I would when Kyle is right here. I know it is strange. I don't feel like it is a mere necessity like I do with most of my flings. Instead, I feel eager.
I feel a desperate need for him to hold me in his arms and make me feel good right now. I just really hope he can.
"I don't want to just get into your pants. I want you. The person you are." He states firmly in a way that makes me waver. But I hold myself together. Feelings...? Love....? Never again will I let myself feel it much less allow it to take control of me.
"Fun, and a person?" I say the two words, testing it find the non-existent difference. "There is not much difference between the two. Don't act like there is." I argue.
