Cherreads

Chapter 30 - What We Carry

The last thing that happened in Volume One of the story of Ray Lexmix and the end of the world as it had been was small, and private, and it happened at 05:45 on a morning when nothing important was scheduled.

He was in the training bay alone, running the left-side drills Anya had prescribed three months ago, and his left side was faster now not equal to the right, but close, the 0.3-second gap down to something under a tenth and the suit was warm with the morning training output, and the Eclipse Blade was in his left hand moving through the forms Ha-Jin had given him, and he was thinking about nothing in particular, just the movement, the weight of the blade, the press of the floor through the suit's contact points.

The resonance was there. Steady as a second heartbeat, which was what it was.

He stopped the form in the middle and stood still for a moment.

The Aphelion Strand was in him. Had been in him since six months old. Nineteen years of growing alongside it, through it, with it, not knowing it was there until eight months ago, and since then everything. Harlan's Gate had not been the beginning. The beginning was a laboratory and a woman who believed she was doing something good, and she was right, and she was also making something that she could not have known she was making.

Ray thought about his mother often. Not with grief grief was something he carried in a different compartment, sealed and acknowledged and real but with curiosity. She had been smart enough to solve a problem that the best military scientists on earth hadn't solved. She had done it thinking about cancer patients. She had given her solution to people who used it in ways she never knew. And then she had given it to him, six months before the world ended, before she knew the world was going to end, and the giving had been involuntary and complete.

He had not chosen this. He had not been asked.

But here he was.

He went to find Dayo at 07:00. His cousin was in the education block's design studio, which was where Dayo was most mornings, with the particular focused ease of someone doing the thing they were made to do.

On the screen: the city with the school at the center, more developed now. Three months of additional detail. The water systems. The market districts. A park that curved along the northern edge that Dayo said was for 'just sitting, not for anything, just for sitting.'

Ray sat with him for an hour. They didn't talk much. That was fine.

At 08:00, he went back to the training bay. Ha-Jin was there. She handed him the Void Lance for a paired drill and they worked for two hours and she praised him twice. That was a record.

At 1000, there was a message on his terminal from an intelligence channel he had not been authorized to use, from an address that he recognized from the Kairos transcript records.

It was from Kairos. It said:

You answered correctly. The interesting futures remain open. Do not confuse that for safety. Do not confuse safety for the goal. The goal is what comes after the answer. K.

He read it twice. Then he saved it and closed the terminal.

At 1100 he drafted his response to Vael's note. It took forty minutes and seven drafts. The final version was eight words long:

We should speak. Tell me where. Ray Lexmix.

He authorized it through General Yuen's channel and sent it.

Then he went to find Theo, because Theo had been awake for three days working on a new amplifier design and it was time for someone to tell him to sleep, and if no one else was going to do it, Ray would.

He found him in the Forge lab, surrounded by components and coffee cups and three datapads all running different models simultaneously, with the look of someone who is in the middle of the best problem they have ever encountered and does not wish to be interrupted. Ray sat down across from him without announcing himself and waited.

Theo eventually noticed him the way you notice someone who has been patient long enough that the patience itself becomes loud.

"I'm almost done."

"Sleep first."

"The second amplifier array"

"Theo."

"The cooperative generation frequency you hit at minute eleven is different from the integrated baseline by a factor that suggests the next evolution threshold is"

"Theo. We'll figure it out after you sleep."

A long pause. Theo looked at his models. Then at Ray. Then at his models.

"The interesting futures remain open."

Ray stared at him.

"Kaspar told me. Paraphrased. I think the phrasing is important. They're open, not guaranteed. You have to keep making them."

"Yes."

"So sleeping is an important part of keeping them open."

"Yes."

"Okay."

He closed two of the three datapads and leaned back in his chair and was asleep in approximately ninety seconds.

Ray sat in the Forge lab for a while with the third datapad's models still running and the suit pulsing its steady two-tone heartbeat and the city of Vega Citadel going about the business of surviving outside the walls, and he thought about interesting futures and open windows and a mother who had done something good in the middle of everything falling apart, and he thought about a question he had sent to the most powerful being alive and would have to meet an answer for.

Then he closed the last datapad.

Then he stood up.

Volume Two was waiting, somewhere in the seventeen days before whatever came next.

He went to meet it.

More Chapters