jayjay's POV~
I got into the house
,my eyes scanning the living room frically. And then I saw her - Jeana, sitting on the couch like she owned the place.
My anger boiled over.
"Why the hell are you here, mum?! Shouldn't you be with your new financé?" I spat, my voice venomous.
Jeana's expression remained calm, like she always did when she was about to ruin my life.
"I am your mother, talk to me respectfully," she said coolly.
"I came here to tell you that my wedding is in a few weeks. With your soon-to-be stepdad, Jacob."
I scoffed. Another one. Another guy she'd promise the world to, just to leave him hanging like she did with everyone else. Including me.
Aunt Gema looked shocked her eyes widened.
"Jeana, you both just got engaged a few months ago and met just a year ago,"
she said, her eyes wide with concern.
"Why so soon? Shouldn't you wait for a bit longer? It'll be better for both you and Jacob."
Kuya Angelo nodded in agreement, his brow furrowed.
"Yeah, Mom's right, Aunt Jeana. You shouldn't rush into things."
Jeana's gaze turned to Gema, a hint of annoyance flashing in her eyes.
"I know what's best for me, Gema. Jacob and I are happy, and we're ready to move forward with our lives."
I rolled my eyes. "You know what, I don't even care anymore. If you wanna get married for the 5th time, then do so, I don't care,"
I said, my voice dripping with disdain.
"Just don't expect me to be there, pretending to be a happy family. And if you try again to make me the maid of Honor like the last time when you said you loved your ex-finance Andy and never even got married to him,"
I rolled my eyes, "I won't even attend the wedding, and I'm not lying."
Angelo shouted,
"Jay!! She is your mother, don't talk to her like that!"
I flinched, fear visible in my eyes, but my hate for Jeana won over.
"She may be my biological mother and a mother on my birth certificate, but that still doesn't make her my mother!!!"
I took a deep breath and continued,
"Because mothers are supposed to care about their kid, but she doesn't, not even a bit!!!! She was never there for me, so don't expect me to be there for her!! And she should be happy that I atleast still call her MUM!!"
I stormed into my room and locked the door, leaning against it as the broken memories came back to me.
I tried to push them away, but they lingered, like a bad wound that wouldn't heal.
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Third person's POV~
Jay's tears finally escaped her eyes as she called Keifer
. Keifer picked up the call, and when he heard Jay's sobs,
worry flickered in his eyes and the feeling to burn the thing that made her cry alive rushed into him.
Keifer stayed quiet, letting Jay break
, not telling her to stop crying or that everything would be okay.
He knew everything wouldn't be, and he wouldn't lie to Jay.
Because Jay didn't need comforting words, she needed to break, leaning against someone.
And that someone was Keifer.
He listened to her cries, his grip on the phone tightening as he waited for her to calm down.
The silence between them was heavy, but it was a comfortable silence, one that told Jay she wasn't alone.
Keifer's presence was a balm to her broken heart, and she let herself lean into it, letting go of the pain and anger that had been building up inside her.
Jay's tears slowly subsided, and she took a shaky breath, her voice barely above a whisper. "Keifer, she's doing it again,"
she whispered, her words cracking.
"Mum , she is doing it again"
"She's getting married again for the fifth time ,and she expects me to be there, to pretend like everything's okay."
Keifer's grip on the phone tightened, his voice low and soothing.
"You don't have to do anything you don't want to, Jay. You're not obligated to be there."
Jay shook her head, even though Keifer couldn't see her.
"It's not just that. It's...it's everything. She's never been there for me, Keifer. She's never cared about me, and now she wants to pretend like we're a family?"
Keifer's silence was answer enough. He was there, listening, and that was all Jay needed.
She took another deep breath, feeling the weight of her emotions slowly start to lift.
"I hate her, Keifer," she whispered, her voice raw. "I hate her for making me feel like this."
Keifer's voice was gentle. "You have every right to feel that way, Jay.
She hasn't given you any reason to forgive her."
Jay's eyes closed, and she let the tears fall again, this time for the little girl she used to be, the one who had craved her mother's love and attention.
Keifer's words were a balm to her wounded soul, and she let herself heal, just a little bit, in the silence that followed.
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JayJay's POV~
I sniffled, my voice cracking as I spoke to Keifer.
"I really wanna be free of all this pain and feelings, but the memories...they keep me caged in.
They're coming back, not fully, never completely, but still they rush back to my mind. The nightmares rush back as soon as I sleep...I'm scared to even sleep, I'm so scared."
I paused, taking a shaky breath.
"Even if I want to remember everything, I just can't.
A part of me is still that little girl who is scared.
The little girl is scared to believe the truth, to know the truth.
Maybe that's why my brain chose to forget everything, because I'll never be strong enough to know everything, to accept everything."
Keifer's voice was gentle, a warm caress in my ear.
"You're not that little girl anymore, Jay. You're stronger now. And I'm here with you, always."
I shook my head, even though he couldn't see me.
"You don't understand, Keifer. The fear...it's still there. It's like it's waiting for me, lurking in the shadows. What if I remember something and it breaks me? What if I can't handle it?"
The silence between us was heavy, but Keifer's presence was a steady heartbeat, reassuring me that I wasn't alone.
"What if you can?"
he said finally, his voice soft.
"What if you're stronger than you think, Jay?"
"I don't know if I can, keifer you don't understand, you are the first person I will talk to about this ,
but you need to understand not everything you think about my past is true , I may have never corrected you or anyone
Because i don't want anyone to know , I can't even talk about it without having a panic attack,
i once tried to , but it ended up miserably with a panic attack and nothing told"
i take a deep breath as i continue
"my mum did something i will never forgive her for , it's true that i hate her for the marriages with the worng guys , but I also hate her for the thing she did ,
she never actually cared about me , or anyone else except herself
she always did everything for her benefit"
keifer pauses , i can feel it through the phone and he asks
"I understand if you don't wanna talk to me about it or tell me about it , so I won't ask
But if you really hate your mother, then just say it to her , just tell Angelo that , you can never forgive your mother"
(*A/N jay told keifer how angelo always scolds Jay for talking disrespectfully to jeans*)
Keifer continues
"because if you don't, he will keep forcing you
and maybe angelo even take your back , take your side when you and your mum argue"