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Chapter 83 - Chapter 83 — The Mirror of Abandonment

Lin Yuan chose the underground chamber for meditation because it was the place where no one was likely to interrupt him.

The buried heart of the mountain remained incomplete, but after the partial awakening it had created a stable current of qi around the central platform. Mu Qingxue had warned him that the flow still contained irregularities. Gu Tian had advised him to wait. Lin Yuan listened to both opinions and descended anyway, not from arrogance, but because every day brought new responsibilities while his cultivation remained stalled beneath wounds, vigilance, and administration.

He could not protect a growing community if his personal strength remained unchanged.

He sat at the center of the circle, pressed the Firmament-Sealed Medallion against his chest, and began circulating the Celestial Scripture of the Primordial Bloodline. He possessed only fragments: breathing patterns, partial routes, a sequence for refining essence, and another for stabilizing faint celestial qi. Whenever he tried to join them, his partially repaired meridians answered with pain.

The system appeared in silence.

Warning: accumulated emotional pressure.

Risk of internal demon during deep circulation.

Recommendation: interrupt cultivation.

Lin Yuan kept his eyes closed.

He could not allow the system to decide for him every time danger existed. Without risk there would be no progress. Yet ignoring a warning was not courage. He slowed the circulation, reinforced his breathing, and prepared an exit route before continuing.

Qi entered his meridians like cold water poured over heated cracks.

The first cycles went well. The pain was sharp, but familiar. Energy moved through his right arm, descended toward his incomplete dantian, and returned along his spine. The buried heart responded with distant pulses. The medallion remained warm.

On the seventh cycle, the chamber vanished.

Lin Yuan opened his eyes and found himself standing before the orphanage in Dry Stone Village.

The gate was closed.

Rain fell across the road, though he could not feel it on his skin. It was an illusion, and he knew it immediately. Internal demons did not need to deceive reason. They attacked what reason could not control.

He struck the gate.

—Old Mei.

No one answered.

He struck again. The wood opened by itself with a groan. The courtyard was empty. Buckets lay overturned. The woodpile had rotted. The windows were dark.

A child's voice spoke behind him.

—You came too late.

Lin Yuan turned.

A boy of six or seven stood beneath the rain, thin and barefoot, with the same medallion hanging from his neck. It was Lin Yuan himself, though the child's eyes looked older than his face.

—This is not real —Lin Yuan said.

—Neither was the belief that they would come back for you.

The courtyard changed.

The orphanage walls stretched into the ruins of the Primordial Firmament Sect. Buildings had burned. Formation pillars were broken. There were no bodies, only evidence of abandonment: a shattered wooden sword, bloodstained bandages, Gu Tian's wine jar smashed into fragments.

Jian Mu walked toward the path without looking at him.

—There was no road with you —he said.

Bai Lian followed carrying an empty medicine case.

—You promised a home and gave us a war.

Han Yue laughed in the distance.

—I thought you were different. You were only another man using broken people to build a name.

Su Wan passed him covered in frost, expressionless.

Mo Qian came last. He dropped a passage token onto the ground.

—Loyalty lasts until it stops being profitable.

Lin Yuan tried to move, but his feet would not respond.

—They are not real.

—No —the child said—. They are what you know they may one day think.

Mu Qingxue appeared beneath the ruined arch. She wore no blood and carried no wound. That made her presence worse. She watched him with distant calm.

—You never truly trusted us —she said—. You kept your secrets, made decisions alone, and called it protection because you did not allow anyone to choose beside you.

Lin Yuan felt something twist within his meridians.

In the real chamber, his qi had begun to reverse. Energy slammed against repaired blockages and opened small internal wounds. A thin line of blood slipped from the corner of his mouth.

The system issued another warning.

Qi deviation detected.

But the voice came from far away, nearly drowned beneath the illusion.

The child stepped closer.

—Everyone leaves.

—No.

—Your parents left.

—I do not know what happened.

—Old Mei will die without you.

Lin Yuan clenched his fists.

—Be silent.

—Your disciples will find better masters. Mu Qingxue will return to her clan. Gu Tian will abandon you when he discovers you cannot restore the mountain. The refugees will curse you when hunger arrives. And when the last one leaves, you will be exactly where you began.

The scene changed again.

Lin Yuan sat in an immense hall upon a stone throne. Mountains, cities, and armies spread below him. He was powerful. Terribly powerful.

And completely alone.

There were no voices.

No disciples.

No family.

Only a sect transformed into an empty monument.

The child sat upon the steps.

—That is what you want, is it not? To become so strong that no one can abandon you.

The accusation found a vulnerable place.

Lin Yuan had said many times that he wanted to protect. He had founded the sect to grow, to alter his fate, and to give rejected people a place. But deep beneath those reasons lived another desire: if he became indispensable, if he grew strong enough, if he built something that depended upon him, perhaps no one would have the option of leaving.

The partial truth made the demon more dangerous.

—I cannot force them to stay —Lin Yuan said.

—But you want to.

—I want them to have a reason to choose to stay.

—The same thing dressed in prettier words.

His qi broke further from control. A vein of the underground platform lit, then went dark violently. On the surface, Mu Qingxue raised her head from a formation table. The mountain's pattern had just missed a pulse.

—Gu Tian —she said.

The old man set down his jar.

—I felt it.

—Lin Yuan is below.

They ran toward the entrance.

Inside the illusion, the child extended one hand.

—Come. If you accept that everyone will leave, it will hurt less when it happens.

Lin Yuan stared at that small hand. He remembered years spent training himself not to need too much from anyone. He remembered mistaking self-sufficiency for safety. The demon offered him a method of protection: always expect abandonment.

The medallion burned against his chest.

An image crossed the illusion. Not clear or complete: a woman holding an infant amid a spatial storm; a blood-covered man blocking a doorway; hands pressing the medallion against the child's chest.

There was no indifference in those hands.

There was desperation.

There was protection.

The demon tried to twist the vision.

—They still let you fall.

Lin Yuan closed his eyes.

—Perhaps.

The child smiled.

—Then accept it.

—No.

Lin Yuan opened his eyes again.

—I do not know why I fell. I do not know who held me or who let me go. But I will not turn a wound I do not understand into a law for everyone I meet.

The empty hall trembled.

—They will leave.

—Some may.

The answer surprised the demon.

Lin Yuan continued:

—Jian Mu may choose another path. Bai Lian may find a safer place. Han Yue may tire of my rules. Mu Qingxue does not owe me her life. None of them belongs to the sect because I own their fate.

The throne behind him cracked.

—Then you will be alone.

—That may happen.

—And you will still build?

Lin Yuan looked across the empty landscape.

—Yes. Because protection only has value if the other person can choose to stay or leave.

The child stepped back, his face twisting with anger.

—Liar.

—I am afraid —Lin Yuan admitted—. But fear will not lead the sect.

The illusion shattered.

Lin Yuan returned to the chamber with a violent gasp. Qi had formed a burning knot near his heart. He tried to guide it downward, but his meridians did not respond. The platform shook.

The door burst open.

Mu Qingxue entered first, followed by Gu Tian.

—Do not touch him yet —the old man ordered—. His circulation is reversed.

Mu Qingxue knelt before Lin Yuan and spread nine small jade tiles around the platform.

—Lin Yuan, listen to my voice.

He could barely see her.

—I do not... need...

—If you finish that sentence, I will hit you after you survive.

The tiles ignited with blue light.

Gu Tian placed two fingers against the floor and cursed.

—The buried heart is amplifying his state. We must cut the resonance without collapsing it.

—I can do it —Mu Qingxue said—. But he must accept guidance.

Lin Yuan heard the words from a great distance.

Accept guidance.

Not control it.

Not endure alone.

He exhaled with difficulty and loosened his instinctive resistance.

The cold of Mu Qingxue's formation entered around his qi, not to dominate it, but to give it boundaries. For the first time, the knot stopped growing.

The internal demon had been rejected.

But the battle to avoid dying from it had only begun.

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