Hi guys...
I need to tell y'all something. I'm taking a break from webnovel for atleast a few weeks. It could be 3 weeks, 4, 5 maximum. Dw I won't be gone for long. I don't think I'm capable of stopping this- and that's becoming a problem.
I'm seriously like obsessed with AMNSE... And that's exact the problem. Let me explain.
Firstly, sorry to anyone who thought this was a chapter. I'm sorry if I dissapointed you all. I seem to be doing that a lot these days..
The thing is- AMNSE, the story, these charecters, the ships- it's all that's going on in my head 24/7.
And while I could just call it being a die hard fan- it's not just that. It's obsession. Addiction. It's becoming increasingly unhealthy for me.
Because all I'm thinking about- like LITERALLY ALL I'M THINKING ABOUT EVERY DAMN BREATHING SECOND is making fan fictions in my head.
It's gotten to a point where I can not focus on anything else. It's become my whole personality at this point.
I wake up in the morning and read fan fics before going to school- I stay up late to read fan fics- I neglect my HW, tests and so much.
I've started losing marks because of this, and that's just a sliver of my problems. I've started living in this dream world so much, I've forgotten the real one. The one that I'm living in.
The one that has my family, my mom, my future, my life. And my mom feels like I am ignored her. And honestly? I feel like I've been ignoring everyone around me at this point.
Even through all this, my mom never once told me to stop writing...
But it's time to take a mature descision (for once) and step back a little. Let things settled down. Let it come to a point where these charecters are charecters, not people. The charecters that I love, that I admire and relate to- not the family that I live with.
Because while that sounds good- I have to see this for what this actually is. It's high time I started living with the actual people around me (even though I don't have much friends in school or in my neighbourhood...), and stopped existing in my own imagination.
So I'm sorry sorry if any of you are not happy with my actions.
In order to get out of my addiction of mine, I will try my absolute best to stop reading other fan fics too. If any of you see me commenting or reading any other books, then kindly know that that is me being the stupidest person on earth (as usual) and breaking the rules I have set for myself. Again. I hate myself for that.
While I'm trying to remember who I was before section e became my entire personality, and trying to get back my own personality, just know that-
This isn't a 'goodbye', it's just a 'see you later'.
I will be back before you know it- newly renewed and with my own personality. That way I can write even better chapters for y'all.
Did you guys notice something? My initial chapters used to be really funny, lively and with completely unhinged thoughts- that's because that was my personality. But now? There is no life in my chapters. No emotion in my words. No humor. It's just plain old text and I want this story to be better than that.
So allow me to do justice- to this story, to you all, to my parents and most importantly- to myself.
Because I don't want to lose who I am- but ironically, I already forgot who I was before this.
Also, sorry if this note was way too serious. It's a bit of a detour from my usual chapters, but this is something that I have to do.
So until next time,
Signing off (for now),
Your author.❤️