I should really message him again, this is getting into my mind. First the box was his, then he said he lives in the same town as me, and now my neighbor has the initials of Doctor Vader. That's it, I really have to message him and tell him to meet, or rather to tell me where he lives. searches for phone Ah yes, I don't have anything at all, I am grounded after all.
lies on his bed
How can I talk to him without technology on my side? Hmm, using letters… that's foolish, what am I, in the 15th century? I really should sleep. Sometimes I think I don't even deserve sleep. Why do I deserve it? After all, it's useless. I don't get tired from doing anything. I don't even do anything. It's all just eat, sleep, and repeat.
falls asleep
meanwhile in the parents' room
I am sorry! I am sorry!
Marta: What is wrong now? What are you saying?
Marta crying with tears in her eyes
Ben: What's wrong? Why are you crying?
Marta: I-I didn't mean to say those things or even slap him.
Ben: What do you mean, what things?
Marta: About Lui… I didn't want to get to him that way. I just didn't know what to do when I saw that he had put a betslip. I don't hate our son, I don't hate him, I really mean it. I just didn't want him to turn into a gambler.
Ben: I know, I know. But what has been done can't be turned back anymore. You did what you thought was right, even though I don't fully agree with you. But yes, gambling is bad.
Marta: He will hate me for the rest of my life, won't he? continues crying
Ben: Well, you will be there and I will be there, so we will possibly find a way through. Yes, it might be hard for him to talk after all that, I think, but I know that he will definitely do something.
Marta: I see… I hope so too.
Ben: So what will we do with the money?
Marta: I don't know, I don't even want it at all. But thinking about it now, it's his first earned money, even though it's bad money.
Ben: And how much did he earn from it?
Marta: Well, he transferred $25 from my bank account into the bet site, so… I got back $525.
Ben: Hmm, I can't calculate exactly since I don't know the betslip that he made, but he could have possibly had a betslip with odds of 20. Not bad for a first timer like him, huh?
Marta: I don't want any more talk about betting. What will we do with the money? Should we give it to Lui? But what if he gets attached to it?
Ben: Well, you are right. Then let's just keep it for him somewhere, or just not spend it.
Marta: In my bank? They will be used if we don't take them. We should withdraw them and put them somewhere in the house, or maybe in our safe.
Ben: Hmm, I can withdraw them tomorrow then, before going to work. In that time you can tell them that I will arrive a bit later at work.
Marta: Okay, I can tell them that. I feel relieved talking with you, Ben. I hope that Lui will forgive me.
both sleep
7 am
Again, I woke up early, huh. Why do I even wake up so early? I have nothing to do.
fixes his bed
So now… open the door? Am I still grounded? But if I don't move around the house, how can I eat? Or rather, what if anything happens? I should go, right? But I will stay one week without internet, phone, laptop, TV, or any technology in my hand.
opens door
Okay, what can I do now though? opens mouth from tiredness
Huh? Was I always so much obsessed with technology? I can't stay calm. Think, brain, what can I do around the house with nothing?
Well, I will go to my backyard. goes to the backyard and turns back And nope, it seems they are still up there building the second floor. Omg, I am getting bored as hell. It's only 7 am, what will I do? Hmm, where will I sleep? Oh, maybe I can organize everything.
takes a pen and a notebook
Okay, so first thing first… where to go to sleep? I probably need around 8 hours of sleep, so if I go at 22:00 pm I wake up at 6 am. That's too soon, or is it better to wake up early? Well, let's just try something else now. Um… what do I write next? Something that I can improve… ah yes, put screen time lower, lower, lower. Yep, gotta lower that as much as possible.
gets tired and opens mouth again
Ahh!! This isn't stimulating at all. I am getting bored even doing this. I will learn something on my own today, that's it. I can't stay doing nothing, it's killing me. Can boredom even kill for real?
searches the house
What to learn? It's not like we have many things around here that can be learned… sees piano
Uh?! Did we even have a piano in this back room of the house?! Well, if I think about it, I haven't entered these rooms for a long time. But I should have remembered that we had a piano.
tries to play
How does it go? Do re mi fa so la si… hmm, I can't do them by rules. presses the piano keys by feeling
That's better, I think.
starts singing
Ohh! Ohh! I wonder, I wonder, I wonder if I will be able to make it out alive.
I won-der if, I won-der how I will be able to make it out alive.
This pain of mine grows more with time, yeah, so I gotta be honest, honest…
I don't care anymore about it, just leave me alone so I can deal on my own.
Today and tomorrow is the same, every day for me is the same.
That's why I wonder if… I wonder how…
I wonder if I will be able to make it out alive?! Alive! A-alive!
stops singing
This made me even more depressed. lies on the floor
Am I even young anymore to be like this?
I decided it. I will meet with Doctor Vader, and if it goes all right, I will be his friend, so I can have someone to advise me. I maybe need friends to go through this… or maybe not, considering my past friendships.
remembers the day that he gave up on all friendships back in elementary school