Chada
"I love you Dite but when are you going home" I said on annoyance now watching my sister fawn all over Sarit. Never in my life did it irk me so much to see your own family touching over someone. Not even my ex got this reaction from me.
I was sitting there huffing now on my couch. About ready to storm off. If he was the jealous one earlier, now I am. What a way to be jealous over the same person.
She didn't seem to care that I was bothered. I liked my home without unwelcome guests. Even if I did know she was coming.
I wanted to be alone with Sarit right now. I wanted to watch his sass in peace. My sister however, had other plans. She thinks what's mine should also be hers. A shared family sort of thing. Whenever I get in a relationship she either hates them or takes them in as family.
"He's mine" I thought internally with a burning possessiveness.
Sarit kept swatting her away as he does, which earned a smirk from me. It gave me internal satisfaction to see the difference in his mock smacking me and how much more he clearly likes my contact with him because he never truly tries to push me away. That's just his way of not having to confront his feelings.
I watched them smiling a bit picturing a distant future in which he could be part of my family. My family always had a knack for liking the fiesty ones. Whether it be taking in angry stray kittens or even my own father was a fiesty sass with my mother.
We learned to just take it in stride, it's their way of being and protecting themselves. It's very important to pick up on the hints layed out if someone is just defensive or fiesty, and when someone is actually saying no and doesn't like you. Humans may be a bit easier to read but these very beings are the ones whom often mix this up.
When it came to Sarit, I didn't want to make a mistake with it. Though, his powers were strong. He has some really reliable ques for what he really thinks. He never truly wants to fool you, if he did, you probably wouldn't be aware of it.
My addiction to Sarit was becoming quite a rampant thing. It's harder to make a mistake with someone who actually likes everything you do. Which only fueled me more. Now all that remains is to ensure he too is just as addicted. I would get past those walls eventually. Til he really trusts me with the depths of his heart.
I headed back to the sea now and started tying up my nets. Trying to get some air and calm my increasingly obsessive mind. I knew when my thoughts get like this I need to reign myself in and blow off some steam. "Be a gentleman, not a red flag" I said to myself.
"Oh but blood red with the blue ocean is a pretty hue" a seductive voice said behind me.
I turned around looking at the slender boy now behind me, the light of the sky making him almost glow warmly. How is it he was even deadlier on land? One could even feel angry with how utterly seductive Sarit looked.
He grinned at me with his alluring smile and eyes, now stepping closer like on a catwalk.
I put my hand up signaling him to stop and not closer saying "I wouldn't do this right now if I were you." He must have taken that as a challenge because he tilted his head like "oh really?" With that entrancing look of his.
Worlds, entire worlds could crumble with his beauty. Pray he never gets into politics because he would win over every man or woman in his path until we worship some Saritology. He has a power I definitely couldn't explain to anyone unless they saw it as I did.
"Don't, stop, I am trying to clear my mind" I said to him backing up a bit. Maybe Sarit is more like a predator animal, because the sense of weakness or anything akin to turning your back, the hint of fear or loss of control had him completely smiling. The look that said he was the one with the advantage here, and boy he was not going to miss this chance.
"Clearing your mind of what?" He said softly, mocking innocence while trailing his finger around my chin. I gulped, knowing full well it was like staring down a god. I never have but I imagined it would feel so intense you'd freeze up.
"You know what" I replied my breath hitching as my eyes starting to trail down from his eyes to his lips. My breath quickening.
"Are you jealous now?" He asked getting so close to my face but not kissing me, just teasing every bone and nerve in my body.
"Of course I am" I breathed back. No point in denying it. When I like someone or something I go for it. I think there is no point to liking somone if I won't express it. I don't bother trying to sort out my feelings nor put a name to it, I will just follow it.
He then pushed me into the nets in response. Pulling me just shallowly in the water next to the boat. He willfully let his shape and form shift to his innate one. Part of me wondered if he would kill me now, drown me like his ominous warnings.
Like a fish cuaght in his net, even though he's the sea creature. I would have fallen for it and probably died a blissful unaware death.
He briefly swam away leaving me there before returning with something in his arms. It was a bunch of random stuff I didn't recognize. I looked at him quizically wondering if he'd suddenly become a cat, bringing odd gifts.
He started trying to explain what they were for, but I hadn't a clue what was happening. He glared at me for not getting it, I actually found it fascinating even seeing how different sirens lived and adapted just as much as humans do to their environment. Even if I didn't understand it one bit. All I could tell is that I was clearly missing some sort of societal context he was trying to give me.
"Sarit uh... I'm sorry I'm not knowledgeable on what this means" I said.
Sarit actually looked a bit hurt, not just fake pouting. I suddenly felt really bad "I want to I want to!" I said flustered, "teach me"
I wasn't sure how to make him feel better with whatever was happening, I found myself instinctually offering him a hug. To my surprise that seemed to almost work.
He instead now wrapped his tail around my torso and legs. He continued talking, but his possessiveness showed. It made me smile seeing him wrap me close. He looked cute like this, like someone who grew up alone without comfort or family that's slowly learning how to accept it.
It helped clear my mind like that. I comfortably stayed there while I listened to him ramble when Abyss came.
"Oh...I didn't expect this. I was looking for you two. Can you get ready and human form, we need to go shopping and Onyx and Pixie will be with us," he said.
Sarit perked up only now feeling ashamed to be close to me unlike when my sister barged in, now distancing himself from me. Now was my turn to frown, especially since it was in front of Abyss, his so called fiance.
Abyss gave a knowing smile at us, definitely noticing that we were close together. "We need to get going, I had to turn Onyx down to pick you guys up and drop me off so he doesn't know we live in or by the sea" he said.
"Why exactly am I coming with?" I asked. While Abyss turned to me saying, "you're the human that needs to help Sarit get stuff for his style, I know nothing about design."
I nodded actually looking forward to this, however, I would miss seeing Sarit in my clothing. it was always too big for him or revealed parts of him he didn't care to hide, it looked like I got to claim a part of him when he wore my clothes.
Abyss now walked away promptly, unbothered to pay any witness to us. I took my chance knowing that he was gone now and pulled Sarit close, honestly being celibate and never kissing him, or even being close to him would be easier to resist him than being so close yet so far. Every single time we started it was like hell to stop. I wanted to respect him and get to know him and yet I am like a pubescent teenager lusting after his entirety.
I found myself looking at him with a deep deep hunger. A fire was burning within me. The very one I was trying to snuff by clearing my mind to which he so obstinately blocked from happening.
Looking into each others eyes, would we even manage to stop this time? Just as we were about to kiss the sound of an unfamiliar human came within earshot. Sarit snapped away like whiplash pulling me down a bit in hiding. He peered around the boat, his eyes now narrowing. "Wha-" I said and he shushed me with his hand, I merely kissed his palm. He looked at me a bit flustered.
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To Be Continued ㅡ in part 2