Amara takes a seat at the far end of the table keeping her distance from him and for a while none of them spoke to each other they just kept on eating in total silence after a while Amara stood up feeling uneasy about the situation she was in
"I need air
I'm coming"
she walked towards the edge of the rooftop leaning on the railing
Lucian approaches her without making a sound and the continued looking into the starry night after a while he turns his head to face amara
"My life is not as simple as it looks
I don't want to drag you deeply into my world"
"What do you mean" Amara replies in a curious tone
"You do not understand now you might not understand ever and I want to keep you out of that type of life
I don't mean anything wrong
I don't mean to keep secrets and hide things from you
I just can't tell you."
Amara continues looking to the starry night, there was a void between them now lucian gently lifted his hand and wrapped it around her shoulder
"Lucy in all that you have said you have yet to apologize
You made me worry
How would you like it if I told you to go to another country without me, without any updates of what's going on
does it sound right in your head" Amara says in annoyance
"Darling, with all of my heart
if that will make you forgive me
With all of my heart I am deeply sorry"
"I forgive you but I'm still mad don't get it mixed up"
"That's a start
I'll take it"
"So how often do you pull this game
how often do you disappear into thin air"
Lucian chuckles
"Fortunately I do not do it often
this is a rare phenomenon"
"Do you remember when you set me off you said or talk about it"
"well"
For a while Lucian didn't say anything just stares at Amara
"Baby girl, not tonight
let's enjoy the moment"
"What do you mean not tonight, I want to know where I stand,
"I'm here with you in the dead of night
Doesn't it mean anything to you?
"You didn't tell me anything so how can it mean anything to me
I don't jump to conclusions like that if you're not going to tell me
why did you bring me here"
"I brought you here to change your mind"
The silence returned once more amara was taking deep breaths to control herself from outburst
"Why are you so guarded
Why's your guard so up
You don't know how to communicate especially when it comes to your feelings
I can't do this, I can't keep up with this charade
We are going to talk about it tonight and if we don't whatever this is
is over"
Lucian replies in a low tone
"if I start this conversation the night to take a drastic turn"
"I don't care, we're going to talk about it"
Lucian gaze on her intensifies, you can see the burning in his eyes
"The kiss wasn't a mistake
I do not regret it
I don't want to change it
I want you, I do and that's why I'm not going to rush into anything with you
I want to take things slow
You do not understand the kind of life that I live and should you enter my world there's no going back
there is no halfway, there is no quitting
I want to get to know you properly
I want to know you without work getting in the way."
"What exactly do you want"
You want us to start the game from beginning like we didn't kiss
"No"
"I said I didn't regret that kids I meant it
I don't want to rush you into anything you do not understand
I cherish and I respect you a lot and if I start something with you I don't want to walk away from it and I don't want you to work away from it
If we're doing this it becomes Love under oath this means you will not walk away from me."
Amara feels her pulse rising
"Don't you think it's too much we haven't started anything yet all this
Don't you think it's a bit too much"
"No you may not understand now but you will eventually and I don't want you to regret it
You are my veloria
You're confusing me
what's with all the statements
Lucian staring at her eyes like he could see her soul, amara's heart began racing because now she understood if she crosses line there was no going back but he was like a drug she couldn't quit.
she didn't exactly know what it was but she knew it had weight, In her head memories of him and her flooded her mind, the butterfly she felt every time he looked at her, how she felt when he was in danger it all rested in amara's decision.
Amara takes a step closer to him maintaining eye contacts
"I'll take you up under offer" Amara said
"We'll take things slow but I'm not walking away
I'm not a quitter
I'll never do that"
In that moment Amara's heart the began pounding her beat could heard out of a chest, she wasn't afraid of what was to come she felt a burning desire to have him.
she was in love with him and she had no intention of denying it anymore.