《MY DAZZLING NEW LIFE WITH MY NEW HUSBAND》

Xue Guiying dies by his own hand.

Born an illegitimate Omega into a family that treated him as a burden and a bargaining chip, he spent his first life enduring every cruelty they had to offer. When they finally found a use for him, it was the worst possible one: an arranged marriage to a man who broke him completely over five years. Abused, assaulted, and stripped of all dignity, Guiying chose the only exit he believed was left to him.

Then he wakes up five years earlier, whole in body if not in spirit, with the full weight of everything he remembers.

Before his family can lock him into the same fate, Guiying walks into a civil affairs bureau and marries the first willing stranger he finds. That stranger turns out to be Liu Liuxian, scion of the most powerful family in China and a top-class Alpha who is, apparently, just as eager to escape an arranged marriage of his own.

What follows is a marriage neither of them planned and both of them slowly begin to want.

Behind Liuxian's cold exterior is a man of quiet, unexpected gentleness. For Guiying, learning to receive warmth without flinching is its own kind of battle. He did not come back to fall in love. He came back to win. Yet somehow, both things begin to happen at once.

Because while Guiying is falling, he is also methodically dismantling everyone who destroyed his first life. And his former husband, unwilling to accept Guiying's new life, is making that task considerably more dangerous.

In the end, every person who wronged Xue Guiying meets the ruin they deserve, and he finds himself standing in a life that is finally, entirely his own, with a man beside him who chose him back.

This time, he does not have to die to be free.

The nightmare had no beginning he could identify and no end he could find.


He was back in Shen Zihao's house. Then in the Xue household. Then somewhere that was neither and both, and the sounds were wrong and the light was wrong and his body would not respond no matter how hard he fought. 


He could feel himself trying, the desperate internal effort of someone pushing against a wall that would not move, and nothing happened. 


He could only lie there while the familiar sounds got closer and the familiar dread filled every part of him that was still conscious enough to feel anything.


He could hear it, thin and small and nothing like the sound he was trying to make, and he whimpered again because it was the only thing his body would allow him.


He did not know how long he was there. 


Time in that place did not move the way it was supposed to.


Chapter 20 - I AM GOING TO LOSE MY MIND