I was also kind of scared that it could be my brother or one of his friends, since they are the only ones who really know that I like to come up here.
Thankfully, the person who turned around was a girl. I recognized her, she must've been in my class or maybe a class nearby. She had long black hair, similar to something you would see in a manga or anime, but the real-life equivalent, if you know what I mean. She also had these really round glasses; they were just like circles. That kind of pissed me off, things like that piss me off tons, they were just so goddamn round.
I must've scared her more than she scared me, since she let out a very surprised shriek and looked like she was about to pee her pants or something, I gotta say it was really funny. I mean, what is there to be so scared about? If you're so scared of getting caught skipping class, then what's even the point of skipping class in the first place? People like that are a bunch of idiots, it really pisses me off.
I had to do something quickly, since I didn't want to get caught. I just really don't care if I do get caught, if that makes sense. I kind of wanted chocolate at that moment, so I asked a really stupid question, just to calm her down.
"Hey! Calm the hell down.. Do you like chocolate?" Oh boy, let me tell you, that calmed her down. She must've thought I was some crazy creep trying to kidnap her or something, because she stopped being so goddamn surprised and became a bunch more nervous. She started stuttering a bunch, it was really funny, to be honest.
"Geez, don't answer if you don't want to, it's just a question.." I said, just to calm her down a bit. She must've been a bit confused cause it looked like she was in analyzation mode or something, like some stupid movie crap. God, that really pissed me off. I hate people who try to bring movies into real life. Don't they know that movies are so special because they aren't real? She's lucky I'm good at controlling myself, or I probably would have screamed at her, even though I'm really not the screamer type.
I actually don't even really know why I asked the goddamn question in the first place. I sort of hate asking questions if you couldn't already tell. And my own stupid-ass question kind of pissed me off a little, if I'm being honest. What a dumb question, why the hell would I ask that? What in the world was I thinking?
Suddenly, she did something that I gotta admit surprised me quite a bit. She stopped being a stuttering mess by sighing, and then she did this weird-ass thing where she breathed in and puffed up her goddamn cheeks. It was weird as hell, if I'm being honest. Then she just exhaled it back out, that made her back to normal, I guess. Then she went into this corny pose that made her look like some angry detective who was about to question me.
"What the hell does that mean?" She said in a really sassy manner, honestly, it pissed me off a solid amount.
"What do you think it means? I was just asking if you liked chocolate." I responded. I was really just winging it. I didn't even know what I meant by that myself.
"Well then, no, I do not." She said, crossing her arms. The way she said it totally pissed me off. The goddamn arm crossing just made her look stupid as hell. But her answer was sort of a relief, if I'm being honest. I don't like chocolate much either, you see.
I always thought that was just sort of a me thing. I remember when I was younger and my dad would always try to give me chocolate. I didn't wanna be disrespectful or anything, so I just ate it even though I absolutely hated it.
That's another thing I hate about my stupid-ass dad. He never checks in on anybody or anything. It's like he's off in his own goddamn world. He always looks so damn sad all the time, no wonder he's not productive at all, he's too goddamn busy moping around. I totally hate people like that, they always hassle you about something that's totally stupid and not worth your time. Then they go sit on their ass and do nothing, why can't you just do it? It pisses me off that's for sure.
"Oh, that's cool, I guess, me neither." I said calmly, I didn't really wanna keep talking with her, but I decided to sit there and chew the fat with her for a little bit, I don't really know why. She just seemed like someone I could maybe shoot the shit with for a bit, joke around and all, you know. She totally felt all weird as hell from a distance to me.
She made an expression that didn't look like she quite believed me and exhaled out of her nose at the same time. She's really goddamn expressive, maybe it didn't piss me off too bad, or maybe it did. I can't quite tell, if you wanna know the truth. Geez, there sure are a lot of things I can't quite tell.
"Oh, really...?" she said in such a goddamn sassy tone. Now that pissed me off for sure. I'm not sure what the hell she thought I was trying to do here, since she clearly didn't believe me for some odd reason. I mean, it's just some stupid-ass question about chocolate. What reason is there to be so suspicious of chocolate? I wasn't even lying either, I don't like chocolate. It pisses me off when people don't believe me when I say something that's completely true.
"Uh, yeah.. What reason would I have to lie about not liking chocolate?" I said, trying to make it clear that I was telling the truth.
"Alright, fine, I'll drop it.." she said, finally looking like she had dropped her guard down. I decided to take the opportunity to figure out who the hell she was and why she was on the rooftop.
"So, uhh, what's your name? You can just call me Yasunari." I know earlier I said that I totally despised my name, but I despise my family name even more. Asano is just the most basic thing ever. I don't want people calling me some basic-ass name like that.
"My name..? It's Furuse Ruriko.."
"Oh, that's a pretty cool name, I guess."
"What's wrong?"
"Huh.. What the hell do you mean?"
What the hell was she talking about? What reason would she possibly have to ask me a question like that? I don't get it at all. Why can't I get it? I really want to know. Fate I know you may hate me, but I beg of you! I just wanna understand why the hell she's asking a question like this, please fate...
"Uhm, hello?" Furuse said, waving her hand in the air with a confused look on her face. That got me to snap the hell out of it. "You looked like you zoned out.."
"Oh.. Sorry, I was just looking at the sky. It sure is looking like it could rain today.." I said. She could probably tell that it was a blatant lie. I didn't even try to hide it very well, to be honest. But it for sure is looking like it might rain today, even though it's sort of warm out. One of those warm yet rainy days, if you know what I mean.
"Yeah, it sure is." She said calmly, then she glanced up at the sky. In that moment, I wondered what the sky looked like from her view. What does the sky look like to somebody that's not me? That's a question I've always wondered since I was young. I mean, how am I supposed to know what this world truly looks like.
Then Furuse said something that made me kind of scared, to tell the truth.
"Why are you lying?"
"Lying? What the hell would I have to lie about?"
"It's very obvious, y'know! You were literally zoned out, staring at the ground.."
Goddamnit, I'm so incredibly stupid! Whatever, it doesn't even matter anyways. I'm sure in ten minutes she will forget about this interaction, just like everyone else. I'm sure that she's just like everyone else, I'm sure of it.
"So, why are you avoiding my question?" She asked, she sort of scared me for some odd reason, believe me, she was scary as hell.
I looked back down at the ground. "Because nothing is wrong, obviously."
"Don't lie to me." She stated, sounding far more serious than before.
"I'm not lying."
"Yes you are!"
"I'm not, I swear it."
She was fuming with anger at this point. I think her face may have actually been dark red. She was probably about ready to come on over and sock me in the jaw or something. I don't really want that to happen. That'll hurt like hell for sure. Maybe I could act as if I have suddenly lost my tongue and cannot speak. No, she's smart enough to see right through that.
Furuse is an incredibly smart girl. I can just tell. But she doesn't quite seem like those snobs that act so much better than you because they pay attention in class and get good grades, you know, all of that bullshit. Honestly though, she seems to piss me off significantly less than others do. I would rather hold a conversation with Furuse for an hour or two straight than listen to one of those scumbags talk for ten minutes, if I'm being honest.
Furuse took a deep breath to calm herself, then said, "Would you just stop lying please? I can see right through you, y'know.."
"How do you see right through me if there's nothing to see through?" I was just toying around with her at this point, to be honest.
Then she strode on up to me, at lightning speed, out of pure anger. And then gave me the hardest slap in the face that I have ever received from someone, and I have an absolute scumbag of a brother who loves to beat me up and torture me. I think the slap left a big red mark across my face, too.
"Now stop lying and tell me the truth!" Furuse said, she was basically yelling.
"Geez, if you hate me so much, why can't you just go on and fucking leave!" I said, I wouldn't say that "yell" is the word for it. I more kind of just slightly raised my voice at her.
"Hate you..? I don't hate you. I don't hate you at all, Yasunari." She said, sounding offended as hell.
"Stop lying to me! Everyone hates me, just go on and act like the rest of them. That's right, I know your true colors!"
"I don't hate you. In fact, I actually want to help you."
"Help me? Yeah, that's bullshit. I don't need any goddamn help." I said, my voice not as loud anymore.
I had calmed down a bit now, so I felt sort of bad for lashing out at her. I mean, I was probably pretty scary. Even if I was just slightly raising my voice at her. Even a guy like me can feel some sort of remorse for doing something like that. However, I didn't feel too bad since she did raise her voice at me first. Then again, she is a girl, so I guess I can't be too harsh on her.
"You're so obviously lying! You have a black eye, you're missing all your classes, you're failing all of your classes, you're zoning out and lying about it, instead of going to class you think it's a good idea to come on up to the rooftop and smoke, and you started yelling at me while saying that everyone hates you!" She exclaimed loudly, in one solid breath, out of pure spite.
She must've been really out of breath because she put her hands on her knees and started panting, but still managed to utter, "You... are... not... okay..."
I just stood there with this goddamn awkward, guilty-ass look on my face. Honestly, I kind of wanted to cry in that moment, not because of her or anything. I was just feeling sad as hell. But still, I had to prove to her that she was wrong. I was a bit scared that I could trigger her to yell at me like that again. It was a risk that I was willing to take though.
"I am fine, I really am. If I'm lying, you can do whatever you want with me, but I swear, I'm not lying."
Furuse looked rather resentful in that moment as she glared at me. She was still regaining her breath, so she didn't quite have the opportunity to say anything. I just gave her a little time to think. I'm not a bad guy, so I don't quite get why everyone hates me. I mean, I know it's just fate controlling the strings. Fate needs everyone to hate me for some strange reason that I'll probably never know. The hands of fate have excellent control over many people, but I am trying my best to resist it. Even though that task is very far fetched, as I am merely human.
Then Furuse gained her breath once again and stood back up. She stared right on up at me, the look in her eyes was still pretty angry. I must've really pushed her too far. "Look, you may not want to be saved, but I'm going to save you, whether you like it or not."
Those words made me feel sad as hell for some reason. I suppose maybe I do want to be saved, but I also don't at the same time. Goddamnit, thinking so much about this is really pissing me off. This is the exact reason why I smoke so many cigarettes.
Then a small smile crept over Furuse's face, it made me feel pretty good for some reason.
"I'm going to save you. Because I'm your savior!" She said before sprinting towards the door and down the stairs.
She probably didn't realize that she had just made a total ruckus and was most definitely going to get me caught for being up here. But I didn't really care at that moment. The conversation that I had just had with Furuse Ruriko was far too amusing to be able to think about anything else. I'm certainly gonna remember her. I have a good feeling that our paths will cross soon enough.
I sat down on the ground and lit a cigarette, then I took a nice long puff of it. This was a nice brand unlike those shitty ones that I stole from my brother's friend or whatever. Then I put the cigarette out and flicked it off the rooftop.
I lay down on the ground and looked up at the sky, which resonated deeply within me for some odd reason. The sky seemed as if it was everything I was feeling at that moment. The air was warm yet breezy, and the sky was grey and cloudy. Even though that did not completely match what I was feeling at that moment, it just felt so incredible to me. Words can't quite describe what I'm trying to say.
I just lay there and thought about everything: my brother, home, school, Chyna, my father, Furuse, the sky, cigarettes, Hisakawa, Project BrainCloud, my childhood, everything. It was peaceful. I was really enjoying the moment for once, I really was. It just made me joyful as hell, being able to actually truly enjoy something for once.
Then I heard the bell ring, I knew that I would actually have to attend class now. The thought of it just totally pissed me off. Now I have to go into my goddamn classroom with a bunch of people that despise me and listen to some adult ramble on and on about useless things for about a billion years. Thinking about it made me so goddamn mad. The more I thought about it, the even more pissed off I got. And it sure didn't make things any better once I remembered that my next class was being taught by Mr. Yamato, I knew that I was about to hate today, I even thought about getting myself into trouble on purpose so I would get expelled or something. But even I knew that was a horrible, stupid idea.
After a fair bit of internal resistance, I managed to finally force myself to get up. I then reached out and slowly pushed the door open before making my way down the staircase, step by step, until I found myself back in the familiar halls of the school. The halls were packed with people, so I decided to just hurry and get to my stupid class.
I arrived at my classroom about two minutes before class started. l just stood at the door for a second, debating whether I should go in or not. I decided to just go ahead and send it.
I had my head low, looking down at the ground, as I walked quickly into the classroom. I really didn't want to catch Mr. Yamato's wrath today, even though I usually wouldn't mind too much. I guess the whole thing with Furuse left a sour taste in my mouth, or something.
Mr. Yamato has to be one of the worst teachers in this goddamn school, and that certainly doesn't make me want to learn about math at all. It's not as if I've ever been interested in math, though. I feel like math is only useful in all of those stupid jobs that are infested with people that I would hate. I mean, math is just completely useless for me. I don't see why I would need to learn it.
Despite my best interests to not interact with Mr. Yamato, he still managed to spot me out. I could tell because he started to approach my desk. Now I'm probably gonna get goddamn scolded by him or something.
"Well.. if it isn't Asano." He said with this sly-ass smirk plastered on his face.
"Hi..."
"So, where have you been recently?"
"Well, you see..." I then lowered my voice into a whisper to act as if I didn't want other people to hear. "My grandma recently passed away, and there's been a lot of family drama since..."
"Oh no, really? I am so sorry!"
"It's fine.."
Then he went ahead and walked back up to the front of the room to begin class. I could tell that he wasn't sympathetic at all. He just didn't want to get in trouble. I told you that guy was a scumbag.
After that, class didn't really stand out at all. I wasn't really paying attention since all I had to do was show up. I never had to actually pay attention.
The entire time I was thinking about what Furuse said earlier on the rooftop, if I'm being honest. What the hell did she mean when she said she was gonna save me or whatever. Man, she's a really confusing girl. I can't quite wrap my head around her completely.
Then the bell rang, bringing me back to reality, since I had begun zoning out. I wonder if I should go and try to talk to Furuse again. Do you think she would be mad? Whatever, I guess I'll go and try. It's not like it matters much anyway.
I just decided that I would go ahead and skip school. I didn't even care much if I got kicked out anymore. I mean, I don't even like this stupid-ass school, so what's the point in staying here?
There must still be a couple of class periods left. Maybe I should go to my sister's school or something. I don't even think anyone in this goddamn class will notice if I leave anyway.
I stood up and just straight up left. Nobody even blinked an eye at my departure. I wandered the halls until I found the goddamn exit. Then I just left, determined to go to my sister's school.