It was a humid morning dew when i first saw her
my heart beat ran as if its running away from me (unnecessary: to get to her)
she wore a white t shirt and her hair tied in a pony tail, and she was the most beautiful (optional: thing) ive ever seen.
i still remember the fog that slowly vanished as i start to doubt if im hallucinating.. But i wasnt, i could feel my blood pump faster and faster all over my body.. It was like nothing ive ever ) felt before,
Its as if everything was an accessory and she was the main subject of a picture.
I will admire her from afar is what i said to myself that day for i am not good enough.
she's a star and i only am a mere flame in a camp fire.
i wanted to get to know her.
but i kept my distance.
it was the start of second year of my highschool
*mc in the past pov*
i wish she's in my highschool, hah that would be a one in a million chance.
i got in the class early huh?
no one is here(he said with a grin on his face)
at the start of the first period we were assigned seats and guess what im at the corner where those mc's seat, but strangely my seat mate beside me is not there, i guess he's not here yet.
teacher: introduce youself class based on you seating arrangement, you first at the back of the class near the window.
me?
i-im 谭清风 (tán qīng fēng), the "qīng fēng" part of my name it literally translates to clear wind or cool breeze in chinese literature, and i think its also connected to the idiom 清风明月 (Qīng Fēng Míng Yuè) meaning "a cool breeze and a bright moon" i think its about a peaceful and nonchalant or untroubled personality so i guess its kinda me, is what i wouldve said if i wasnt this nervous and shy, its normal though right?
as i sit back down and in the middle of my daydream this girl suddenly intruded my mind and replayed the scene from that certain morning
as i try to take it of my mind i realize they still arent done intruducing themselves
i really didnt care what they like and whats their name, and so i looked out the window to the sky and was distracted by the beautiful scenery that unfolded in the sky, its was like the sun was cradled by the clouds as it illuminates everything
and thought "just like when i saw that girl.. "
"no.. she was more beautiful, she was like the a soft drizzle of rain after a drout, like a scenery.. a painting"
"break started and i still cant get my mind of that girl"
"i need to get some time alone, maybe i'll go at the back of a building."
as i turned to the corner...
i saw her sitting on a bench looking at the sky..
i didnt even question why there was a bench there, all i saw was her
Her hair flowing with the wind, the warm light of the sun and the shade of the tree hitting her face.
she noticed me but was still so captivated by her beauty.
she called out to me
"hey why are you just standing there?"
"are you okay?"
"wait is there something in my face?"
then she blushed thinking that there was.
i smiled and then walked to her and told her.
you were just too beautiful to take my eyes off
as leaf falls on her head, as she slowly blushed realizing what i just said.
i could see her face so clearly, the way her face turned red, the way she tried to hide her face with her hair, her hazel colored eyes in the sunlight, and her pupils dilate as she realize what i said.
i take the leaf of her head.
(i really wanted to take a picture with the leaf on her head!)
in my mind (fuckk.. what am i doing why am i acting like some guy out of a romance novel, what if she thinks im hitting on her, i just wanted to talk to her and just stay there with her, this is so unlike me, something is wrong with me, should i keep with this act, ahhhhh i dont even know anymore)
i sat next to her asking her why are you here?
you look troubled.
may i ask why?
her eyes glint when she hear me ask
(she looked like a cat earlier and now a puppy♡)
"my heart can't take this" i thought outloud
"are you okay" she asked again
"yea, im fine"
as i stare at her mesmirizing eyes she suddenly looks at me
our eyes lock and i got to see her eyes more clearly as i think there are some truth to the saying that eyes are the window to the soul, though i see some emptyness deep in her eyes i still couldnt shake of the thought that keeps on repeating in my head "her eyes are so beautiful"
I looked away immediately not wanting anyone to see through me also because shes to beautiful to be looked at for a long time like a blue star
(atp i overused the word beautiful imma need to find a new word for it)
but she said..
"i like your eyes"
i felt my heart skip a beat
i changed the topic and told her my name, and she gigled and said "im alisha"*not final
what a unique name
she then tells me that she skipped the earlier periods because she was too shy and cant talk to people properly.
it didnt make sense to me how can someone so beautiful be shy,and she talked to me just fine.
she's an enigma.
*the last period*
i cant stop thinking about what she told me
i-it made me feel special.
( i know that im not good looking or smart )but
i want to get closer to her.
(i dont know what love feels like so this is hard to write)