The high school bell kept ringing in my skull, a shrill, metallic clamor vibrating like a razor blade struck against a rusted steel bar. Each strike echoed in my temples, sending tiny electric jolts down my neck, making me feel as if my brain contracted with every second. Two violent impulses tore through me: rip that infernal bell from its mount to silence it forever, or leap at Jayden Spencer Park and crush his throat until his conqueror's grin dissolved into a muffled gurgle. The school seemed to belong to him, body and soul; every glance from the students slid over him like a caress, every whisper bowed before his insolent triumph.
Jackson, on the other hand, only had to say one wrong word for me to snap his jaw with a clean strike. One word, and my fists would clamp down on his flesh with a satisfying crack.
— You know, Jackson, that's already two sentences, I growled through clenched teeth, tasting the bitter flavor of anger on my tongue, like oxidized metal.
I stormed off the sports field, my soles crunching against gravel still warm from the afternoon sun. The hot air clung to my skin, thick with dusty grit that stung faintly in my nostrils. I searched for a place to breathe, a corner that could finally belong to me, if only for a moment. But Jackson caught up, panting, his breath slapping the air like a forge bellows. His sneakers thudded rhythmically against the pavement.
— Where are you going? Classes aren't over.
— Oh really? I shot back, my voice heavy with irony, sweat trickling down my back, warm and faintly salty.
He stared at me, eyes gleaming with almost childlike curiosity, pupils wide with excitement. A thin sheen of sweat made his skin glisten in the sun.
— So, where are we going?
— I don't know… And you, where do you want to go?
— I was waiting for that line, he whispered with a smile that revealed slightly crooked teeth, his breath carrying the faded scent of mint gum.
We reached a neighborhood saturated with noise. Traffic roared like a raging beast, a chaos of rumbling engines, shrill horns, and tires screeching on burning asphalt. The air reeked of hot tar, acrid exhaust fumes, and the distant sweet-salty note of street food. Yet there was a strange vitality in it: the vibrations of cars rising through my legs, the endless buzz of voices and radios, the sticky heat wrapping everything like a second skin.
— This is the place you were talking about? Seriously? I asked, skeptical, as a bead of sweat slid down my temple and disappeared into my collar.
— Yeah, come on, follow me. You'll love it.
He led me to a fast-food joint with garish neon lights buzzing faintly in the heat. Inside, the air was saturated: a hot, greasy wave of rancid frying oil, grilled meat, and warm bread engulfed us as soon as the door swung open. Girls in skimpy outfits laughed behind the counter, their high-pitched voices cutting through the crackle of fryers and the clatter of drink shakers. The sugary scent of sodas mingled with the heavier aroma of burgers cooking.
— This is what I'm supposed to love? I muttered, wrinkling my nose at the olfactory assault.
— Me, I love it, he replied, openly eyeing the servers with a sly grin, his Adam's apple bobbing as he swallowed.
I froze for a moment, stunned by the suffocating atmosphere. The sweat on my neck turned cold under the overly strong air conditioning, which blew out a dusty chill. The sticky floor sucked faintly at my soles with each step.
— If you can't stand it, grab a seat outside. I'll order.
— Order? Do you take me for a fool?
— Go on, sit outside, there are plenty of seats for you.
Rolling my eyes, I exhaled sharply, my nostrils twitching one last time at the invasive stench of frying. Then I headed out, leaving behind the chatter, the clatter of trays, and the heavy atmosphere of hot grease. Outside, the air was drier, harsher, filled with parking lot dust and the distant hum of the city that never stopped. I dropped onto a warm plastic bench, still marked by the afternoon sun, and finally breathed slowly, letting the light breeze dry the sweat on my skin. The bench clung faintly to the back of my thighs through the thin fabric of my pants. A dusty, warm breeze swept across the lot, carrying the acrid smell of overheated asphalt and the faint tang of exhaust fumes. I wiped my face with my hand; my palm came away damp, coated with sweat and a fine urban grit that almost rasped between my fingers.
Behind me, through the grimy fast-food window, I could make out Jackson's silhouette gesturing at the counter. His muffled voice pierced the fryer's drone now and then, punctuated by the crystalline laughter of the servers. Each burst of laughter scraped my skin like sandpaper.
I closed my eyes for a moment. The sun hammered against my eyelids, painting warm orange blotches. My heart still pounded too hard, a dull drum echoing in my ears, blood pulsing at my temples. The anger at Jayden hadn't faded; it had only folded back, like a blade half-sheathed, ready to spring at the slightest move.
The slam of a tray on the table made me open my eyes. Jackson was already there, triumphant grin on his face, arms loaded with two grease-stained brown paper bags. The powerful smell of fresh fries and grilled meat instantly invaded my space, thick, almost tangible, like a second atmosphere.
— Double cheeseburger, extra-large fries, and a chocolate milkshake for Mr. Grumpy, he announced, sitting opposite me with a dull thud.
He shoved a huge cup toward me. Cold condensation slid down the plastic walls, leaving wet streaks on the sun-heated table.
I stared at him without moving.
— Did I ask for anything?
— No. But you're going to eat anyway. You look like a guy about to crash from low blood sugar and smash everything in five minutes.
He dug into the bag, pulled out a handful of steaming fries, and shoved them into his mouth. The crisp crack of fried potatoes echoed between us. A drop of hot oil slid down his chin; he wiped it away with the back of his hand without a care.
The smell was treacherous. Despite myself, my stomach clenched, sending a sharp pang of hunger up to my throat. I picked up a fry. It was scorching, slightly damp with grease, leaving a thin oily film on my fingers. I brought it to my mouth. Salt burst first on my tongue, followed by the crunchy exterior that gave way to soft, hot flesh. A faintly rancid fried taste spread, oddly comforting.
Jackson watched me while noisily sipping his soda, ice cubes clinking against the cup walls like tiny bells.
— So? Still want to slit Jayden's throat, or are you calmer now?
His voice was mocking, but there was something gentle beneath it, like clumsy concern.
I didn't answer right away. I took a second fry, then a third. Each bite eased the tension in my shoulders. The hot grease left a film on my lips that I licked away automatically. Around us, the parking lot vibrated: a car rumbled past, shaking the bench slightly; in the distance, a furious horn tore the air; a fly landed on the edge of my tray, drawn by the sweet-salty smell.
Jackson leaned back against his plastic chair, which creaked under his weight. He bit into his burger with a wet, satisfying crunch. Orange sauce dripped down his fingers.
— You know, he went on, half his mouth full, voice muffled by food, if you keep staring at Jayden like that every day, one day you'll really end up jumping him. And then it won't just be a broken jaw… it'll be prison.
He swallowed, then added more quietly, almost seriously…
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A cooler breeze suddenly swept past, carrying away part of the smell of frying and anger. For a few minutes, the world seemed a little less suffocating. Jackson finished his burger in three massive bites, orange sauce dripping between his fingers like warm, sticky glue. He wiped himself vaguely with a paper napkin already soaked in grease, then stood with a satisfied groan. The plastic bench creaked slightly as he pushed himself up.
— Gotta hit the bathroom, man. Those big fries don't go unnoticed.
He slapped his stomach with the flat of his hand, producing a dull, hollow sound. A brief grimace of discomfort crossed his face, quickly replaced by his usual grin.
— Don't move, I'll be back in two minutes. And don't touch my fries, okay?
I nodded without answering. He hurried toward the fast-food entrance, his sneakers making faint suction sounds on the oil-stained pavement. The glass door opened with a sharp electronic "ding," releasing another puff of air heavy with frying oil and cheap chemical deodorizer. Then the relative silence of the parking lot settled around me.
I was alone.
The milkshake had almost completely melted in the cup. I twirled the straw between my fingers; the cold, slippery plastic left a damp sensation on my skin. Around me, the parking lot still vibrated with the city's life. A car crawled past, its tires crunching irregularly on scattered gravel. The smell of hot tar rose in waves, mingled with the sharper stench of overflowing trash bins baking in the sun nearby. A fine layer of dust was already settling on the remaining fries, giving them a dull, chalky look.
The sun beat down on my neck, burning and heavy, sending a bead of sweat sliding slowly down my spine, leaving a cold, ticklish trail. I closed my eyes for a moment. The distant drone of traffic formed a continuous, almost hypnotic background, punctuated by the harsh cry of a crow rummaging through the trash near the dumpsters.
Alone, the anger returned quietly, like a rising tide. Not the explosive rage from earlier, but something deeper, duller. I saw again Jayden Spencer Park's victorious grin, that smirk that seemed to claim the world as his own. My jaw clenched involuntarily, the joint cracking faintly. The salty taste of fries still lingered on my tongue, now mixed with a metallic bitterness, bile rising.
I picked up a cold fry between my fingers. It was limp, slightly rubbery, leaving a greasy streak across my knuckles. I bit into it anyway. The crunch was gone, replaced by a pasty texture that clung to the roof of my mouth. I swallowed with difficulty, throat tight.
A group of girls spilled out of the fast-food, laughing. Their high-pitched voices sliced through the air, accompanied by the slap of flip-flops on pavement and a cloud of artificial vanilla perfume drifting toward me. One of them glanced quickly at me; I felt her eyes slide over my silhouette like a cold caress. I turned my head away.
The wind shifted slightly, carrying a fresher scent from the scraggly trees lining the lot—a sharp, green note of overheated leaves and dry earth. But it wasn't enough to dispel the weight pressing on my chest. Jackson had been gone barely two minutes, and already the space around me felt too big, too empty. The plastic bench, now cooled by my shadow, clung less to my thighs, but the solitude weighed heavier than the heat.
I pulled my phone from my pocket. The screen, warm against my palm, lit up with a blinding glare. No messages. Nothing. Just my distorted reflection in the black glass: a tense face, furrowed brows, lips pressed into a hard line.
Inside the fast-food, I faintly heard the flush of a toilet, followed by the hum of a hand dryer. Jackson wouldn't be long. Yet for now, I was alone with the lump in my throat that refused to go down, and with the lingering taste of salt and cold grease on my tongue.
I breathed slowly, letting the hot, dusty air fill my lungs. The city kept roaring around me, indifferent. I picked up another fry. It was already cold, limp, slightly rubbery, coated with a thin film of salt that cracked under my teeth with a dry, grainy sound. The salty taste burst on my tongue, mixed with the greasy bitterness of cooled oil that clung to my palate like a second skin. My eyes wandered into the city's chaos. It lived, it breathed, it pulsed with raw, chaotic energy I knew I could never match. Horns screamed in a shrill cacophony, tangled with distant voices of passersby and the deep rumble of engines. Neon signs flickered above sidewalks like artificial heartbeats, casting red and blue flashes that danced across asphalt slick with grease. And me, I was just there, motionless spectator, sitting on that warm plastic bench that still clung faintly to the back of my thighs, excluded from a theater spinning without me.
Minutes had passed since Jackson—Jack to his friends—had vanished into the bathroom. Time stretched like an overtightened rope, each second weighing heavily in my chest. My phone, warm in my sweaty palm, displayed the time with cruel precision; each digit changed with the discreet click of electronics, like a drop of water falling in a silent, cold cellar. A fly landed on the edge of the tray, its tiny legs producing an almost imperceptible rasp against the greasy cardboard. I brushed it away slowly, feeling the displaced air graze my sweat-damp skin.
Finally, impatience overtook me. I stood abruptly. The bench scraped faintly against the ground with a muffled metallic squeal. My legs were numb, heavy, and my soles stuck briefly to the sticky pavement. I had barely crossed the few meters to the fast-food entrance when the world slammed into me head-on.
A man appeared out of nowhere, rushing, his shoulder colliding with mine with unexpected force. In the shock, his cup of scalding coffee tipped. The steaming liquid splashed across my shirt in a hot, brutal spray. The heat seized me instantly, a burning bite seeping through the fabric, clinging to my skin like a tongue of fire. I felt every drop penetrate, searing, almost painful, spreading a scorching sensation up into my chest. The acrid smell of black coffee, faintly roasted and sweetened with cheap milk, invaded my nostrils, mingled with the more metallic scent of my own sweat mixing with the liquid.