Some days ago, I asked,
My classmates to share their Instagram screen time,
As I looked at the report, I couldn't help but smile,
I can't explain this feeling,
But the feeling of happiness you get when someone is doing worse than you,
Like I am not the worst in this job he is,
And we relax ourselves,
Who says comparison is thief of joy?
Whenever I get sad, when I see someone worse than me in some tests, games or sports,
I feel happy and can't help but smile,
My mouth cannot help but smile,
Those losers haha,
I am so better than other,
Heheehhe,
And Today I going to ask my class topper to show me his screen time today,
Today we had class early in the morning at like 7AM,
I was of course not going to attend it but the teacher said this lecture was very important and everyone must be present or he will cut marks,
So, I had to wake up at 5AM,
I hate that mother fucker so much,
He will die by my hands someday,
Haha,
I approached the topper of my class with other classmates,
We had already made a plan yesterday to ask everyone their screen time,
As we approached him,
He was in second last bench using his phone,
We approached him and asked
"Hey bro what is your screen time?"
He laughed and said "It is very high."
One guy said "Don't Joke around, Bruh"
"Just show us your Instagram screen time"
"Okay, but you all will also share yours,"
The class ranker opened his settings and showed his screen time of Instagram,
And when I saw his screen time,
I could not help but laugh,
Of course, I was so happy,
He was so worse than me,
Hahahaahhaaha
He is such a loser,
I felt so happy,
I felt like I was sleeping with thousand whores,
Even highest of all drugs could never give me this pleasure,
This guys, Instagram uses was,
Fucking 2 hours and 30 minutes in morning,
Like He lives so far away from college,
He must have to wake at 4AM and get ready for college,
Even then one can't have such screen time,
Even mine was only 1 hour and 49 minutes since the time I woke up,
Hahahahaa
This guy is worse them me,
I am Betttererrrr!!
I am so BETTTERRRR!!
Finally, I am better than him in something,
I am a GOD.
I am better than my class ranker,
I felt pleasure that even highest of all heavens couldn't grant,
The feeling of superiority is so intoxicating,
I am better then all,
Even then to be sure I asked "What was your usage time of yesterday?"
He looked at me like I was some idiot and said "Shishir, look at the screen carefully the usage time,"
"I showed you was not of today neither of yesterday but of whole entire week,"
Everyone was shocked beyond words,
His screen time of Instagram for whole fucking week was 2 hour and 30 thirty miuntes?????
Like that is seven long ass days,
HOW IS THAT EVEN POSSIBLE,
I LOOKED AT THIS MOTHERFUCKER WITH ANGER AND RAGE,
I WANTED TO KILL HIM HERE!!
WHY!?????????????????????
HOW CAN HE BE SO BETTER,
I REFUSE TO BELIEVE
THIS IS ALL LIE,
MINE WEEKLY SCREEN TIME FOR INSTAGRAM WAS FUCKING 49 HOURS ON AVERAGE,
I REFUSE TO BELIEVE THAT
THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THIS GUY AND ME IS THIS HUGE,
THIS IS ALL LIE,
I CANNOT BE SO WORSE,
I AM BETTER,
I am better,
I am better?
Am I?
am i?
I?
.
.
.
But,
Am I really better?
What I was even thinking?
Thinking he would be worse them me was all wish fulfillment,
I knew it deep inside me,
That,
There is no way, he will have worse screen time then me,
Hahaha,
I am so delusional,
I am such a loser,
Finding joy in something out of my control,
Hahaha,
This is all that bitch fault and that old coot's fault too,
They would have just let me die that day,
Now, the life I live is not even worth living,
I want to die so badly but I can't.
I need to repay both of them,
I need to repay,
Can't use their money,
I need to repay.
REPAY,
Repay,
Dept needs to be settled,
settled,
settled,
Mom and Dad,
You should have abandoned me that day,
And brother why did you died?
How can I repay you?
NOW,
now,