For a few moments, nobody spoke.
Even the smallest, Rickon, remained quiet.
This watched the humans around the table.
Mother had put down her utensils and was looking at Father seriously, along with Robb and Jon.
Arya seemed uninterested at first, though even she had stopped eating.
Only This continued chewing.
After swallowing, it reached for another piece of meat.
Looking at This, Father seemed slightly bothered but said nothing.
His gaze casually moved away and scanned each person seated at the table before finally speaking.
"This morning, a raven arrived from King's Landing."
The room immediately seemed to tighten.
This felt it. It still wasn't certain where its understanding of human emotions came from, but it could clearly feel it.
Surprise, concern, curiosity, amongst others.
Still chewing, This saw how Mother's posture straightened slightly.
How Robb frowned while lifting a cup to his face again.
Even Jon looked up.
Only Rickon seemed confused.
"What is King's Landing?" he asked.
This was also curious about what King's Landing was. It still hadn't entirely gone through Sansa's memories.
Arya immediately answered.
"The capital, stupid."
Rickon frowned.
"I'm not stupid."
"You are." Arya instantly responded.
Not having it, Father cleared his throat and with it, their argument ended immediately.
"King Robert is coming North. To Winterfell."
The room became silent again.
Listening intently, This reached for another piece of bread.
The emotions around the table had changed again.
Mother seemed surprised.
Bran looked excited.
Robb appeared thoughtful.
While Arya looked annoyed for reasons This couldn't understand.
Only Rickon seemed even more confused than before.
"King Robert?" Bran asked.
"The king?" Rickon added.
Father nodded.
"Yes. He should arrive within a month."
"The whole royal family?" Mother asked.
Father nodded again.
"So the letter says."
For a brief moment, This watched as a unique feeling passed through Mother.
Not happiness or worry. Something more complicated.
This recognized it but couldn't identify it.
Giving up, This blinked.
Then continued eating.
Across the table, Arya groaned.
"That sounds awful."
Bran looked at her as if she'd gone mad.
"What? The king is coming!"
"So?" Arya replied.
"So?" Bran repeated. "He's the king!"
Arya rolled her eyes.
"All that'll happen is Septa will force us into lessons for weeks."
"All that'll happen is that Septa will force us into lessons for weeks. We'll have to sit straight, speak properly, walk properly, and do fancy bows..."
"You already do all that," Robb said.
Arya sat up straighter at his response.
"Exactly. That's how I know it's terrible."
A few quiet chuckles spread around the table.
Bran frowned.
"You're not even curious?"
"About what?"
"The king? The knights? Meeting the royal family?"
Arya paused slightly.
"...Maybe the knights."
"See!" Bran declared triumphantly.
Across the table, This heard a small sound from Robb and looked over to find him trying not to smile.
Even Father's expression didn't seem much better, a slight tightening at the corner of his mouth.
Allowing the amusement to settle, Father continued.
"There is more."
The room quieted once again.
"The king intends to stay in Winterfell for some time."
"Perhaps a night or two, maybe even longer."
Another pause.
Then he continued.
"During their stay, I expect all of you to conduct yourselves accordingly. The castle will be busier than you are used to. There will be unfamiliar people. And high expectations."
His eyes moved across each of his children one by one.
They landed on Arya the longest.
Arya looked back at him with the expression she often wore when she already knew she was being warned about something and had already decided how she felt about it.
Father didn't push further.
"Be mindful of this. That is all for now."
With no questions remaining, the table slowly returned to the business of eating.
Only Mother remained quiet, still carrying that feeling This had noticed earlier.
The one it couldn't name.
This thought about it while eating.
It went through what it had learned of human emotions so far, sorting each one carefully the way it sorted words.
None of them quite fit what it felt within her.
Reluctantly giving up on naming it, This returned to its food.
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Some time passed before dinner fully wound down.
Conversations thinned gradually. Robb and Jon rose together, speaking quietly between themselves as they left.
Bran followed shortly after, still talking to Arya about knights and the king's arrival. While Mother gently gathered Rickon and then turned towards This.
She stopped her movements for a moment, staring deeply.
Before walking over slowly, her eyes moving slowly across its hands, face and dress.
This didn't know what it had done wrong now, but it could feel the anger slowly rising within her.
A brief silence.
"Sansa." Her voice had that particular quality it got when she was choosing between several responses, and none of them were good enough. "What have you—"
She stopped herself.
Then started again.
"A lady does not—"
Then stopped again.
She continued to look at This's face. Repeatedly shifting between its dress, hands, and then back to its face.
Then, without a word, she reached forward and took This's nearest hand firmly and began wiping it with a cloth that This hadn't known where from.
"This is not— you cannot sit at a table like this! Especially not with the king coming, what would people think? You are a lady! And foremostly a Stark! You cannot eat with your—"
This did not intend what happened next.
It simply happened.
Something shifted deep inside its body. A pressure that had been building quietly in the chest without This noticing it, rose steadily upward through its neck and came out of its mouth.
Along with it came a smell.
Warm and thick, carrying with it an unmistakable smell of everything This had eaten over the past hour. Meat primarily. Bread. And the faint ghost of something else underneath.
With the smell thick in the air between This and Mother's face, time seemed to still.
Mother stopped wiping.
She looked at This blankly.
This looked back at her, mildly curious about what had just happened and where it had come from.
The blankness on her face shifted in quick succession.
Disbelief. Horror. Something past horror that didn't have a name. Before finally settling on anger.
"I-"
However, before she could say anything of meaning, Ned appeared behind her and spoke.
"Leave it, Cat."
Mother's words instantly paused.
Father's voice had been quiet, but it landed clearly in the way his voice often did.
Mother looked at him.
Father met her gaze with an expression filled with a deep calm and patience that This could feel indirectly.
A long moment passed between them.
Then Mother released This's hand.
She stood up, looked at the dress once more with an expression This could only describe as grief.
Then she gathered Rickon and left without another word.
Watching them leave, This sat still and thought briefly about the strange thing that had come out of its body. It had felt neither good nor bad. Simply like something the body had needed to do and had done without consulting anyone.
It filed the experience away for later.
Not noticing she had finished speaking to Bran, Arya passed behind This's chair with a slight frown.
"You have something on your face," she said.
"Several things," she added.
Not knowing how to respond, This remained silent.
Then she left.
The hall was nearly empty now.
The servants had returned to the dining room and quietly began collecting dishes without looking at This directly.
This sat in the remaining quiet and gradually became aware of something it had not fully noticed while eating.
A heaviness had spread outward from its stomach and planted itself throughout Sansa's entirety with a quiet finality.
This sat very still with it and conducted an honest internal assessment.
It thought about the meat the way it thought about cold floors. Fondly and often. Eating remained one of the finest things it had discovered since arriving here.
But.
This looked down at its stomach.
Perhaps not all of the meat had been strictly necessary.
It attempted to stand in order to test this theory.
But its body disagreed firmly.
This sat back down.
Then, it made a sound.
It was not intentional. Nor was it a word that This understood.
Just a low shapeless noise that came up from somewhere deep in the body without asking permission first.
"Uuughhh."
This sat with the feeling and thought seriously.
It had been worth it. Obviously, it had been worth it.
This thought so with as much conviction as it could manage, given the current state of its body.
It was still deciding how firmly it believed this when Father appeared beside it.
He looked down at This. Taking in its open posture. It's face. The hands were still smudged with grease at the edges despite Mother's efforts.
The front of the dress decorated with crumbs and small evidence of everything This ate. And the faint smear along one cheek that the cloth had missed.
He said nothing for a moment.
Then the corner of his mouth moved.
"Seems you enjoyed your meal," he said quietly.
This looked up at him.
Father held its gaze with an expression that was working considerably hard to cover its amusement.
He reached past This and lifted a large glass of water from the table, pouring a cup and setting it in front of This.
"Drink," he said.
Listening, This drank a small amount.
It helped slightly, but it felt if it had more something bad would happen.
Father pulled a cloth from beside the nearest candle stand and crouched beside the chair.
He took This's nearest hand, wiping it clean.
Then the other hand.
Then he straightened and looked at This's face for a moment.
"Hold still."
This held still.
He wiped This's cheek clean with the same quiet efficiency. Then stepped back and looked at its dress.
"We'll leave that for Septa," he said simply.
He set the cloth down on the table and spoke.
"Walk with me, Sansa."
This looked up at him.
Then looked down at the body.
It was still heavy. Still firmly opposed to significant movement.
Still conducting its quiet refusal from somewhere around the stomach.
"Yes," This said anyway.
And with considerable effort, stood.
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They walked through the quieter corridors away from the noise of the dining room.
Father moved unhurriedly, hands clasped behind his back, while This followed at a careful pace.
It had discovered, somewhere between standing up from the table and reaching the corridor, that the heaviness responded poorly to haste. Moving slowly helped. So did not speak.
But eventually Father did speak, his tone lighter than it had been at the table.
"I've been talking with a woman in the south," he said.
"A lady of some standing. She has experience in instructing young noblewomen. Etiquette. Conduct. Presentation."
He glanced briefly at This.
"I've asked her to come to Winterfell. She should arrive before the king does."
This processed what it had understood.
A woman was coming, and Father had asked her to. Thinking back on what Arya said at the table.
"We'll have to sit straight, speak properly, walk properly, and do fancy bows."
This looked at Father.
It thought it understood now what the woman was coming for.
"Arya as well?" This asked.
Something close to amusement crossed Father's expression.
"Arya especially," he said.
They walked a little further.
"She will not make it easy," Father said.
This wasn't certain whether he meant Arya or the teacher.
So This said nothing.
Father slowed as they reached the door to his study. He held it open, and This entered.
The room was familiar from Sansa's memories. Large shelves filled with books. A large desk. And the particular cold that seemed to live in rooms like this, regardless of the fire.
Father closed the door behind them.
He moved to his desk but didn't sit. He rested one hand against it and looked at This directly.
"How are you, Sansa?" His question seemed to hold a deeper weight,
This considered it carefully.
This knew Father wasn't asking about the body. This understood that much.
"Good." This said.
Father held its gaze.
"Are you certain?"
"Yes."
A pause.
Father exhaled slowly. He looked at This the way he sometimes did, steady and searching; Mother often did the same.
"You have been different," he said. "Since that night."
This waited.
"Your mother has noticed. Septa has noticed." He paused. "I have noticed."
This said nothing.
Father continued.
"Look... You don't have to explain everything. I'm not asking you to." He looked at the desk for a moment. "But I want you to know that you can. If you want to."
This thought about his words, what it would say if it tried to explain.
That it had come from darkness. That it had been counting thoughts for longer than it could remember.
That it was not Sansa but was in Sansa and had been learning to move her body one urge at a time.
It looked back at Father. It didn't know where to begin.
"You are my daughter." Accepting the silence, he spoke again, this time quietly.
"Yes," This replied instantly.
The word came out simply, without hesitation.
Sansa was This. This had long ago understood it.
Father looked at This for a moment longer.
Something moved behind his eyes. Not the usual searching look, nor quite relief.
He nodded slowly.
"Whatever happened out there that night.." He paused, choosing carefully. "Whatever is still happening. I need you to know that this family is here for you."
He looked at This directly.
"I am here for you."
The room was quiet.
Yet This held his gaze and did not look away. It felt it couldn't.
Within his gaze, there was patience, unease and something else This didn't have a name for yet.
It felt warm.
This wanted to think about his words, what it meant for him to be there for it.
Yet, controlled by something else, something that wasn't entirely thinking.
This felt its mind read the room, the emotions coming from the human it had only met a week ago, all before it consciously did.
And a response formed from its core.
"I know."
It didn't fully understand what it knew. Perhaps that it wasn't Sansa, that even then, these humans would still be there for it.
But it felt it understood the feelings Father was trying to give it.
And for the first time since it had come here, it thought that perhaps that was enough.
Saying those words, This watched as Father's shoulders visibly loosened.
The particular weight the room had held released itself quietly.
This noticed all of it.
...
...
...
For a moment, neither spoke.
Then Father moved around the desk and sat. He opened a drawer at his side and took a letter from it, put it against the table, and smoothed it once with his palm.
"The teacher's name is Lady Marguerite Delacroix," he said. "She comes from the south. Your mother knows of her family."
He glanced up once.
"Try not to frighten her."
This considered it.
"Yes," it said.
Looking at This.
Something not often seen appeared on his face.
A soft and quiet smile.
"Good," he said simply.
...
For a moment, This remained where it was.
Father's attention had returned entirely to the letter in front of him.
This watched him for a moment.
Then watched the fire across the room.
Then watched him again.
Without looking up, Father spoke.
"Jolene."
Almost instantly, the door opened, and a brown-haired maid stepped inside, making eye contact with this, her head lowered slightly.
This recognized her immediately. It was the same human from the kitchen. The same one who had brought Septa to it and Arya.
She looked briefly at Father, then toward This.
"My lord."
"See Sansa to her room."
"Of course, my lord."
She turned toward This fully and dipped her head.
"My lady." A small pause.
This looked at her.
Then stood.
The heaviness had settled enough to make movement manageable. Barely, but enough.
Without a word, This nodded.
And followed her out.
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The corridor outside the room was quiet.
This briefly enjoyed it before the maid beside it spoke.
"My name is Jolene, my lady. In case you didn't know."
This looked at her. It had spoken a lot today. Yet it somehow felt a small obligation to respond.
"I know."
She seemed mildly surprised at This's response but didn't push further. Looking ahead again.
They walked a little further before she spoke again. Her voice quieter this time.
"I'm sorry. About earlier. Bringing Septa."
This processed the apology.
It thought of Septa arriving in the courtyard. The look on her face when she saw the sword. The wound.
"You brought her." This said.
"Yes, my lady." A pause. "I saw your hand, and I got worried, so I thought-."
This slowly tuned her out and thought vaguely.
Worried.
It had come to understand worry as something humans did when they thought something bad would happen.
This looked at Jolene briefly.
She was watching the corridor ahead, still talking, although it felt like This couldn't hear her at all.
Then, This returned its attention to walking.
"It was fine,"
The maid, Jolene, exhaled very slightly.
"I'm glad," she said simply.
Thankfully, the rest of the way back was in silence.
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The room was dark when This entered.
Without a moment of waste, Jolene moved efficiently, lighting two candles from the low fire before turning toward This.
"Let's get you cleaned up and changed, my lady. You'll sleep better for it."
This stood still, allowing her to work.
Jolene was quick like the other maids. She helped This out of the ruined dress without comment, though This caught her expression briefly when she saw the full extent of its damage.
Yet, she said nothing.
This liked that.
A clean nightgown followed. Warm water and a cloth for its hands and face, more thorough than Father's efficient wipe in the dining hall.
When she finished, she gathered the dress from the floor and folded it over her arm.
"How is the hand, my lady?" she asked. "The bandage looked clean when I first saw it earlier, but I wanted to ask."
This looked down at the wrapped hand.
It moved the fingers once experimentally.
"It is fine," it said.
Jolene nodded.
She moved toward the door, then paused with her hand on the frame and looked back.
"Is there anything else you need?"
This, already moving towards the bed, answered her.
"No."
"Goodnight, my lady." She said, bowing her head and closing the door softly behind her.
The room settled into silence.
This stood beside the bed for a moment.
Then sat.
The heaviness in its stomach had reduced a little over the time it spent with Father and Jolene.
It felt almost manageable now.
This laid back and looked at the ceiling for a moment.
Then recalled its day, the small thing, the bite, then the sword, Arya, Septa, Dinner, mother, father.
Everything.
Especially Father.
This felt like something had changed then.
Not during the sword practice.
Earlier, This had thought so.
Now it wasn't certain.
That feeling had grown stronger throughout the day.
Strongest of all in Father's room.
This closed its eyes. Allowing its already dark room to fade entirely.
The unending black of its Mindscape revealed itself around This.
Dark, familiar and still.
This sat within it silently, simply taking it in for a moment before feeling around for what it had felt throughout the day.
This found it without difficulty.
However, unlike what it had expected, instead of a feeling;
A familiar blue box appeared brightly within the dark space.
On it, words of pale light appeared line by line.
[Recognition Detected]
...
[Role Recognition: Partial]
...
[Compatibility Threshold Met]
...
[Pathway Confirmed]
[Actor]
[Sequence 9]
...
[New Functions Available]
• Emotional Resonance
• Role Embodiment
• Act
...
[System Note: The audience has begun to believe.]
This read the lines once.
Then again.
The words had no explanation. Nor did it come with any details or instructions.
Only names.
This turned them over carefully.
Emotional Reading.
Thinking of the new "function." This's mind was pulled back to scenes throughout the day when it had been able to feel what others felt instinctively.
Like Brans ' confusion, Septa's anger, and even Father's unease. Along with emotions, it couldn't name properly. Like the firmness Septa held and the mixed state Mother had.
Even the warmth Father showed.
This had already known it could feel emotions clearly.
Now it understood there was a reason for it.
The next function was different.
Act.
As before, within its mindscape, This was pulled back to moments where it had experienced it.
Moments when This's body had moved without full thought.
Or when its speech or actions had come out differently than intended.
This didn't fully understand it, only remembering the moments it happened.
Then This moved to the last one.
Role Adoption.
Unlike the others, nothing immediately came to mind.
No memories
No instinct.
No explanation.
This filed it all away without rushing.
It would understand more through doing than through thinking.
But knowing the names was a beginning.
The lines faded slowly back into the dark.
The Mindscape returned to its familiar stillness.
This remained within it for a while longer, turning the names over one final time.
Then it returned.
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This's eyes opened to the dim room.
The candles Jolene had lit had burned lower. The fire had reduced itself to a small blaze.
Something shifted slightly against its side.
This looked down.
This had almost forgotten about it, but somehow the small being had found it, during the time This was in the Mindscape.
This recalled seeing it last in the herb room when it had gotten its hand treated, yet now it was pressed directly against This's chest, its small body tucked close and compact, breathing slow in its sleep.
This looked at it for a moment.
Then reached out and rested its hand lightly against the creature's side.
The fur was soft.
This had felt many things since coming here. The cold of snow. The burn of a bite. The overwhelming flood of Sansa's memories. The strange bliss of food. The new warm sensation it felt in Father's study...
Most of it had been too much, too new, or simply strange.
The small thing was not any of those.
It was small. And simple. And soft.
This moved its hand slowly along the creature's back.
The small being made a quiet sound in its sleep and pressed closer without waking.
This looked at it for a long time.
It thought about the cold floors it had lain on in the early days. The sharp, clean feeling of snow. The deep familiar dark of the Mindscape.
All the things it had found good since arriving here.
Of all of it, the small thing was the only softness it didn't mind.
Not cold. Not dark. Not the bliss of eating.
Just this.
Simple and warm.
Warmth, This thought.
Resting itself closer to the small thing and closing it's eyes.
This felt, like Father's emotions, the small thing was warm.
Within the darkness of its shut eyes, the Mindscape did not open.
And for the first time since arriving in this loud and overwhelming world, This slept soundly.