[ Death Count: 350 ]
This death, I summon Astra the moment the second sphere starts forming, not to fight, but to draw one of them off-target.
It almost works.
Her form flickers right as the sphere locks onto her, that same instability that's gotten her killed twice before, except this time the flicker happens at exactly the wrong moment for Onyx instead of for her. The sphere chasing her overcorrects, lagging behind her glitching, half-there form for just long enough that it clips empty air instead of clipping anything real.
She's not durable. She's not strong enough to take a hit and live. But she's unpredictable in a way nothing else I've ever sent at him has been, and for the first time, something about that unpredictability actually buys time instead of costing it.
The other sphere starts to make its way towards me but then, I have an idea.
Every spell, no matter who casts it, goes through the same two stages before it actually does anything. First it's read—mana gathering around an intention, the caster's will translating itself into something the world can act on, the way a thought has to become a sentence before anyone else can understand it. Then it's defined. Once a spell is defined, it stops being an intention and becomes a fixed law instead—a rule the world has accepted as true, the same way a sentence stops being a thought the moment it's spoken aloud and can't be unsaid.
You can't argue with a sentence that's already been spoken. You can only listen to it, get hit by it, or die to it.
But while it's still being read—while it's still translation, not yet law—it isn't a finished rule. It's an unfinished definition, still listening to whatever mana is feeding it information about what it's supposed to mean.
That's the gap I've been missing this whole time. I've spent three hundred deaths treating every one of Onyx's attacks like an already-spoken sentence—something already finished by the time I see it, something I can only react to. But the sphere doesn't fire the instant his hand rises. There's a window, small, maybe half a second, where it hasn't been defined yet. Where it's still being read.
If I can reach into that window—not to block the spell, not to outrun it, but to physically interrupt the definition of it before the world finishes agreeing to it—
From my fingertips, faint strings of mana begin to form. The moment they do, I expand them and connect them to Onyx's sphere.
It looks like a ball of yarn that's lost some of its yarn.
Here goes nothing.
The strings begin to glow with a faint purple light, mana flowing down each one and into the half-defined sphere.
I close my fist and pull.
The sphere doesn't explode. It doesn't shatter, either.It dissipates.
Yes.
It worked. The strings weren't strong enough to break a finished spell, and they never could have been.
You can't unspeak a sentence that's already been said.
But you can absolutely corrupt one that's still being written.
But in that moment, Onyx doesn't stop, and before I know it, ten of those same spheres appear in the crimson sky—all at once, all already past the window I just learned to exploit, formed so fast there was never a sentence for me to interrupt in the first place.
They all expand and I'm back in the void in a heartbeat.
But I did manage to find a way to cancel his skill, so that's something. A small window. A narrow one. Apparently one he can just skip past entirely if he decides not to give me the half-second I need.
Still. It's the first time I've ever made one of his spells simply stop existing instead of finding a way around it.
Besides, I've also made some progress with Astra, so I guess it was somehow successful.
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[ Death Count: 364 ]
I sit in the void, and for once, I don't immediately start planning.
I just sit there.
My legs are crossed, my hands are in my lap, and for the first time in over sixty deaths, I let myself not think about timing windows or radii or which finger to put mana into next.
I just exist in the silence for a while.
Then the darkness ahead of me begins to distort.
I go still.
A figure slowly emerges from the void, the same way it did the very first time I stepped through that gate. Hair dark as midnight. Golden eyes glowing beneath messy strands. A black cloak draped over its shoulders like a living shadow.
The clone.
"…You."
It stops a few feet away from me.
It doesn't reach for its sword this time.
It just stands there, hands loose at its sides, watching me with my own eyes.
I don't move either.
Three hundred and sixty-four deaths, and I'd genuinely started to think it would never come back. In fact, I'd started to wonder what its purpose in this trial even was in the first place.
"Why now," I say, my voice rougher than I expect it to be. "Why come back now."
The clone tilts its head, slightly, the exact way I do when I'm about to say something I don't really want to say.
"How many times now."
I don't answer.
"Three hundred and sixty-three failures," it continues, "and you still haven't beaten him. Aren't you tired?"
It takes a slow step closer.
"Don't you just want to stop?"
I still don't answer. What is there to say against that.
The clone studies me for a moment, then something that isn't quite a smile crosses its face.
"If you want, I could beat him for you."
"…What."
My voice comes out softer than I mean it to.
"You've gotten further than the boy who walked in here three hundred and sixty-four deaths ago," it says. "I'll give you that much. You've made him repeat himself. Made him reach for things he doesn't usually need." A pause. "But further isn't the same as far enough. He still doesn't have to know you to kill you. You still have to remember everything just to almost survive him. That math doesn't close the way you want it to. Not yet. Maybe not for a long time."
"…So what. You came back just to tell me I'm wasting my time."
"I came back," it says, "to see if you'd let me carry this instead of you."
It unsheathes its sword, slow, deliberate, and points it at me—not as a threat, just as an offer with an edge on it.
"Abel MorningStar. I'll ask once. Shall I defeat your enemy for you?"
I don't answer right away.
I'll admit it, if only to myself. I'm tired. Tired of losing to one person, a god's lackey of all things. If it were a a commander of one of them. maybe the losing wouldn't sit so badly. But it's a lackey, and I still can't put him down.
I was the strongest of all twelve once. And I still ended up killed by people I considered beneath me.
History apparently likes repeating itself.
"You're me," I finally say. "Aren't you. A version of me that's already further along than this."
The clone's expression doesn't change.
"What of it."
"Then it just means it'll take time," I say. "But I'll get there. I'll become you."
The clone tilts its head again.
"Maybe," it says. "Or maybe you're just telling yourself a story so you don't have to take my offer."
"Maybe," I agree. "But it's my story. I'd rather earn the ending than borrow it from you."
Something flickers across its face—frustration, maybe, or something close enough to it that I can't tell the difference.
"You still can't beat him. Not like this."
"I know."
"Then why—"
"Because I wasn't asking to win today," I cut in. "I'm asking for one more chance to get closer than I was yesterday. That's all this has ever been. Three hundred and sixty-four chances to get a little less far from him than I started."
The clone goes quiet.
For a moment, the void feels heavier than it has all night—heavier than three hundred deaths' worth of silence, heavier than the number itself.
Then it sheathes its sword.
"Three hundred and sixty-four," it says. "If you die after this one, that's it. There won't be a next time."
It turns, the same unhurried motion as always, and starts walking back into the dark the way it came.
"I'm curious whether you'll make it out," it says, without turning around.
Then, just before the dark swallows it whole, it glances back, just once.
"Stay true to your word, Abel."
Then it's gone, and the void is just the void again.
I sit there for a long moment, alone with the number, and the silence, and the quiet, stubborn certainty that I don't have anything left to do but stand back up.