I tossed and turned on the bed.I need to get some sleep. Why does Kendrick have that effect on me anytime we're close,and now I can't sleep.
It was past two in the morning and I was still not asleep,maybe some beer will do?
I walked down the stairs into the kitchen,the night was cold and very silent,you could hear footsteps from a mile away.
Opening the fridge and much to my disappointment,there was no beer in sight, only Coke and Pepsi. Seriously I didn't know he drinks those. What I wanted was beer, sighing,I took about four of each and left for the bedroom.
Sometimes,I sit on the floor,drink and stare into oblivion one sip after a few seconds,just enjoying the moment.
I started with Pepsi,good thing it was chilling my teeth. My life has been a mess since day one,no doubt. No hobbies,no nothing. Just me trying to pay for rent and eat at least twice a day and now Kendrick fell into my meaningless life and started changing things.
But I know my place, I'll be out here sooner or later,once I pay off that 1 million. I don't have to make things as complicated as it is with him. I didn't know what came over me before that kiss,but all I know is I have to stop it.
After I was drunk on coke, and it was half past three,I decided if I'm not feeling sleepy, I should get my hands busy and my head filled. It feels too lonely without anyone.
I'm gonna clean everything in this house spotless clean,then I'll cook breakfast and give Dave some and maybe,just maybe put some down for him.
By six,the house was sparkling,things were reorganized and smelled of the fragrance in the soap.
I opened the curtains to let sunlight in and opened the front door. This house needs actual light,not depending on electricity all the time.
I settled for cooking pancakes and squeezing juice out of a few oranges,there was no milk,no nothing.
I remind myself I'll ask him to go grocery shopping. Hot pancakes and orange juice. Smells nice! My phone was lying aimlessly on the table,I mean it's old and all I use it for is for YouTube,MSA and animation movies and anime sometimes.
Just so you don't know I'm Billie Eilish's number 1 fan .
Dave lives in the servant quarters outside of the mansion.
"Dave! Dave, where are you ?! Dave you at home?!",I knocked on the door, the door was slightly ajar,so I entered. Clothes scattered on the floor. I walked down the corridor into a room,once again the door was open and when I stepped inside I instantly regretted Dave and a woman of his age but younger soundly asleep in each other's arms.
Dave had a girlfriend?! Or was it just some quick thingy. I placed down the tray of pancakes and orange juice and tiptoed outside. I don't know how relationships work , I've never been in one too.
"Hello...",I said over the phone. I had called Kendrick.
"Hello",his voice sounded sleepy at the other end.
"How are you?",I said.
"What is it? Do you need something?",he asked.
"No,I just .... I cooked breakfast,I was hoping you'd like some",I said . He kept quiet so I continued nervously."Pancakes and orange juice"
"I'm not hungry",he said.
"But.... You told me cooking is part of my stay here",I said. He was a jerk. Does he think he's too good to eat my food?!
"Then don't cook again",he said. "If that's all, bye",he spoke and hung up.
Rude. Asshole . Jerk.
I'll eat the rest as lunch. If he says I shouldn't cook again,what am I supposed to eat? And I'm positive if I ask him for food he'll add it to my debt.
Not much food was left in the house. I have to find side jobs again. Maybe a waitress? Maybe a writer? Writer of what? I don't even have a laptop.
God,why did you make me into this life when you know I'm going to be broke forever?
Gosh, all I want to do is rest. What pained me the most was that after we kissed yesterday he behaved as if it never happened.