Kale's POV
My head was banging on the wall, I do not understand how it was happening but it was banging on the wall while I was lying down, I couldn't see clearly, my vision was fuzzy, too blurry to make out the room or who was in it.
But I could make out the pain, the discomfort, my whole body hurts, my back was the worst it felt like it would break any minute from now, I feel like a guy is above me but I'm not sure, I felt too hot to understand the situation at hand.
I didn't know what was happening but I wanted relief from all of this, the person on top of me seem to be providing the relief but I was too uncomfortable to even feel relief, I don't know what was happening I just wanted everything to stop but I couldn't move, I felt like my whole body was chained to that bed .
I started struggling or maybe I wasn't actually struggling, I was just struggling in my mind, my physical body weighed too much, It couldn't do anything but receive what was melted out to it.
Pain, my whole body was consumed by it, I couldn't breathe, but I couldn't stop either, my whole body was throbbing with excruciating pain when I seem to have woken up, the vision was not blurry, I could see clearly but I couldn't stand up and a young woman came to stand over me smiling.
Her lips were red and glossy and her hands moved to my face, I wanted to inch backwards away from her but I couldn't, I was incapacitated at this moment, so she touched my face and muttered
" Aww baby boy, you still need your aftercare, otherwise you won't be able to walk later on, I don't know why he left you like this, but not to worry, I like you way too much to leave you like this too, I'll take care of you and take away all the pain".
I don't understand what she is doing or saying and I wanted none of it or her hands anywhere around my body but she did promise to make the pain go away so I nodded and her smile widened.
I just wanted this to be all over whatever it is, I want to not be in so much pain, I want to be able to breathe well againwithout suffocating, I wanted these people to stop touching me but I was stuck to deep in the tunnel and no light was coming forth from anywhere, no matter how much I crawled in that tunnel.
I woke up with beads of sweat on my forehead, I looked around and was met by the familiar black and white hue of my room walls in my apartment and I couldn't be more relieved.
'I am in my room and I'm fine', I said with my eyes closed as I try not to go through the details of that horrific dream, at this point I don't even know whether they're are dreams or just my lost memories, I couldn't tell which is real and not real but everything felt real, it was as if I wasn't even dreaming, it was as if I was watching the life of another person as he goes through hell, only that the 'another' person is me and I can't even begin to comprehend it.
It did not make sense, none of what I keep seeing does, it comes and goes, and sometimes I wake up with bits and pieces of visuals that cannot even be realistic.
Maybe it's just a figment of my imagination or I'm just overthinking things, but how can I? the pain in those dreams could not have been imagined, the dull ache I feel in my chest right now is realer than anything could be, and not to mention the crawling and disgusting feeling that usually comes after I have this kind of dream is back with it's full claws again and without even thinking about it, I'm already on my feet and rushing to the bathroom.
Jesus lord help me, I don't know what this is and I certainly can't do it alone.
I came out of the shower feeling better than I did before I went in, the headache has stopped and my chest feels a bit relieved. I am very thankful for that.
I changed into sweat pants and went downstairs to get a coffee. It's already late in the morning and today is actually Monday but since there is a public holiday, we are not going to school today as well.
I was thankful for that too, I wasn't in the right frame of mind to go to school today, I would rather stay in the study room all day, reading the bible, I needed to talk to God anyway and that's my plan today.
It was cloudy outside, very cloudy, threatening to start pouring even, one can easily be deceived by a weather like this, it looks as if it's just six in the morning but it's past eleven. I wasn't complaining though, I liked the weather like this.
I got to the kitchen, I wasn't particularly hungry so in a few minutes, I made my coffee and was about to leave for my study when my phone that had been vibrating on the counter got my attention, it was on silent, so I didn't ring out.
It has stopped vibrating and I looked to see it's a missed call from Elijah...
Why is he calling me now?
It was followed by a quick and angry text with most of the key letters missing but I still figured out what he was trying to say and that did not settle.
He's coming here, since I don't want to pick up and he's coming with guests.
That can't be true, he knows I don't let people in my house, except for him and when Olivia came back, he wouldn't be right??
I'm going to kill him if he tries something like that, or why am I even worried, I'll simply not let them in.
And seconds after my thought process accepted the best method to send them away, I heard a knock on my door.
'Or maybe I should just ignore them' I stopped for a second to consider the idea but decided against it, their knock will just irritate me to no end, so I stood up and opened the door, ready to ask whoever it is on the other side to go away in the most polite away I can do it.
And I opened the door and I was surprised to see Amory in all her glory standing before me with a tiny smile
" Hi kale" she said, I was still trying to answer when Elijah emerged from behind her with a mischievous grin
" I came with someone you can't politely send away" he said, using his hands to demonstrate ' politely' in quote, it was easy to ignore him and let him inside the house because I have to reply to Amory and now that she is in front of me, she now has my attention wholly.
" I wasn't expecting you" I said still not moving from the door, kale you should probably do that ...
" So, you're not gonna let me in?" She asked me cocking her eyebrows at me and I chuckled lowly at that and moved aside, giving her space to get into the house.
I breathed in her swift scent that accosted me the moment she moved past me and I closed my eyes and held onto the door frame for support, yeah I needed a second.
I didn't realize how much I missed her till she is in front of me and right now in my apartment, now I know I still have to come to terms with that fact that she is here in my space, so yeah I held unto the door and breathed in, beginning to do my breathing exercise and was almost back to normal when I heard her call my name from the kitchen...
And then I'm distraught again, my heart rate spiking up without warning, who was I kidding anyway, breathing exercise does not work in calming me when it comes to Amory, it never does, matter of facts, nothing I have been doing all my life to bring myself to serenity works around her.
It's either I just watch her and throw myself into a state of burning collusion of grey yearning or I take a step out of my comfort zone and seek her out then find a calm again.
I don't think I have dated before, at least none that I still have memory of, it never bothered me though, I just never really cared about it at all.
But now I did and I wanted to date Amory and I want her to be my girlfriend, even testing the word in my mouth it sounded foreign.
I'm getting so used to her, the morning texts that she sends every morning, which I have unknowingly come to look forward to, the late night random text, her subtle touch when we remotely come close that always works very well to leave me in a state I would rather not describe, needles to say I wanted every part of it.
Want.
It was already crossing that margin, now not merely a want anymore, my soul demands it.
" Kale can you come and show me your room, this place looks big and too intact that I'm afraid to touch anything"
I walked over to her as she stood at the island in the kitchen, looking around her, her eyes greedily taking note of everything around her.
" Is there something you will like to see" I asked
She looked at me for a while before coming out of island and coming to stand in front of me
" Yeah, I want to see your bedroom" she said looking at me
" Okay" I said before taking her hand gingerly and leading her upstairs, I have waited to do that for a while.
Hold her hand.
I opened the door to my bedroom and we walked in together
" Wow, are you sure you slept here last night??" She asked, sounding amused, I nodded and she bit her lips.
Okay I'm in trouble.
" This is a bit... Okay I knew you would kind of be a neat freak or something like that, but I didn't expect it to be this arranged, it's like no one lives here nothing is out of place" she said almost exclaiming.
I could not decipher what she was thinking, and I was getting worried
" You don't like it" I said, my voice lower than I intended
" No it's not that, I'm just really surprised and actually impressed"
" Impressed??" I asked
" Yeah, I mean most boys are basically pigs and don't really care about basic hygiene at all and here you are, cleaner that a girl that is a neat freak, it's something that makes me proud of you "
Compliments always make me uncomfortable but this one from her just makes me want to tell her to repeat what she said.
" Your bedroom is quite big, are there more things to see here?" she asked me before she proceeded to walk around the room and behind the black couch.
I debated whether showing her my study room, wondering if she would like it
" I have a study, come this way let me show you" I said as she gingerly followed me to my study. The room wasn't separate from my bedroom but a bit different from where I sleep, it was separated with a curtain that looks like a wallpaper that blended with the house and looked like the wall itself, I separated it and we walked in
It was dark, it wasn't actually dark, it was the atmosphere that was created around the room that made it look like that.
The light was not bright neither was it white light, rather it had a grey color and the room was coloured grey too.
I watched her look around the room in awe, her hands skimming through the books on the shelf, and everything that was within her reach.
I watched as she touched each book and asked their name and if I have already read it.
Right now Amory was a bubble of joy, it radiated through her as she walked around the room that wasn't exactly small and I couldn't blame her, I have quite a collection of interesting things.
I was becoming upset at the so much interest directed at the objects she can find, I mean I have been sitting here since
" Hey Kale, tell me something smart or something you read from a book, " she said, turning to face me.
" Come here Amory" I said, motioning to her to come close to me, and she did, coming to stand in front of me, closer than I intended, she was standing in between my legs.
Which is very very not a good idea.
I didn't think too much, just said the first that came to my mind
" Love needs solitude too, it needs rest for it to journey through the heavens and reveal parts of it unknown and untold"
And without warning she bit her lips, while still staring at me while standing between my open legs.
I wouldn't say I preplanned it or knew what I was going to do prior to it but I did what I wanted and she was right in front of me.
Both of my hands held her neck as I pulled her close, closer if need be and kissed her for all she's worth, wrapping my arms around her I pulled her even closer, even though there wasn't a space between us again, my whole body was on fire and I was losing control quite fast.
Damnation... This girl will be the death of me.
I pulled away with great difficulty and put my face on her neck while breathing out in rapid pants.
" Will you be my girlfriend Amory".