What is life? What is death?
What's the point of all of this?
This is what I'm thinking as I lay on the bed staring up at the roof thinking. Thinking. Thinking. Ahhhhh this is exhausting. Anyways lemme introduce myself I'm Lena from senior year in high school...uh yikes I'm supposed to say from where I'm right? Yeah so I'm from Japan and just a girl with no friends but herself.
It's not that I'm shy to make friends but it's just exhausting. This feeling of instant connection that you get at first and then later it gets shallow. Most of it hurts to see the ones who you thought would stay forever starts disrespecting you and yeah all those bunch of collection of nonsense. Now why I'm thinking of life and death at the dead of night? Beats me. Maybe I'm just thinking on what to do and yes I do feel lonely at times but I think I prefer to be alone rather than feeling lonely in a group. Really after all the disappointments I think I'm in my haven. Uh look at me rambling with no go haha ignore this.
So this is about my boring life. A life where I have no idea what I want to do, a life where I feel that no one will be able to understand me, and even in all this negativity that I've been showing off, a small part of me hopes to find the happiness within me that all these philoshers talk about. Maybe I've met my calling. Who knows what journey I'll go through.