What are you trying to say, Yuan? I asked.
I am just trying to say in simple words that if I bleed, you bleed, or vice versa, he said while giving me a very serious expression on his face.
Do things like that really exist in today's world still? I asked while getting a little curious on this topic, cause this sounds something really very magical, or I can just say like a fairytale that always says those who are in love will definitely find their way to each other by fighting against all odds in this world despite differences and distances among them, but it's just a saying of a fairytale not a real life, I said to myself and then washed off this thought from my mind, and then I held his hand on which he also got injured on the thumb.
How did you get this? I asked.
I got a cut from my blade, he said.
Maybe it's just a coincidence, Yuan, maybe it's really not like the way you said it, I said.
Maybe there is a possibility of that, but what if it really is? he said.
Does that make any difference in our lives? I asked.
No, it's probably not, but at least we get that it's a sign of our fate that we have fated hearts to each other. You have a fated heart with me and I have a fated heart with you. Doesn't it sound so fated? he asked me with his most sparkling eyes.
The spark in his eyes is unavoidable, and I loved it whenever his eyes sparkled like this, and today the reason for this sparkling in his eyes is us. I really don't wanna ruin this, but I couldn't help it as I needed to say it to him.
Yuan, I said in my soft voice, that voice a person uses to console the other person, and I continued that you and I are never meant to be together, Yuan. Just make this very clear in our minds. We have different paths, we have different lives that were never gonna collide, but I really don't know, I really don't, how we caused the destruction in our fates, in our destinies, which never had written us for each other.
My voice shook as I was saying very difficult words that I really didn't want to say, but still I had to.
Yuan, this is the destruction of this world, of the whole universe, of the whole China, that we got together and this destruction must be stopped. I don't know when someone will come and stop this destruction, I really don't, I said while saying this the tears started forming in my eyes, but before they could fall down from my eyes he put his hand on my face and the very first droplet of my tears fell on his hand and then he looked at me with eyes that I know were holding so much to say to me, but how much he was gonna say to me I really don't have any idea about it.
You silly girl, why do you always think like this about us? Am I some alien or am I living on Jupiter and you are living on Mars that you can't reach me? We both are living on the same earth, we both share the same sky, same ground, we both breathe in the same air that flows on the same earth, we both are living in the same time, in the same century, then why do your words and thoughts always seem like that? he asked.
I exhaled slowly cause now I was not feeling good as thinking about staying away from him and never being able to reach him is the scariest thing for me in this world, I said.
Even after having the same similarities that you have said, we still weren't able to be together ever, I said.
He cupped my face with both of his hands and said why are you so pessimistic about us?
Do I look like a dream to you? he asked.
I looked into his eyes where I lost my whole world and just nodded my head.
He looked at me carrying so much love for me in him and while wiping up the tears on my face he said, I don't know whether what you say is right or wrong, but the thing that matters to me the most at this time is that if I am really a dream of yours, then tell that dream that it should never let you wake up from it. Tell that dream of yours that you wanna spend your whole life in it and never go back to your real world, he said.
Let it be the destruction in the world. If getting together really means the destruction of this whole world, then let it be, just let it be. If this dream gives you happiness, the most wonderful thing in this world, then what's wrong in staying here? he asked me, but I didn't have any answer to this question of his right now so I just smiled and said, Yuan, when I'll get the answer for it I'll definitely tell you, I said.
He smiled and looked at me and said, I'll wait for that day when you'll be ready with the answer. Till then just live in your dream until you wake up, he said.
But Zhao Shiza, whatever you said just now really sounds so childish, he said with a mischievous smile on his face.
I hit his arm and said, Yuan do I really sound that foolish to you?
No, of course not, you are just Xu Yuan's amazing foolish girl, he said.
Yuan, you are really something, I said.
Something, something and everything about you only, my silly girl, he said.
From teasing me a second before you just switched it into a romantic scene, no doubt you are China's number one actor, I said.
He looked at me and raised his eyebrows and said, but why are you sounding so proud while saying it?
Of course I am. My Yuan Yuan's every achievement and success makes me proud like I have done such an amazing thing in my life, I said.
You came to your internship office from your university, but still you behave like one of those kindergarten kiddos who lose their way to home, he said.
So give directions to that so called kindergarten kiddo, I said.
I won't cause I want this kiddo to lose her way and all her ways should only lead to me, he said in my ears while bending a little, and when he said this I touched both my cheeks with both my hands and they were really warm.
He noticed that too and while giving his smile with a smirk he said, you look too cute while blushing like this.
Yuan, I said stop teasing me.
I am not, I am just making my little bunny rabbit blush, which makes her even more cuter, he said.
Yuan, you have given me so many names, I really never got this many names of me, I said.
I didn't name you so many things, it's just that you have so many variations of personality in yourself that I have never seen in my whole life, so I am just pointing out your different personalities that live inside you that I never imagined I would ever be able to see in one single person, but I must say you are indeed a masterpiece made for me to cause destruction in the whole world as the way you say, he said while teasing me.
Then I replied to him that and that masterpiece has successfully reached its master.
Who's that master? he asked me while getting a little bit confused.
Then I hugged him suddenly and said the one I am hugging is the master for that masterpiece, I said.
He hugged me back and while tapping on my forehead he said, you silly girl you never leave a chance to make me feel loved.
Never, I replied, and this is how we got lost in each other like always for the mission to cause the destruction in this world...