I woke up in a hospital room. Last thing I remember was a bus driving towards me, but something's missing, yes, I remember now, i was in another world, i even had a family, a loving family and friends, but now, i wake up in a hospital, but not only that, i also now am a girl.
Two weeks has passed and i had to learn the language again, at least how to speak it, as apparently was in a coma for two months and had brain surgery and transfer of consciousness into a victim of an assault. Apparently all that otherworld that i lived was a story my brain used to keep me alive.
My parents have gone bankrupt with the hospital bill and now my guardian is a staff member.
I'll go to school in a few days, yet i haven't even got use to feeling the same shame as women do, even with all of those tests and lessions. I would have turned 17 that summer, but now i have to retake 10th grade again, well not that i went there for more than 2 months...but still, new school, new mom figure, new body...
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"My name is Fiona. I repeat the grade due to health related issues. Thanks for having me"
"My name is-..."
Break, the first break we get. A girl...no, a boy, i think his name's Leo... Leo?... probably not. He comes to my desk and speaks first.
"Hey, so you're repeating?"
"Yes...i had some problems that held me back, but now I'm going to school again starting today"
"Cool, your name, you said it's Fiona right?"
'bad, bad. Why did you had to remember my name? Now i got no excuse for not paying attention to yours'
"Yes, and you're L-leo right?"
"Pfft... There's no one in class called Leo. I'm Lu, just Lu"
"A-ahah, sorry."
"No problems, it's the first day anyways, we'll have time to learn each other's name anyway"
"Lu...is it Korean?"
"It was actually something my dad came up when he named me"
"I see"
"Mhm. What kind of hobbies do you have?"
"Me? Well, i watch anime read a bit of manga"
"Really? What's your favorite?"
"Chainsaw..."
"That's nice! It's a good one, especially the ending"
"Ending... let's not talk about the ending"
"Haha, that's true"
"Since you said it's nice that means you saw it too, then whose your favorite character?"
"The tomato"
"Tomato?"
"Yea the tomato"
"I-i see..."
"What about you?"
"U-uh, probably the gravity lady"
"Ooo~ that's very nice!"
"Mhm... What about you, what kind of hobbies do you have?"
"Me...well it's a bit embarrassing to say out loud" he rubbed the back of his head
"Don't worry, I'm a little tomboyish, so if i had to choose between robots or makeup, I'd choose the ladder"
"Okay then... it's making plane models out of clay" he was a bit more tense, like preparing to get shut down
"That's so cool! Like figurines?" I leaned in, paying attention to his expression more than the world around us.
"Huh? Y-yea, something like that. I guess that ain't normal for a girl to do-"
"That's so cool! do you have any photos?"
"Huh? Yea, here-..."
A few days later, i had dreamed of him.
'...holy-' I got up, panting and sweaty, i knew what this was, it was the second time I've dreamed about someone like that, it was clear.
As days passed, i stood closer to him, sat next to him in breaks and even spoke about him to my guardian, day and night, then one night, we were talking once again, but it happened.
"what are you saying, spiders are cuter than bats" good thing he was a weirdo too, otherwise he would have hated that take
"fine, we'll leave it at that, but i'll change your mind"
"at school? we'll forget about it by monday" 'please get it, get it, please, go according to my plan'
"that's true" 'f-...no, i'm not done yet' i bit my lip and felt the blood go up to my brain, large amounts.
"that'd be boring, don't you think?"
"whatchu mean?"
"i mean, if we forget, wouldn't it be easier to make plans on a day where we wouldn't forget, like tomorrow? since it's weekend and all that"
"...alright, but where do we meet and where we are going?"
"what about the arcade? since we both like games and i've never been to one, i'd be nice to go together"
"then we'll meet at the station?"
"sure. Make sure you come" ...it's on, a date! a date! a weekend date! I roll in the bed, kicking my feet and strangling the pillow with my legs.
At the arcade, he took me first to the racing games, he won, well, i always lose when it comes to competing games, so i guess i'm used by now, but at the solo games, i beat his score, then two hours pass.
"i'll go to the bathroom for a bit"
"Alright" i wait for him 1 minute, then two, then i go to the bathroom too, just to wash my hands and make sure i don't look weird. I get in front of the mirror, wash my hands, then look at my hair, adjusting, when i hear the stall door behind me creaking and in the mirror i see Lu, just barely before he closes the door. I instantly panic, not because he was in the women bathroom, but because he saw me adjust my hair. I walk to the stall door, barely stopping myself from stomping, then i stop in front of it. I look at the other stalls, no one else in the bathroom, then i speak up.
"Lu?"
"No?...yes...?"
"What are you doing in here?"
"I don't understand what you mean"
"Don't play dumb, what are you doing in the women's bathroom. Speak up so i know how hard i should kick you"
"..."
"Then i guess I'll report you then"
"W-wait" he cracked the door and took his head out "mind coming in?"
'i-in?! Like in the bathroom with him?!' "okay..." With that, the takes a few steps back and i enter.
"So... I'll cut the chase. I've been meaning to correct you for a while, but i didn't get the chance." He took a deep breath "i, am a girl" he...she bowed like she was apologizing for something. I was frozen for a few seconds, then it hit me 'if he's a she, does that mean I'm not straight or bi, I'm lesbi or straight!'...
"Proof? How could you provide proof"
"It's a bit embarrassing" she took my hand, then i felt something like a sponge, without a doubt, she's a girl.
"W-you could have showed me your ID or something!" I back up flustered. Then she follows after me, her head completely red.
"Yeah, i forgot about that, haha"
"Are you too much of a kluz?"
"Hahaha. Alright then, should we leave before someone thinks we are fighting" with that, we continued our arcade date.
That night, i had a dream related to my other world life, about my family. At first when i heard it was all fake, i couldn't believe it and now, i realized I'm pathetic enough to imagine a whole life with someone overnight. I stood front of the mirror, looking at my face while leaning on the sink.
"You're so low that you needed a whole new body to make one school friend. You're such a loser that you fantasized an isekai, how pathetic can you be? Looking at me, i can see why my parents sold me to the hospital after going bankrupt, i would've been useless for making money anyways now that they check IDs to make sure you're over 18. You've got no purpose in life, what? Believing you would live a loving life? Don't screw with me, it's already knows that you only got one friend and after highschool, you'll be nothing. You shouldn't have woken up at all after that."
The next morning, i go to school again. After school i go on a self declared date with Lu and repeat, for two weeks, until we are at an arcade again.
"Left! Left!"
"Uuuughhh! Aaaa- i can't control, can't control!"
"Why did you die? Now it's me versus three!"
"Sorry!" I looked at her screen. Of course, she was good, way better than me and she won.
"Aaah-. I'm tired. I'll go buy a drink" she looked at me
"Mhm, a-! I don't need anything"
"Alright" she got up and turned around. I couldn't contain myself anymore, i was sparkling and giggling, mind you she didn't even took three steps
"She's so cuteee-!" It escaped me. I looked up and realized she turned back towards me and i died a little inside.
"A-ah. You think I'm cute?" She pointed a finger at herself. In that moment, i could feel the blood rushing to my head, my organs going wild and eyes stopping to focus.
"You're cute, but this isn't a confession or anything, it's a fact and i-"
"You... like me?" My whole protection bubble popped. I could feel the blood going slower. I nod and look down at my hands on my lap, they started to clench.
"Why?" 'why?' a million thoughts passed my mind, but none stuck.
"Why? Because i do?"
"Why?"
"Hold on, what do you mean why?"
"Why do you like me?"
"Why? I mean... you're...you..." 'now i understand the "the worst thing she can say isn't no" jokes online. If i was fully sure this would happen, i would've been more mindful'. My eyes can't hold on. If i was just directly rejected, but now i have to find a reason for it? It's too cruel
"You didn't answer"
"Just because... there's no reason for me liking you that way"
"...no, tell me. Why do you like me?"
"Why? I told you" she's too cruel, I'll cry.
"Just because isn't a reason"
"What am i supposed to say? If i mess this-...i don't want to lose our friendship over this" my skirt, it's now wet, my eyes, the staff will get worried. I can't go back like this.
"It's too late for excuses"
"I-...hic don't know what hic to answer.... I don't know hic the good answer"
"It must be nice, liking someone without a reason"
"What am i supposed to say? That you never leave my mind? That i can't stop dreaming about you? That i can't take my eyes off you? I can't, I'm a coward, a loser, i can't say something like that"
"You could have said that. Why did you wait to tell me that now? You could've said that at the start and be done"
"I couldn't. I don't want to lose a friend over something like this."
"Don't give me that crap! You just confessed and said you don't want to lose a friend over it? Am i a joke to you?" I could hear her voice trembling by the end, she probably lost her anger. I look up at her
"Would have i thought of you as a joke if i were to hang out with you?! Don't you dare think so low of yourself! You're way cooler, way smarter and way more sociable than me, I'm blessed just talking to you!"
"Then let's redo it, the confession" 'huh? To redo it?' it took me off guard, i hesitated, then hope crashed into me like a truck (kun).
"L-Lu, i like you, w-will you be...my girl... friend?"
"Stupid, Idiot, sack of potatoes. You just had to say it that way from the start"
Next day, i arrived at the gates before her and waited, grinning at a photo of us at that arcade. "I look like a disaster. I can't believe i cried there, such a loser"
"You should have waited inside" i flinched then looked at her
"If i did, i would've lost my early morning Lunium"
"Don't mess with my name" she was looking at me, i was looking at her hand
"Hey, since were...a couple. Should we like, be public, at school i mean"
"You want to brag about me to the school?"
"...yes"
"Hmm...fine then" she held her hand out and i took it, my first real life girlfriend.