17. "SAVE ME FROM"
I've been hurt in the past, I'm still trying to deal with that pain, the same pain that created scars that bleed sometimes, the same pain that gave me all of the demons that circle around my soul from time to time. I never thought I would be my own enemy but I am, my own thoughts turn into the thing that control my mood and then the next thing, I feel like shutting down.
So many shit going on in my head, one minute I'm cool and then the next minute, I'm all in my head, asking myself a million questions. It seems like nothing works anymore, all of my efforts go into thin air, all of my days and nights are lonely, like I'm a lost man in a foreign place.
I would give anything just to erase my history, I need to be freed from the past so that I can live my life, but until then, I'm just a lost soul in a body that has no direction.
I've got demons to be saved from, troubles to be freed from and a past that I need help to erase.
18. "MISUNDERSTOOD"
I wear my clothes well, I make sure that I leave the house smelling good, I walk with my best foot forward, I stay out of trouble, I make it in time for my dues and I keep my head right, but why does it seem like I'm always misunderstood?
All I'm pushing for is a better life, in the meanwhile I'd love to have somebody as an escape whenever things feel like they coming down on me, somebody to talk to and somebody to love me. I can't do this all by myself, nobody is meant to be alone.
These girls just want my sex, they care nothing about love and the truth, they just wanna hang around for a good fucking time and then they move onto the next.
That's not the type of life I wanna live anymore, so I'm coming to them with an intention to love but it seems like again, I'm misunderstood.
I just want security, we can get to know each other and take things slow but I need to know if she's with me. My heart has been yearning some kinda connection and affection, that's why I'm pushing hard for an understanding of my intentions.