Part 1: What i've been doing for the past six years.
My father killed himself, but i don't really care.
I hated him.
The things my mom told me about him, the things the others told me...
The things they said he did to them...
And he killed them all.
When a god of gods dies, their powers get transferred to the strongest living divinity in Ohotu.
When he died, he told me to search for the place he died.
At the time, i didn't know what that meant.
Now, i'm 16.
I've finally realized it.
He left me something.
So, doing what he told me, i fly up from the restored Orb of the Gods.
I fly all around reality, looking in different places and different people.
I can't find anything.
I sigh, and i give up, and i say to myself. "Really, father? If you're going to tell me to go where you died then atleast die somewhere easier to find, you motherfucker."
After that, i fly up, look around one more time before i give up and go home.
My name is Kurema Anara, and i am the second God of Gods.
Its currently Nalne, week 8293 of Sevenidence in the 6th year of the Age of the Second, and the 156th year of existence.
I've decided the kind of king i want to be when i feel ready.
I want to be a ruler.
Not a tyrant, or a dictator, but a leader.
A man worthy of being followed, worthy of his throne, worthy of his people.
The divinities are currently extinct, except for one that i know of.
Meile, the girl i somehow made the day i turned 2 years old.
I don't remember how i did it, but i know where she is, and i know she's safe.
I should go find her.
It's been about 7 years since i last talked to her after all.
Part 2: The Search.
It's been about a year since i started my search for Meile.
I've just arrived at the planet furthest out from the Trans-Infinity.
There's a society here, but they're not very technologically developed compared to others.
They're in the age of stone castles, iron weaponry like blades and bows.
Every society that comes to this point has followed the same path, but from here it splits off.
They all either go extinct, stay like this forever, or they develop more.
The highest chance is for them to go extinct, at about a 91.4% chance.
Them staying like this is the lowest chance, at about a 3.3% chance.
And them developing further sits at about a 5.3% chance.
Uh, i'm getting sidetracked.
Anyways!
I found her!
She's living in a small farming village near a lake surrounded by mountains on this planet.
There's multiple of them, but the village she lives in is highly developed compared to the rest, despite being so small and having so little villagers.
I fly over to the town, and i made sure to pretend i'm a traveling merchant when i go in to hide the existence of divinities.
After that, i start looking around, asking for her.
"She owns the fish store near the lake." A villager told me, and so i go there.
I walk in, and i see her, and i freeze.
The things i feel seeing her, the things going through my mind, the sudden pressure.
I can't describe it.
She's gotten so beautiful.
So beautifull i'm suddenly extremely nervous.
What do i even do about this..?
Great question, me, i have no idea either.
I'm the second god of gods, the second king of kings, the second ruler of reality, and i'm too nervous to simply approach a girl that i created.
How embarrassing.
I chuckle to myself because i'm amused by myself, but she notices me.
As soon as she notices me, she looks at me, and she asks. "Hey you... Are you... You know?"
"Who?"
"Dude."
"Oh, right! My bad."
"Idiot."
"Sorry....."
"Its fine."
I sigh, and she does too.
"Anyways, are you the new... you know?"
"Yes."
"I see."
I walk over to her, looking around and i ask. "Mind if we go somewhere private to talk?"
My heart is beating in my chest for some reason, and thats when it clicks.
Meile is the goddess of love.
Part 3: Pantheon.
Meile's POV
Its a normal day today.
I just woke up from my nap.
I like taking naps, because i love to sleep.
I love sleeping because i love to dream.
I don't have to sleep, nor eat, nor drink.
I'm a divinity after all.
But i like it.
I get up, rub my eyes, walk over to the bucket of water i have for drinking and cleaning and i quickly clean my face.
After i do that, i walk outside, and i start walking to my store.
"Hey, Amanda!" I shout, waving at a friend of mine as i walk past her.
"Oh, hey Meile." She says with a small smile and she waves back.
I accidentally bump into a guy, and i stumble, and so does he.
I quickly look at him and see who he is, and i say. "My bad Eldur!"
"No problem." He says, and he moves on.
I arrive at my store, and i move behind the counter and i sit down.
My fisherman fishes at night, then my sorter sorts everything and puts it all in place, and i do the rest.
Its a fun, simple life that i enjoy.
Customers come and go as the day goes by, but then, when its almost time to close up, he walks in.
Kurema Anara.
I remember him.
He's the son of Hanten Shita Anara, the God of Gods, the king of the divinities.
Kurema is also a good friend that i have missed for a long time now.
He created me, and he respected me when he met me, and that's something i can never repay.
Kindness is the greatest gift a person can give.
I felt that his father died, though, so could it be that Kurema Anara is now the second God of Gods?
Unsure of it, i ask him. "Hey you... Are you... You know?"
"Who?"
"Dude."
"Oh, right! My bad."
"Idiot."
"Sorry....."
"Its fine."
He sighs, and i do too.
"Anyways, are you the new... you know?"
"Yes."
"I see."
He walks over to me, looking around and he asks. "Mind if we go somewhere private to talk?"
And i agree.
I take him to the back of the store, and i fly up to the moon of this planet, and he follows me.
Once we're there, i ask him straight up. "Your dad is dead, right?"
"..."
The silence confirms it.
"Why did you come here, Kurema?"
"I wanted to ask if you wanted to join my pantheon."
I stare at him for a moment, surprised he's asking me, but then i snort, giggle, and i start laughing.
"What's so funny?"
"You're seriously asking me of all people to join your pantheon?"
"You know i haven't grown up as a divinity in the slightest, right?"
"And also, you created me. You could just demand me to join and i would, so why would you ask?"
As i ask him all these questions, i'm still laughing, crying even.
But not him.
He simply opens his mouth, and he starts to speak.
Kurema's POV
I'm currently walking to the back of the store with Meile.
She agreed to talk in private, and i couldn't be happier.
I want her to join my pantheon.
She's an old friend, and my creation, after all.
Once outside, she flies up to the moon of the planet, and i follow after her.
Once there, she immediately asks me. "Your dad is dead, right?"
Caught off guard by the sudden question, my eyes widen and i go silent.
I see it all happen again.
I see him killing them.
I hear my mother telling me what he did.
I hear him tell me to find where he died to figure out the truth.
"..." I say nothing, and the silence is all the confirmation she needs.
"Why did you come here, Kurema?" She asks, smiling at me with a sympathetic look in her eyes.
That smile, that look, that genuine hint of empathy in her voice.
It confirms that i'm making the right decision.
She's still that same girl i befriended as a child.
"I wanted to ask if you wanted to join my pantheon." I ask with a nod, looking directly into her eyes as i speak.
She stares at me for a moment, looking surprised, but then she snorts, giggles, and she starts laughing.
In response to her laughing, i stare at her in surprise, and i ask her. "What's so funny?"
"You're seriously asking me of all people to join your pantheon?"
"You know i haven't grown up as a divinity in the slightest, right?"
"And also, you created me. You could just demand me to join and i would, so why would you ask?"
As she asks me all these questions, she's still laughing, crying even.
But not me.
I simply open my mouth, and i start to speak. "It doesn't matter."
"I'm asking you, because you're you. You're that same kind, genuine, beautiful girl i met 8 years ago."
"I'm asking you because i respect and love you, both as a friend, and as my first creation."
"You not growing up as a divinity doesn't matter at all."
"So, do you want to join me, or not?"
When i finish speaking, her laughing stops.
She wipes the tears out of her eyes, and she stares at me.
After a moment of processing my words, she simply smiles, walks over and gently punches my arm.
"What was that for?" I ask, a bit surprised, and in responce she says. "Idiot, of course i'll join you."
And that was how i met Meile once again.
Part 4: The Diary.
Its just a normal day today.
Its been about a year or so since Meile joined me.
She and i got into a relationship about half a year ago.
I've been happy, to say the least.
But today, i got an idea.
Today i decided to find the diary, and end whatever feelings i still have for my father.
Me and Meile both start flying around the Trans-Infinity, but its nowhere to be found.
We go to the heavens, the hells, and still nothing.
Thats when Meile gets an idea.
"What if we check the border of Ohotu?" She suddenly asks me.
"Thats... Not a bad idea, actually."
"I know, thats why i said it, dummy."
Right, i forgot to mention she loves teasing me about being smarter than me.
Even though we both know that, due to the fact i'm literally the god of gods, king of Ohotu, the one that possesses the Trans-Infinite arts, i am quite literally omniscient.
Yes, there are things i 'don't know', but those are things that i actually do know, but i don't have any access to that knowledge.
I know the information, i have the knowledge, but i physically cannot reach it until i interact with an object of said knowledge and/or information.
This is due to a curse placed on me by my mother a year before she got killed.
Any information related to powered divinities is locked away.
That includes the diary.
I know everything, about everything.
Time, space, existence, realities, dimensions, people, the future, the past, each grain of sand in existence in the past, future, present, alternate timelines and more.
I know everything about all of it.
Well, enough about my rambling about my omniscience, time to go.
Me and Meile fly up together, to the border, and we search all around it.
Meile finds nothing.
I don't either.
Atleast, thats what i think.
Just when i'm about to give up, i see it.
I shout for Meile to come to me, but she can't hear me.
I sigh, and i create a new technique called 'Mind Message', and i place it in the instincts of any future and present divinities.
After that, i send a mind message to Meile to come to me.
Less than a fraction of a second later she appears.
"Sorry for not hearing you, i was on the other side of Ohotu." She says.
"No need to apologize. I found it." I say, and i take the diary.
She puts the tip of her arm on the part of my arm beside my neck, and she softly smiles at me.
With that encouragement, i open the diary, and i read.
Its a bunch of nothingness at first.
Just him writing about how he spent his time whilst me and my mother were away.
But then it changes.
The day i came back.
An entry.
"Today, Beatha finally came home. I was so happy, i didn't notice it at first. Me and Beatha immediately went and greeted everybody, and they were all excited she was finally back.
After that, i spent hours with my son. After that, Beatha pulled me into bed and we simply laid there together, holding eachother. I missed her, and my son so, so much. Its been years since they left.
But it was necessary for my son.
He needed to see Ohotu, because he'll be inheriting it from me some day, if i happen to suffer a tragedy, or if i step down as the king. He'll be the king of this reality. I wonder how he'll do. I just left the mortals, and my divinities to roam free, have free will and live freely. But its up to him to decide what he shall do when it is his time to rule Ohotu.
After me and Beatha were done talking and holding eachother, we went and spent time with our friends. I didn't realize at first, because i was blinded by my happiness, but Beatha, Kurema and the others were acting weird. They're hiding something. I have this weird sense of finality, almost like something big is going to happen to me.
As i'm writing this, its a few minutes before the first Suruta of the 150th year.
A big moment.
I hope i get to see my creators again someday.
I miss them.
- Hanten Shita Anara, Y149M10W9.999.999D10."
I take a deep breath, calming my anger before flipping the page.
"Fuck.
Fuck fuck fuck.
They fucking...
I fucking....
I killed her.
I fucking killed her.
Why did she...
Why did they...
What did i do to them.
They fucking betrayed me.
The moment the clock turned, and it became Suruta, i wanted to grab my son, hug him, tell him how much i love him.
My little man.
My everything.
And he looked at me with such hatred in his eyes.
Then she...
Beatha... She...
Beatha fucking pushed me away from my son.
They all pushed me away.
Beatha, Eldur, Vai, Alivu, Ko, Krijim, Bletz, Jikan, Veritas, Asama, Fursina...
They all pushed.
They all took him from me.
"I... I never loved you... We never loved you. Hate. We've always hated you." she said.
I stayed silent.
My brain couldn't even begin to comprehend the emotions i was feeling.
They attacked me, and i ran.
I couldn't fight them.
But then, my rage took over.
I fucking killed her.
I killed my sister.
I killed Alivu.
I didn't mean to do it.
They attacked me, all of them.
I wanted to punch a fireball that was thrown at me, but she was there.
My arm went through her stomach.
She fucking thanked me for it.
She hugged me.
"Thank you... Thank you so much... I'm so sorry... My brother... My king..." Those were her last words to me.
It was almost like she didn't want to hurt me.
The blood.
The sound of her flesh.
I can't get it out of my head.
I can't unfeel her insides.
I can't get her blood off of my arms.
Please, someone.
Anyone.
Please help me.
Fuck...
- Hanten Shita Anara, Y150M1W1D1."
I stare at the page for a moment, unsure of how i'm supposed to feel about this.
I always wondered where Alivu went, and here it is.
He killed her.
I close the diary and i just hug Meile for a bit, and she hugs me back, and we stay like that for a long time without saying a word.
Eventually, i feel ready to continue.
To finish this.
I open the diary, and i flip to the next page.
Its just him rambling about how depressed he is.
The page after, something happens, so i read it.
"I just made a trip to the divine heaven today. I went to visit Alivu. She told me everything.
This started 10 years ago, right after Beatha left with Kurema. Beatha invited Alivu and the other 9 for a conversation. They all confessed they hate me. All but one. All but Alivu.
She never wanted to do this to me, but she was forced into it. If she didn't comply, they would've tortured her, they would've... I can't describe the things she told me, i'm sorry.
They started grooming my son, turning him against me by whispering things i supposedly did, and said about him into his ears.
He believed them, of course.
Because, after all, why would mommy lie, right?
Alivu apologized to me, over and over, and over, and over. I forgave her. Alivu told me some things she and the others did. Creations of divine bloodlines. Alivu created the Gyakusatsu, a bloodline created to protect, and be allies with the Anara bloodline. Eldur created a clone made out of fire to try and come back from death one day. Veritas created the Fulo bloodline, a bloodline created to oppose, and kill the Anara bloodline. Krijim created a divinity named Kamigami, created to one day end the Anara bloodline, if they fail to kill me. Kamigami was created with inverted morals. He thinks evil is good, and that good is evil. Murder, abuse, manipulation, rape, blackmail. He thinks of them as good. Its fucked up. After our conversation, i apologized, and i told her i'd be with her soon. She asked me what i meant by that, but i ignored it and flew away.
Son, if you ever read this.
I never did it.
I loved you.
I'm sorry.
- Hanten Shita Anara, Y150M1W1D3."
I close the diary, hand it to Meile and i turn away and i vomit, unable to process the emotions i'm feeling.
The betrayal, the anger, the sadness.
Realizing the truth.
I should be denying this, should be refusing to believe its the truth, but i know in my heart that if my mother was telling the truth then i would be dead.
And that knowledge is undeniable.
Meile moves over to me, and she simply tells me. "Come on. You're almost done. You can do it, i know you can."
I look at her, and i nod, and i take the diary.
There's only one more entry.
I take a deep breath, and, because i'm unable to think at the moment, i read it out loud.
"Here i am, at the end of my life. I never thought i'd be here, but here we are. Today, i killed them all. I was unable to hold myself back. I did manage to put a barrier around my son, to shield him from myself. I have no regrets anymore, and i've come to accept that this is it. This is the end. I'm going to Alivu, to forever be, in eternal happiness.
I have one last thing to say.
My son, if you are reading this.
I'm sorry it had to go like this.
You deserved better than what your mother forced me to give you, and for that, i'm truly sorry.
So, after today, live your life.
Be happy.
Do what you want.
Find that girl you created, Meile, or don't.
Surround yourself with mortals, or don't.
Rule, or don't.
Just be, and enjoy it all the way.
Everything will be okay as long as you enjoy yourself, and you can only do that if you don't have regrets, and don't dwell on the past.
Move on. Accept things as they are, live with them. Use those experiences and make the best of it.
I hope the best for you, your possible future family, and any descendants you might give me, and their families.
I love you.
I always have, and i always will.
Goodbye, my son.
Goodbye, my everything.
- Hanten Shita Anara, the day of my death."
I close the diary, handing it to Meile, and i sit down and stare outside the border, into the nothingness, into the lake of chaos.
I simply sit there, seeing Meile trying to talk to me, but i don't hear.
I don't feel.
I don't speak.
I don't smell.
I only see.
Without even realizing it, tears flow down my cheeks, and i can't stop them.
Meile gives up on trying to speak to me, and instead she simply sits behind me, and she pulls my head into her lap, and she strokes my head with a loving, sympathetic expression on her face.
I stare up at her, and i don't do a thing.
I simply stare, and she smiles and stares back.
And we stay like this for a while, me laying on the barrier on my back with my head in her lap whilst she strokes it, staring at eachother, me letting the tears flow, and her simply smiling and comforting me.
And eventually, i close my eyes, and i sleep, and i don't wake up until a few days later.
Part 5: Father.
A year has passed since i found out the truth.
I am 19 years old now, and Meile is 17.
Tomorrow is our birthday, and i can't wait.
For our birthday, i've planned a special celebration.
A trip together through all of reality.
We are going to go and see every single beauty of all of the worlds that all of the mortals across the Trans-Infinity hold dear.
Pyramids, towers, holes, forests, fields, mountains and more.
Its quite exciting.
But in the mean time, whilst waiting, i make my way to a small little grave-ish place for my father, where i buried his notebook.
I use it like its his grave.
I sit there, talk to him, bring him gifts like flowers and drinks.
Sometimes Meile comes with me, but she has no emotional attachment to him, so i always understand if she doesn't really feel like it.
Anyways, i arrive at his grave, and i sit down.
"Father. How have you been? I myself have been doing quite well. Tomorrow i'm going to take Meile to see the beauties of the Trans-Infinity for our birthday. Hope you're doing well, pa."
After i say my words to him, i get up, and i poor a bottle of milk over his gravestone, because he mentioned his favorite drink is milk in some of the random stuff he wrote in his diary.
I then put some flowers on the dirt.
I sigh, smile, and i turn around, raising my arm in a waving gesture, and i speak one last time.
"See ya, father."
Part 6: Birthday.
Me and Meile took a nap together, for fun, after my visit to father's grave.
I open my eyes, and realize its our birthday, so i happily get up, putting the tips of my arms on her chest to shake her awake.
"Hm..?" She asks, slowly opening her eyes, and she yawns.
"Wake up, i have a surprise for you."
"Huh? Why?"
"Its our birthday. You're 18 years old now, and i'm 20 years old now."
"Oh!" She says, and she sits up and fully wakes up.
"What are we going to do?"
"Well, like i just said, i have a surprise for you."
"Okay!" She says with a bright smile.
I don't think i'll see anything more beautiful than that smile today.
"Come with me." I say, and i turn and start to walk.
"Okay!" She says, and she gets up and follows after me excitedly.
A few moments later, we're both outside, and i grab her by the waist and we start flying.
I go as fast as i can, and she enjoys it.
We proceed to spend the entire day going to every single planet with mortals on it, and exploring the entire thing.
Eventually, once we're done and have seen absolutely everything the Trans-Infinity has to offer, i take her back.
Once we're back, she gives me the tightest hug i've ever had, and i smile.
"Did you enjoy yourself?"
"Of course! I loved it! Thank you so much!"
At her words i hug her back, and i chuckle.
"I have something for you too." She suddenly says, and she grabs me by the tip of my arm and she drags me inside.
Once inside, she drags me into our bedroom for some reason.
She proceeds to expose her genitals, and when i see them my eyes widen.
"Wha-" I start to say, but i get cut off when she puts a finger on my mouth.
"Shhh"
She pushes me onto the bed, crawls on top of me, and she kisses me.
"Happy birthday, my love." She says.
"Happy birthday, my everything." I respond.
After this, we have sex for the first time.
Once we're finished, she simply cuddles up to me, says that it felt great, and i agree, and we both go to sleep.
Part 7: Yewan.
Its been about 5 months since me and Meile had sex for the first time.
Turns out, she ended up getting pregnant.
When she told me, she was crying, but they were happy tears.
I also cried happy tears.
We're still too young for kids, but we're going to try and do our absolute best to raise the child.
Our child.
Our son.
Today she told me his shell, and his soul finished developing.
Its time for her to give birth.
I get myself ready, and i knock on her door.
"Meile, its me. Are you ready?"
"Yeah. Come in."
I open the door, and i walk in, and i close the door before walking over to her.
I sit down to her left, and i gently grab her left arm with my right arm, and i put my left arm against her left cheek, and i lean in and kiss her on the area between her eyes.
After that, i move my left arm away, hold it up and i cast a technique.
"Final Destination of Life: Soul Restoration"
This ability is the highest form of healing in existence.
It heals every single wound, ever, even scars and soul wounds.
"Go! Now!" I shout, because Soul Restoration only lasts 10 seconds.
If she wants to survive this, she has to rip our son out right now.
And she does exactly that.
She rips out our son's soul, pulls the shell out, and we watch as our son's soul manifests into a physical form.
He cries, and Meile holds him against her, and i put my left arm against her wound, and it heals completely.
"Its a success." I say as tears flow down my cheeks.
I have never been this happy.
Same as her, because she's crying the exact same way as i am.
I put my head against her shoulder, and i look at our son.
"Yewan." She says.
"Yewan it is." I say.
Our son.
Yewan.
He's a beautiful, shadowy dark blue color.
His eyes are small, his pupils have crescent moon shapes in them, and there are stars behind them.
I sit up straight, and i let Meile hold Yewan for a little more before i ask if i can hold him.
"Of course, my love. You don't even have to ask." She says, and she hands Yewan to me.
I take him, and i hold him, and i hug him, and i kiss him.
"You, my son, will grow up to be a great man." I say with a proud smile on my face, tears still streaming down my cheeks.
"Like his father before him." Meile adds, and i slightly blush and look away.
"And mine before me." I say, and i take a deep breath.
I get up, and i hand Yewan back to Meile, and i smile.
"We're really a family now."
In response to my words, she simply smiles, blushes, and nods.
After that, we both get up, and we take Yewan with us.
We go to my father's grave.
"Father. Its time to say goodbye. This will be the last time i'm here. I have a son now, so its time for me to grow up. Thank you, for everything."
After i say that, i get up, take Meile's hand, and we turn away, and we start walking away one last time.
"Goodbye, father."