The days following my mother's were bleak to say the least the world around me turned gray and somber as if all life drained out of thus once vibrant castle.
I blocked out my family from seeing me I didn't wish to interact with them or speak to them as I am.
If it was solely my mother's death that I had to come to terms with i feel i would have been better off even just a little bit. It was visions and dreams the grew more clear each time they appeared.
House targaryen grows divided and eventually fractures into two, dragons killing dragons with claws and flame treason and murder killing my family till we're just a shadow of our selves.
I didn't know weather to belive these visions or not but if that was the future it scared me.
' will I survive whats to come. '
It was a thought that became all consuming where was i in this future. it would not show me my fate but I saw the others. That of my sister especially she was a common sight in those dreadful visions a cornerstone to the events that will unfold.
I remained on my bed in fear as more and more visions poured forth of dragons burning cities to ash the common folk being helpless as they are at the whims of the dragons wrath. Those screams how they terrified me so. They were vivid the ash could be felt on my skin the screams ringing in my mind like a bell. They reach out and cry for help looking at me.
" dont look at me please, please. "
I want to help but there's nothing I can do. Just watch as flames claim women, men and children alike their body nothing but blackened ash on the ground. Hands grip my ankles as the burnt carcasses look up at me seething in hate cursing me and my family.
" your all demons "
" abomination "
" You'll die next hehehe "
" please I have nothing to do with this . " I shake my head as I beg helplessly.
I sob and plead as they drag me down to them burnt hands wrapping around my body and throat silencing me from even screaming.
* knock, knock *
I snapped back the sound of knocking drawing me back to reality. I sit in my bed hands clutching my blanket in a death grip to the point they are bone white. My breathing remains rapid as I take depth breaths to calm myself.
" thats was a dream yes thats all. "
* knock, knock *
Again for the second time.
" who is it? "
I say warily as I slide out of my bed still skittish and unnerved from the nightmares that have been plaguing me nonstop these past couple days.
" ah lady Vhaehra it is me Ashara I just wish to check up on you and make sure everything is alright. "
I swing open the door immediately to see my precious freind standing there with a worried face.
" oh dear are you okay? " she asked full of worry taken notice of my dishelved appreance and tear streaked face.
She steps into my room with out a beat grabing my hands in a clasp and leans forward her face just mere inches from mine.
" whatever is troubling you so my lady i am here for you whatever pains you let me hear so I may ease your burden. " she says with full determination and kindness. Her eyes conveying a type of reassurance that made me feel like everything was going to be okay.
Ashara you really are the best.
I sniffle as I wipe the tears off my eyes and nod. " mmh yeah. "
Ashara is most likely the only person i could find myself comfortably speaking to about my troubles of these visions and nightmares that have had me frozen in terror.
Others may have looked at me as if I was mad again like when I spoke of strange things that defy logic but not her she listened attentively as I spoke of my fears of the future unsure if they really will come pass.
I told her of the senseless violence that spreads until it eventually encompasses all of westoros bathing it in blood and ash.
I spoke of how I've watched house targaryen tear itself apart all for that damn throne using dragons to kill one another.
I hold my knees close to my chest as I rest my head atop my knees. " I dont know how to make sense of this Ashara I dont want to belive any of that will come to pass yet I cant deny it as at least a possibility. "
Ashara remains calm with her hand gently stroking my back as she speaks in a soothing voice. " well i don't think you should be here crying over what if it does or dosent."
" your strong Vhaehra i know it and nothing in this world is set in stone as some would have you belive. " she gently cusp my chin tilting my head to look at her.
"You are targaryen, blood of the dragon descendant of aegon the conquer."
" dont turn from them look at your fears and confront them. I belive you were born for great things Vhaehra if you dont like the fate you see set before you change it. "
I look at her stunned as her words stir up a overwhelming drive of desire and ambition to well up inside. Driving my fears down now overtaken by ambitions and desires.
That cruel fate that looms ahead I deny you entirely. I am targaryen I will not flee nor will I cower I will meet it head on seven be damned if its their will I shall not be broken by it.
" Your absolutely right i cant just cower like a beaten down dog. " I say full of life and bursting with pride. I scramble upwards stranding upright.
I stand on my bed as tall as I can given my diminutive stature with my fist held high in air. Ive made my decision. Ashara smiles happily as she looks at me with pride.
What I need is strength and power if I wish to turn fate on its heels. Doing so will require more then what I have here currently or could gain if I remained. I need a army that will march with unwavering loyalty a fleet that rivals even bravos, wealth that will put even corlys velaryon to shame, power within the court that will hold sway over the realms decisions and dragons. If that future really will come to pass in need everything at my disposal if I whish to stem fate of my house from disaster.
I look at Ashara with a sheepish smile as I need a favor from her. She smiles at me knowingly ready to be a accomplice in whatever im about to ask.
" whatever you wish for is my command. " she says with unwavering loyalty.