The next year was what I expected the previous year to be , ola and I grew further apart , my grades went mediocre and it was always rainy . The frequent holidays from the unexpected rain wasn't enough so humanity were greeted with a modern day pandemic , the covid-19 pandemic made the entire population chronically online and I drowned into the pleasure of flesh stimulated through an artificial and digital means ,in short pornography.
At first it began with a national emergency with a 1 month lockdown on public places , schools and parks closed down , the cases kept adding up eventually the government ordered a month of full lockdown with a curfew on shopping centers at 8pm .
Three months into the cinematic experience of a pandemic , other businesses were able to open still on a 8pm curfew .
school authorities kept us students on the edge all this time assuring school is bound to open next week , all while assigning minor homework . 6 months went by , all these months I didn't have to step outside , taking a deep breath outside felt a brave warrior like task .
All businesses made an effort to enforce a strict mandatory policy of wearing masks and social distancing .For the very first time in the recent decades you didn't have to tell anyone that their mouth stinks , everytime someone took their masks off they smelt sanitizers . I became an avid supporter of face masks , it let me hide my huge nose . when all of this had started to become the new normal , vaccine had already been developed and most had been vaccinated .
After the announcement of the starting of the offline classes , my younger brother wept unreasonably , might've been because he was the one watching youtube instead of being attentive in the online reasons and now putting in minimal effort in school haunted him .
Today at august 18 it was the result day for 10th class , I did decent enough to be not disappointed perhaps I didn't care much as I didn't put in genuine efforts , I was happy to be finally done with the board exams . I asked roan about his results he had similar results to me we both just rejoiced and talked about the absolute festival this vacation is going to be .
Now I finally talk to rin about his results , we both have a text conversation:
"yo , how was your result "
-" it was bad bro"
-" how was yours ?"
" decent , above average atleast "
+1 PICTURE from guy
" nice result bro "
+1 picture from rin
That picture was stunning , I thought he was kidding somehow , I saw a frenzy of perfect A grades , why did he have to kick me in the nuts metaphorically by pretending to be humble? .
What kind of deception I put myself under I took his words at face value when he mentioned bad results I thought they were actual bad . So many thoughts crossed my mind , we didn't truly know each other , we rarely saw each other and we both painted a character for each other in our minds . We were not together to experience each other's growth now we barely know each other , the only way hold onto this feeble bond of friendship was to keep playing each other's characters . My friends are now the message notifications , their affirmations are the memes they send .
This did not sit well with me , I spent most of my time agonizing over the last year I spent with my friends , now I am the only one left here .All alone in the 1st year of high-school . All these people around were overindulging , talking to each other and trying to lift up the mood , they were all pretending , they were just in constant denial of the bleak future ahead . If hard time did actually create strong men , I should be strong too , in-fact pathetic poetry might help people cope , if the hard times weren't enough to kill you it wasn't hard enough to end all the spouting about your superior soul , I've seen enough media to know poetry is cuck agenda.
Politics and religion are both exasperating , but what would the world be without them , balance will be lost , equilibrium of existence depends on the deep rooted evil of mankind , there is no good if there is no evil , there is no hope without despair , there are no allies without a common enemy .
While I finally was bombarded by the brand new existential dread , I was too angry to kill myself , I couldn't leave this world , somehow the chaos made me crave itself like an exhilarating drug , I wanted to ride this wave until I died , life was worth living as I started enjoying the pain and the hatred . A new hope was to see the everlasting evil and malice evolve .