"Caleb..."
She paused for a second and thought hard about her response before taking a deep breath.
"I just don't appreciate being treated like some hooker"
I panicked and got defensive, I couldn't let him see my vulnerable, not now, not like this too
"What do you want?"
He's tone changed from humour to serious real quick, as I offended him by what I just mentioned now. 'Did I go too far?'
"I wanna know who was the girl that picked up your phone"
No more hiding and why should I even in the first place, It's not like we are a couple or some sort. We just have a complex relationship/friendship or whatever people want to call it.
"A friend, now you answer me this question", he paused and too a moment before asking. "Do I ever ask you about your little boyfriend,huh?".
He sounded a bit mad when he asked that question, it took me aback and I was kinda scared to answer it.
"no"
"Good, then stop acting insecure when you literally have a whole man with you right now". Ouch, he could have been more nicer about it
"Why are you being so weird... "
I had no reason to be mad but right now he's being a huge dick and I can't be the only one who gets hurt. The sudden thought made me pause and rethink my entire experience, 'do I really like him like that or are my emotions all of the place?'
"Look...I have to go,bye"
He immediately hung up on me before I could even utter a single word, no time for me to even think of a response. The silence after the drop dial echoed through my ears, it felt unreal. I stared at the empty wall for what felt like hours yet It was only a few minutes. 'Did he really hang up on me?',was the only thought that ran threw my mind.
I wanted to go back to my apartment, my own room where I can cry out loud without anyone to question, nor judgement, away from the rest of the world. I snapped out of my head and got up, ready to escape from this house.
"Where are you going?" Zayne's voice from the hallway came sharp.
"My place, I need some time to myself", I confessed shamelessly without lying this time, I wanted to be alone this time.
"Stay, please", his voice came out soft and low, almost like he is pleading.
I turned and looked at him while walking towards the kitchen counter where he stood still, eyes gentle.
"I'm sorry", was all I could to say to him, I didn't wanna fight nor fuss about it so I hope he would understand me.
He seemed to understand and simple said 'Okay', almost like he gave up trying to reason with me and just wanted peace. I felt bad leaving him, felt bad for being such a horrible girlfriend. I was being selfish but I needed to be by myself now. I will figure this shit out after I had some space.
I kissed him goodbye before leaving his house. I ubered to my place and while waiting I get a message from my friend checking in on me, I refreshed my notification bar and got inside my ride.
After an hour I got to my place and headed straight to the shower to drown my sorrows away, cry all I want but while my emotions beat me to the bathroom cause I was already a full mess, my entire world shut down and crumbled down into pieces. I needed comfort right now, I needed him right now.
Clouded by emotions I reached for my phone while sobbing and dialed his number without thinking twice. I watched it ring, feeling my heartbeat race, but he never answered his phone. I lost my entire mind and sobbed out loud, my heart felt like it was being stabbed by tiny needles over and over again. I just crawled down to floor and closed my eyes.
A sound came through the phone that layed next to me, I picked it up and answered.
"C..Caleb..", I called out his name faintly while sniffing my nose, exhausted from everything, tired of the lies, tired of pretending.
"Yea?"
I broke down in tears all over again just from hearing his voice, I needed to be near him.
"What's wrong, are you okay", he panicked
"N-n-no", I mumbled while wiping my tears. I know I was being a crybaby right now but I could careless. I couldn't stop myself from crying.
"Where are you?, did he hurt you??"
He thought of the worst and wrong too cause my boyfriend will never lay at me, no matter how mad he gets, but hurt me? he would never.
"N-n-noo, he would never, I'm at my place"
"I will be there in 10, just stay with me on the call until I get there okay?"
"OKay"
Before I knew it he was already at my door, knocking roughly as if it was an emergency.
I opened for him and he quickly grabbed me by my waist,pulling me into a tight hug It felt gentle, warm and cozy. I felt safe,like seen and heard, I didn't want this moment to disappear,I wanted to stay in his arms forever. The smell of his cologne felt like home, like I belonged and I kept snuggling deeper into his shirt, as if I would lose him if I don't latch onto him.
"Hey..hey..It's okay, I'm here now... you're safe now.."
He lifted me up and took me inside the house, closing the door using his foot. He sat on the couch with me on top and rocked me back and forth trying to sooth me gently. I just cried out loud as if I was in pain, releasing all the emotions i kept inside me. He kept saying reassuring me over and over and over again.
"I'm not going anyway, okay?", I nodded while stilling clinging on to him tightly. I didn't want him to leave, not now, not ever.