Thinking of her, he suddenly felt overwhelmed with regret.
The promises he made to her always seemed to be indefinitely postponed.
What he gave her was never what she wanted…
She should blame him, hate him, resent him!!
He feared she didn't hate him enough, didn't resent him enough, and would just forget him like that.
He once made so many mistakes, why did she never say anything? In his memory, she always seemed to smile at him like warm sunshine, supporting all his decisions.
He said, don't wait for him for dinner, and she would say alright.
He said, don't wait for him to sleep, and she would say alright.
He said, he couldn't accompany her to the movie, and she would say it's okay, next time.
He said, he couldn't accompany her to watch fireworks, and she would say it's okay, next time.
Next time. But it never happened. He wasted it. He squandered it. It never happened again…
