This was a huge building that i was about to enter. there was some hesitation in me at this moment, and i didn't bother to look here or there as goldburg said me to go inside this building, that is what i am about to do.
There was some amount of fear inside of me, but if you call it shackle that would be wrong as it was quite something else. even if i was following someone else's plan, this was what must be done for keeping my survival, and he was my father at least. even if i don't see my mother or brother, this wouldn't be a big deal, right? like he must have also rescued them smoehow? right, and since i wasn't there he made this plan, but why? why or how did he predict what i would do? my brain was still fidgeting all around the place and 'drrrrrrrrrrrr' something from the front of the building came and started to scan me.
"deep BOOOP" it was scanning me completely like 4 to 5 times. it is always the small steps that take you to do the bigger ones, and now maybe i will enter this building soon enough i guess. i slowly turned to see people acting as what is happening to me didn't exist.
"bump" some teenage girl bumped into me. "sorry" she said while running away. alas! I'm not a harem protag at my teens(15/16) or it would have turned into a scene where i would wrongly get accused by her and slapped and people would just be background characters not moving if the budget of studio is not that high.
Anyways after few moments, maybe 10 or so minutes, the scan was completed and the door to that tall building opened, and legs were sore after all that walking. if anyone ever had to categorise me, i would have been the character with the least stamina and faint after walking for an hour or get cramps for running for 20 minutes, but today i had to overcome this limit as i also knew what was important now and enterd the building while being sore mentally and physically. all i wanted to do was to rest for at least a brief instance, but the tension kept me awake. i couldn't even fall asleep even if i wanted, felt like i was caffeinated.
There were all this cool stuff in the ground floor, all these snacks, and my stomach was growling.
Why just why would it hurt me if i ate any of them? why is this place so empty, just why? like the lights and the fans are turned on as i observed. i picked few snacks as i went up to the 1st floor while munching on the snacks, as at least dying with a full belly would be and also fulfill the gluttonous me. in the first floor there was nothing of importance i could observe.
"gold burg are you there" i asked. no response. ok no problem i can search this floor like i did the ground floor. this isn't that bad if you ask. i felt my heart beat faster as i palpitated and thoughts of just staying here entered my mind like what else could i even do, no one to guide me.
"people say a man has to guide himself even when lost" i said to myself while letting myself stay sane. i knew another way which would let me lose all this tension which was an easy escape which would drown me in pleasure lie wouldn't it be a quick escape? like there are all these monitors maybe also wifi, no one is here, i could just watch it, i could listen to audiobook, i can be free from this tension, i know i can do it but this is a public place. another thought came to block these thoughts and me from drowning myself.
Hahaa i went to a computer and tried to turn it on, another and another, none of them even opened. haha hahahahahaahah i felt grateful that i couldn't see such thing. i hated myself for even thinking of escaping myself in such a place. i knew i should have stopped myself but i couldn't control what was a flight response to me. i had to go to upper floor away from this. i already indulged in gluttony but that was necessary. i can't let myself indulge in lust or sloth. i should find an escape.