"Lena, I dare you to kiss me" Stella was biting her lip whilst twirling her hair. "PFFT, you wish" I reply. You see I'm not exactly homophobic but all the lesbian girls are.. How do I explain. Awfully nice but odd to their crushes, I will admit I'm not surprised I was Stella's crush. Let's just say, I'm awfully pretty, I hate it too. I know it sounds like I'm bragging and it feels like I am but enough people have told me I am for me to know its true. I used to get catcalled on the streets back when I was 14. Men even tried grabbing my bum on the bus, apparently id be asking for it as I had been wearing shorts. After that I shaved half of my hair and dyed that half red. I only wore black makeup and black lipstick though to be honest this just intrigued men to catcall me more as they thought I was "goth". Was I goth? I'm not sure to be honest. Sure I did wear only black leather jackets and put on black makeup with eyeliner, but surely if I didn't call myself goth I wasn't goth, right? I'd call myself more.. Emo, I suppose, then again the emo girls are so dark and desperate for attention from everyone but when they get it they go all 'shy'.
When I went through my transition from a absolute people pleaser to whoever or whatever I am now, people assumed I was bi or gay. I remember Stella from class 6gA tried to kiss me, and was surprised when I pushed her away. According to her since I shaved half of my head I was clearly going for a gay look so she assumed I was gay. Rubbish, I know. Just because I shave my head doesn't mean I'm trying to look gay!
But here Stella was yet again 2 years later still tryna get with me.
"C'mon, it's a dare you have to do it!" Stella whined.
"I'd rather lick a toilet seat then blooming kiss you" I said frustrated. Stella blinked twice clearly trying to not tear up, oh no, I had gone a bit too far. But hey its not my fault she dared me to do it something impossible! Then again I could've just said the truth. That I'm not gay. But then she'd just say "What is your sexuality?"
Too be honest I don't know my sexuality. I've kissed a few girls before but only to experiment. All my serious relationships had been with guys but I was attracted to girls all the same. I wouldn't say I'm gay, because I'm not. Then again I wouldn't say I'm straight because I'm sure there might be something more to me then that.