Nothing about my life has changed. I still have a cat named Destiny, and she recently had three kittens. One girl and two boys. Their names are Pepper, Domino, and Hubert. They're growing up nicely. Mom doesn't live in the house anymore, leaving me and my siblings to fend for ourselves. Yes we're adults, but she did such a poor job raising us to where she's practically not even done. My younger siblings and I are children of neglect, and I am a child of sexual assault. So far, neither my siblings or I have been looking for jobs. I don't even want to try and push them to because they don't listen to me. I am not worthy of respect. I'm not even worthy of being looked at like a human. There's a boy who likes me I think. His name is Nick. It would be awesome if a guy like him liked me, but I'm not even worthy of him. I don't know what he sees in me. I don't know what anybody sees in me. I just want to hide away and die in a hole somewhere. But I'm still here. Still breathing. Thinking. Still alive. But at what cost? It's funny how I used to think a thousand words was a lot. It really isn't. I never was suited as a writer. I wasn't suited for anything as a matter of fact. I used to dream of the day I would get a book published in real life, but I wrote like a neanderthal. The games I play as of right now are Genshin Impact, Overwatch, Palworld, Minecraft, Subnautica 2, Terraria, and Atomicrops. I favor Subnautica and Genshin over the other games. I still lay in bed or sit in a chair for most of my days, and I plan on making a peach cobbler for my sister's 19th birthday on June 1st. He's trans now and wants to be referred to as a man, but it's been difficult because he's been my sister for my entire life. But I'm learning. I even helped him pick out a new name for himself. The house is still a pigsty and I can't bring myself to help clean it because of my severe depression. I hate using it as an excuse, but my motivation is just not there. Maybe I'm just lazy, but even then, nobody else is doing anything. I have to do something. Anyway, that's all for today's update. I might see you on my birthday on the 23rd of June. Or I might see you next year. We'll see. Have a nice day.
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